and I just realised..

dat i never feel like posting any pics in my blog, making my blog so dull n ugly kan?
and I also realised tat i m a silent reader to many blogs, which i d never bother to acknowledge my presence in their blogs.. well tat's me allrite...
but....
i also realised tat due to the reasons above.. nobody read my blogs.. I mean new readers.. well... maybe bcos this blog is a syok sendiri punya blog kan...
The 2 stooges kat fac tu pun.. tak penah tau their stooge-mate ni ada blog.. hahaha
WAT differ this blog with the other 2 stooges?...
ANSWER: i confide to them with all my personal matters but i wont confide in this blog..well sorry to say.. wat u read is wat u got.. which is only the exterior surface of moi...which only contribute 0.05% of the real makcik in real world actually...
which only... arghhh...
P told me once.. "u shud not do it too often u know"
Moi : shud not do wat?
P: talking to yrself.. if u still wanna do it.. go infront'f d mirror and talk to it..
Moi: well wats wrong wth talking to ourselves? I mean.. when i talk to myself.. u ll see me mumbling je.. if i talk out loud.. tat d be another story.. rite?
P: then do it infront'f d mirror
Moi: Nope..
P: itu lah u.. keras kepala.. never take other ppl advice
Moi: Does it make any diference.. i mean.. i d soliloquy anywhere, any place any time.. when i feel like it.. why do u wanna make it difficult for me by wanting me to TALK INFRONT OF THE MIRROR.. whenevr i feel like talking to myself.. I mean tat thing is spontaneous u know.. i wont just simply talking to myself if i dun hv any issue..
P: ok, when do u usually talk to yrself then?
Moi: Like now maybe .. (mumbling to myself: eee org tua nih.. byk songeh tul.. aku pelempang kang..."
P: sorry i didnt hear u..
Moi: see.. shud i find any mirror now.. can u find me a mirror.. or maybe this side mirror will do ( we re in the car when the conversation took place).. Opps.. toot.. time's up.. i m already done with the talking (moi grinning)
P: ok la u win.. ( buat muka "ada lori ada bas.. ada hari boleh balas")
Moi: showing her contented smile..
After a few minutes...
Moi; Bang, kita nak makan kat mana kejap agi..
P: Buat muka dono.. while ignoring me
Moi: Helloooo.. kita nak makan kat mana ni..( a bit louder tis time)
P: huhhh! r u talking to me?
Moi: ya la... nwho else is in this car?
P: Owhhh.. tot u r still talking to yrself....(with a wide grin smile)
Moi: &^%$J*&#$$@$%% ( PAYBACK TIME.. soonnn..)

Owh.. im thinking of posting a few pics here..well.. havent posted any pics for so long anyway..and here they are... jeng jeng

muka penat cam nak mati..( after more than 24 hrs atas flite + 8 hrs transit kat dubai) pas tu sesampai kat airport.. kununnya nak jadi adventurous.. tarik luggage naik metro to hotel.. ampeh takder pemandangan menarik pun along the way.. tapi ok la... we saved a lot by taking a train to the city


1st day kat athens.. while having our bfast at the bfast corner.. well since its free.. this is all wat we ate for bfast for the whole week there..


well first thing i did when we reached the conference place was looked for the posters room. put on our posters and snapped the pics of us beside the posters.. well they r the proofs tat we did attend the conference, mingled wth other particpants, made networking.. etc.. etc..


anyone cud tell me how to upload the pics along wth its caption to the blog in fastest way?. been uploading one pic at one time and added the caption above by typing it..( hate doing it in mundane way)..

well watever it is.. i ll upload more pics when i m in the mood again... haishhhh...

And Life goes on..

First of all.. i m still here.. eyah eyahh..
tah.. tang mana nak gumbira haper tahh..
i went to the 'seminar keusahawanan' yesterday. Not tat i m so keen to be a future 'usahawan" but it was a seminar for those who took MGM3180 aka Asas keusahawanan in UPM. I m one of those who teaches this course.. which is so amazing la kan. bcos i never had any basic on this subject ( except for a 3 days 2 nites crash course tat they conducted last march).
It wasnt tat bad anyway. I mean the seminar. the speakers r the entrepenurs tat already had established businesses.. and I love the advice tat one of the speakers ie Dr zainul Azizan, the owner of Nagasteel equipment gave to the students who attended the seminar.
When he's been asked of "how to manage yr time" .. he'd just simply said.. To manage yr time.. 2 things tat u shud do are.. 1. off yr handphone.. 2. Off yr YM
which is so true la.. cos I have seen the effects of how thse two things have affected most of the workers in our country.. generally.
I have seen a freind who cant live without her hp and thinks tat she can multitask by doing her works n chatting at the same time...(no offence to ppl yg mmg cam tu ek)
There's one report which i read quite sometime ago.. on a survey and its been reported tat we re actually wasted 70% of our working (quality) time when we started checking our emails.. cos one thing will lead to another, rite? U wont just simply check yr email cos there'd be emails which link to some websites and u opened the websites , they will lead to other websites.. and it will go on.. There'd never be a stop for it..
and to quote wat dr zainul said.. " how r u gonna think of some ideas.. when u r engrossed with chatting to ppl who r online at the same time? "
That makes sense.. seriously. I mean.. I have stopped chatting while i work.. except.. I know I do have some time to do dat.. Most of the time I d be invisible.. and besides.. well im not as chatty as i used to be.. when there r always loads of work tta need to be done before deadline.. owhh well look who's talking.. aku pun kekadang terbabas jugakk.. kah kah kah
Ok la.. on lighter note.. I was free allday today. Pusat KOKO didnt call me for finishing school.. so melangok la aku kat umah.. cam bosan la plak if i had too much free time neyhh..
Uploaded the pics which i ve snapped when i was in Athens last time.. most of the pics were snapped by my freind.. and most of them r not interesting la... we snapped lotsa posters.. as there lotsa infos tat we can gain from em.
I missed the students.. n the class as well. They r gonna start operating their bizs this week. its part of the keusahawanan syllabus. haishh cam tak sabo la plak nak nengok dorang niaga. all the groups have already submitted their business plans but i havent got time to read em yet. i m having 2 appointments at HUKM next week. Tomorrow, i m off for Ortho and a Ct scan on tbursday. Cehh kalahkan pak dokter...
Gotta run.. i mean.. crawl ( kah kah kah).. lum solat n im supposed to be in bed already neyh... ubat lum makan...
well nitey nite nocturnals ( bukan aku ekk)

It cant be any lighter..

Well 12 days has passed since I last wrote in my blog. Lotsa things happened after md last 'transit' in Dubai ( which was happened to be a nitemare for me). I mean LOTSAAA things.. which.. I dun think I have neither the time nor the energy to spin the yarn to my few-kerat readers here.
But i just want to narrate abt wat happened to me this morning..
Which make 'my blood go upstairs" ...
and make me realised how patience i cud be, when confronting this kinda situation..
and I also realised.. whenever i becam mad like hell.. the only resort was to cool myself down by... ermm.. (clearing my throat).. weeping..
yeah.. me so PATHETIC..
wait till u hear the second part of the story.. I m sure u d all crying bucketss..
well.. to start a story, we ( me and my P (which stands for Pakcik, no,.. not U .. incik Shahe).. decided to go to the postoffice.. after having our bfast at kedai mamak. I ve just checked my mailbox a nite before ( with tears streaming on my chubby cheek, and tat will be anothr story okkayy) and found out tat I got an undelivered reg letter, and due to dat, i have to go to Seri Kembangan Post Office , at their kaunter serahan tingkap to obtain the letter.
We parked at a 'secluded' area ( la sangat).. thinking tat no car wud dare to block our car.. by parking their cars behind ours..
UInfortunately.. we were so WRONG. there was this silver Nissan Sentra, and her stupid owner has happily parked her car just behind our car. which is so ridiculous la kan. bcos there is no WAY that we can leave without she removed her car first..
Thinking tat the owner must be somewhere around, P went inside the post office , trying to look for the owner.. later on, he went to all the shops opposite the post office. One hour has passed but still there easnt any sign of the bloody owner. I was late for work anyway.
I even had this tot tat 'she' ( we re very sure ttat the owner must be a SHE) is doing his facial at the beauty salon nearby ( spotted one or two) opposite the post office, while both of us r waiting impatiently for her to come. after 1.5 hours, we ended up our waiting.. with the arrival of AHSO bangang outta nowhere, i think she went to the bank which is like 1/2 km away from the parking place.
and her first q was like ( while pointing to our car).. "Yours arr?" I didnt get the chance to curse her anyway.. bcos P was much quicker than me..
" so stupid! everyone says U r stupid.. u must be born stupid!" sorta.. and before i cud add to his stupid vocabularies, she has already gone!
Should have told her.. not even stupid.. u r also blind!
so much for the tot la kan...

on heavier note.. ( well there is like.. heaviest as well)..
We went to yankies Hut for dinner last nite.. I was not well yesterday ( tat will be another story too).. ermm i ll just cut the story short..
Mom called when we were abt to go back.. and i cried after the phone call.. Goddit?

ok.. here's the last one.. on heaviest note...
I was very bz after coming back from Athens.. I mean.. like bziest.. Touched down at 12.. got my luggage and all.. and i safely reached home at 2 am.. and the next morning.. I had a lecture at 2 pm.. need to prepare the lecture notes as well..
and my my.. how do u call yrself.. after a long trip of more than 24 hours.. withoutany proper rest.. ( remind me not to transit at dubai again)..
i cant even open my eyes..
and on Tuesday.. i have an appt with my beloved Rheumy.. and they have decided to start a new drug via infusion on me.. meaning tat I need to spend a nite in d ward.
which I have done dat.. been there.. last monday.
Again.. they didnt have any vacant bed for me.. so I have to wait. Just imagine.. i ve been in HUKM since 9.30 but at 4.30 pm.. i m still not able to be admitted. and they finally put me in at half past six. I was so dead tired at dat time.. and then.. after the usual check up by the MO, they discovered a huge mass in my womb.. so the mission is now changed.. next day i was put for ultra sound, xray.. gynae clinic bla bla.. and yes.. all these while, i am living with a huge ovarian tumour inside myself for God knows, how long...
well.. did have dysmenorhea frequently. and this feeling of bloatness sometimes.. well.. was thinking tat it must be due to my irregulare eating habit..and this superficial massed thingy.. well i dunno.. i blamed on my ignorance la..
I was discharged last wednesday.. have to go again next week for a CT scan and next.. i dunno.. the gynae will decide I guess.
I have another nitemare.. before i d be able to be discharged. well not gonna tell u anyway.. just remind me to get my MC from tat HO lembab itu.. she forgot to give me one.. tho i have requested it beforehand..
owh.. i forgot.. they have like tonnes of things to do kan.. HO la katakan..
well i ll tell u if there is another double heaviest note in my entry..
The only thing tat I have to remind myslef again n again.. Allah has put me into test once again.. So watever it is.. redha jek la dgn ujian yang ALlah beri ni..
kan...
Semoga makcik ini akan dimasukkan dalam golongan org yang sabar dan redha dengan ketentuan Nya.. I ll accept watever the outcomes anyway..
Hmm.. I dunno.. when wud be the next entry.. kalau ini the last one.. ( tho I m really looking fwd to posting the next one)... well this is it..
Au Revoir.. and.. kenang daku dalam doa mu.. ekkk

kih kih kih..

In Dubai again

ahlan wa sahlan from dubai..yeah.. im now in dubai airport at 4.42 am(MYT), 12.43 am(Dubai Time) and 11.43 pm ( Athens time). Anthr 8 hrs to go b4i d be able to board. Gila bosan aku, dah le emirates hampeh takbagi aku hotel voucherjust bcos i m only economy class passenger. Udah le, terminal dia dah setahun tak siap2 renovate, asal sampai jek kena turun tangga naik bas pi terminal.. Nasib baik jek entertainment dlm flite bagus..kalau idak dah lama aku hantar surat layang kat emirat4es ni..
I amsoo exhausted,checked out at 11 am tis morning and went straight to airport.. the flite departed at 5.30 ( supposed to depart at 4.40 tapi ada la manusiamana yg tak gheti2.. tinggalhand luggage tapi tuannya pi shopping) sampai the pilot siap cakap.. u have my permission to give them the dirty looks when they came..the cabin vrews siap bagi round applause lagik once they entered the cabin hahaha.
Funny,this morning,i was at the greek cafe nearby,sipping greek coffee while listening to some greek pop songs, life seeemed blissful at tat time,how i wish i cud have many other precious momemnts like thismorning.and tonite i am in dubai airport.. thousands ppl allover the world r walking infront'f me now..and tomorrow morning,i d be in the tutorial room,delivering lecture to mystudents.. Now it doesnt sound like the usual routine..it sounds more like living on a fast lane kan..kah kah kah...
Sekali sekala leh la wat cam tu.. cuba tiap2 bulan like my bro.. ada la yg tertiarap tgh jalan karang..
I am now trying to stay awake with a can of pepsi,some crackers and a bottle of mineral water..
I miss my crib ( kater incik Shahe) so much... my "Pakcik".. kirim perfume..so tadi sempat merayau2 cari.. its much cheaper than the one i asked in Athens..
I spent yesterday, strolling around the places nearby..ended up 'shopping' kat Hondos Centre. tapi takshopping pun.. later i found a supermarket which is actually behind the hotel buildinhg.. cett..dah nak balik baru jumpa... purchased some greek coffee and toffee for the kids..
Owh btw,while i was walking to the shopping centre yesterday,when a guy managed to catch me and guess wat? i shrieked a bit thinking that he'sgonna pickpocket me.. but he handed me a 10 euro note and squished it onto my palm instead..Tak sempat aku nak cakap apa2 dia dah lari...
hahaha he must think tat ilooked a bit forlorn wanderinng around the places... well dah selamat duit tu aku guna for d lunch.
owhh... batt dah kong.. cess... tak sempat aku nak tulis byk2..wat am i gonna do for the next 7 hours ni....huwaaaaaa....
some arab monsters r preying my seat now...maunya aku tak berganjak dr tempat duduk ni...

Another day in Athens

yeah.. today is my free day.. duno where to go yet.. masih lagi melepak kat lobi hotel ini.. (alone occay), my companion buddy dah balik (uwaa).. and i cant wait to go back home too... missed my nasik kerabu..( i think i ve lost a few pounds alreday,cehhhh lagik maucakap kan).
Yesterday, i was alone for the half of the day. Zura went back to the hotel to check out at 11, and outta blue i became so independent. ( aku selalu cam tu if i had friends with me, i wud be so ignorant hahaha, ). so after hearing quite a number of mundane lectures ( bcos it wasnt my kinda- niche area), i decided to go back. It was still early tho.. around 4 pm and the sun was above my head.. tersangat la teriknya ( hitam la makkk cam ni kah kah ). Intead of taking a usual cab ( cos they will charge us double fare if we took it infornt'f d hotel), i walked to a next block , heading to a kossoumoli tram station. Since everything is written in greek character, aku pun asked for a help dgn seorang greek god (yang hidung dia sangat 'tinggi': toread: sombong), tapi tak kira gak, aku wat muka seposen .. yeahh makcik kalau kat obersea.. sentiasa dgn muka seposan yg tatau malu. so it cost me 80 cents to go to syntagma square. was looking for some souvenirs to bring back ( they said there were lotsa souvenir shops there). so berjalan la aku tanpa arah tujuan.. from the tram station.. i m so hopeless at map reading.. so baik tak yah bawak kan). Found a small shop with a nice lady there who helps me a lot. To make it worst, tapak sandal aku dah tercabut dr pagi tadi but i did not realise it till the aftrenoon. From the shop, i walked to the metro station to go back to the hotel which is nearby the omonia station. I was lost , ( told u aku ni hopeless wth direction) , i was like going around n around bcos , the place is actually sorta square area ( its called Omonia Sq btw), i tot i came out from the right exit ( svbb dia byk exit) so berpusing2 la aku kat situ.. till i spotted a greek policeman yg tgh sonok menyaman org. It so happened dat the hotel was just across the street, was looking at the landmark actually tapi aku tak nampak pun.. cess). safely arrived at my hotel room, with a flushed face at 8 pm ( masih lagi terang benderang tho). I had problem unlocking the door, luckily Zura has already informed the person at the check in counter so he happily ( agaknya) unlocked the door for me.
Well time to go sight seeing now ( if i d be able to find all the places la hahaha), or else need to look for anther greek policeman lagi kan...
Haishhhh.... sengall..

Ciao..

From Athens with love

Hahh.. i am now enconscedly writing from the lobby of my hotel.. Yeah, we have got the wifi at the conference place.. but i havent brought my lappy yet.. Nanti la esok2 bila aku dah bersorangan. Zura is going back tomorrow, leaving me behind,and i can only leave on saturday. Today, we had a great skive, went to the remnant Temple of Zeus, Acropolis ( which i only managed to climb half way.. mak sakit lutut occayy!) and Olympic Stadium. It was so darn hot sampai aku rasa cam nak heat stroke, the rest of the interesting places,, it d be all in my memory.. nak snap gambo aku dah tak larat nak pi sensorang.. the knee isstill in pain.. once walked non stop.
The Greek, my God, if u cud only see their noses.. leh wat sangkut hanger katernya.. and the features..wahh.. hensemmm sungguh... havent been able to snap withany of theGrreek guys yet.. they r not friendly like any other Europeans nn most of them cant speak english.. to make it worse, we cant even read their writingss..
Eh i ve togo now..wanna go upstairs, wash myself.. and off to zz land.. i still hvtomorrow and the next day to explore Athens.. tu pun kalau rajin la..
well.. ciao for now..

temporarily closed

Am flying to Greece tonite.. will be back next monday ( haishhh terus ada kelas plak tu)...kacooo...
Doakan kepulangan ku selamat pergi dan balik.. (haishh... cam sentomentol la plak)
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Bye

Hapdet katernyaa

Aku sebenonya sekadar mendengar kata, sama cam aku dengar kata ma n bak, dengo kata cikgu, dengo kata pensyarah, dengo kata kawan2 (yg betul jek la). so bila incik shahe suh aku HAPDET, aku pun HAPDET la.. walaupun jiwa aku meronta-ronta melaung2 perasaan malas dan TAKNAK, TAKNAK.. aku tak nak happdet....
.. tapi disebabkan aku ni seorang yg mendengar kata.. ...
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AKU pun HAPDET la...
walaupun hanya sebaris ayat ( ewahhh lirik lagu jugak yg terkuar)..
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akhir kata..


YEAHH! aku dah HAPDETTTTTT (ada gema)

Sekian.

Payday

I came in early today. My 2 good frends semua pi dengar talk by the Elsevier editor of 'how to publish a good journal" katernya ( sori pakcik., aku dah terikut2 gaya ko cakap der gamoknyer). So I was left alone this morning ( still early, baru kul 8.30). and since i know tat I'd be left alone today, soI ve decided to finish the saki baki posa aku yg lum berganti agi tu.. ( iya, aku sungguh kejik, dah penghujung cam ni pun lum abis lagik huhhu), and to top it all, kawan aku jugak dgn sesukahatinya suh aku wakilkan dia pi meeting sbb dia nak pi dgr talk. so dalam kul 11 karang, aku dgn blur dan sopannya ( or is it sopan dan blur) akan duduk sebagai pokok bunga hiasan kat meeting yg langsung takder kena mengena ngan hidup aku ( boleh gitu?)
and since its stll early to do things that need to be done, i logged in to maybank2u to pay all the bills , deposit, downpayments etc, tengok2 aku dah abiskan sebulan gaji aku, infact terpakai lagi a few hundreds, boley? so.. (and i just noticed gaji baru masuk hari ni and i ve finsihed it all? kellesss mak kah kah kah) so lagi sbulan aku kutip la pucuk2 kayu kat tepi jalan wat makan kan? kah kah kah.
ishh tengok keadaan, kena la puasa sepanjang bulan rejab ni nampaknyaa.. sejuk la perut mak aku nengok anak dia yg kushyuk dan bertawadd-uk berposa nih..
Opssss. luper nak cakap.. my condition is getting better.. ehh if not, takde la rasanya nak merapu meraban kat sini kan..
Dah.. nak kena wat claim so dat i ll have some money to be taken with during my trip early next month.. Pakcik! ko nak kirim aper dari Greece? Aku wat balik mak tiri Hercules kat ko nak? kih kih kih

Moral of the story: 1. Gaji aku ciiput, gaji ko byk pakcik.. sampai beli 7 helai baju kije.. tu stock aku setahun tuhh..
2. I m so hopeless when it comes to financial management.. boley?

Sick!

im so so so so not well today, actually it started since last saturday, nope.. last week actually. Well something went wrong wth my body ( macam la tak penah pun kan), the right side of my body from head to toe is in great pain ( the shoulder hurts, the wrist swells, the elbow in pain, the knee can not be bended, the ankle.. still swelling like hell ). Even tho I ve been lying on the sofa for like 24 hours, the body is still aching, and it metastatasized, i mean the pain, sekejap sakit pinggang, sekejap kat shoulder blade. The worst thing i m having fever as well, but its in low grade form. tatau nak cakap apa.. last nite, i woke up at 3 amfeeling so fibromyalgic, so i took a panadol and i sweated later on. Tis morning, since I ve a class at 2 to 4, I ve to drag my body to the fac. Cant postpone the class, bcos I dun have other empty slots to fill in. and muka aku yg moyok ni of course la, very obvious, kalau dah tak sehat, when a colleague asked, i ve to tell him dat, I dun hv the energy to move my body anymore and wish someone could put me inside the upih kelapa and drag me to the destination.
So pathetic!
by the way, last nite, i dreamed of my late friend who passed away last year in Mekah..
reminds me of some "so called friends" aku yg senang bersama tapi susah sensorang ittew.. kejik ! huhuhuhu. Aku rasa kalau aku mati pun lepas setahun kot baru dorang tahu..
*mode emotional*
i m taking a medical leave tomorrow.. Losing my appetite some more..
Nasi dimakan bagaikan pasir .. huhuhuhu

complementing the unfinished products

It was a HECTIC weekend! Seriously, i sacrificed my whole weekend for the sake of students yg ko-cen-tai.it was an 8 to 6 activities. and we only stopped for tea and lunch break. Ko bayangkan lah, betapa makcik ini bercakap dan cakap dan cakap jugak sampai kering tekak ni.. heeshh.. and to see all those students melopong dengar apa saja jek kelentong aku.. kah kah.. its priceless!
i was still ok on saturday. setelah 'dera' bebudak tu skit2 for the ice-breaking activity, they started to feel relaxed. Or else, i almost felt the tension amongst them when i first arrived. after all, they r not from my faculty. Later on, for the next 6 hours, I really had a good time. thse students, when they'r given an opportunity to be themselves, they wud come out with lotsa creative ideas, and u would be surprise, especially seeing their performance in all those sketsas.
However, things were not so good on sunday. i was a bit worn out after the saturday's activity. ached all over.. but still i cant just back out at the last minute. so nak taknak.. i just prayed tat my condition will get better by the afternoon. the students from my own faculty were not as creative as the ones that i conducted on saturday, but there wud alwasys be one or two who'd be outstanding. If the tagline from the saturday's school was "dua-dua", and I think tat was something that they picked up during their orientation week, the tagline on sunday's school was "unfinished product". and they actually referred the term to themselves..students are unfinished products. i guessed I m the only one who even laughed more. and they continued laughing when they saw me cant put a stop to this contagious laugh.
i was totally out when i reached home at 7. so darn tired, physically and mentally.. i just hit the bed rite after the shower and it was only 7 pm. Owh before hitting the bed, i gulped some painkillers,put some blanket, dah demam der pun masa tu.. and off to zzzland. Woke up at 7 am this morning.
begitulah adanya...
len kali nak buat lagi pun... besides achieving something in my SKT, i can also get some extra money.. more than enuff for few stress therapies next time.. kan kan incik Shahe kan?

makcik's day out

i was on leave today.. as i told incik shahe, i went for a stress therapy at J-Card day at JJ Taman equine. Ye la,,sapa lagi nak abiskan duit yang berkepuk-kepuk kat dalam bank tu kan ( bukan duit aku. duit org) kah kah kah
so dengan tekad dan semnagan yang kental, I reached there at 9.30, thinking that we'd be the first one arrived.. ghopanyaa....
hampeh.. dah berbaris2 keter parking kat luar, meaning dat d parking lots inside r fully occupied. Thank God Cik zura managed to park at the rooftop parking and i was too bz sipping coffee with lotsa sugar n cream to rejuvenate the energy.. yess aku sungguh hampehh..
Actually i m not into shopping wth crowds. my kind'f shopping is.. a pleasant one on monday morning and of course la, time takder sale.. it ll be very empty..
so tis is sort'f change ( actually i need ppl who can push the trolley )kah kah kah.. tau la aku ni.. bawak barang skit.. cam dah nak patah tangan
We managed to come out'f the JJ at half past 6!
korang bayangkan le.. the time we spent inside was longer than the time we spend at work all day.. tapi tak kisah la.. janji dah ambik cuti.. not like some ppl whom I believed came straight from their offices.. cladded with office attire ( hari ni khamis.. so most of them wear batik0 .. apa kes!
kalu nak skive pun berpada-pada la kan.. at least bring some extra clothes and u can change it in the toilet.. ( habis la aku bagi cadangan yg amat kellless)
Tho i didnt spent tat much ( compared to my friend), and i did wait for her who was at the kid's section for more than 2 hrs. jenuh la aku bilang org kuar masuk ngan incik guard yg buat lawak bodo kat depan tu..
so the result from this therapy.. aku sakit kaki.. n sakit lutut...
stress whoaa... esok lecture kul 8.. can i change the topic to ' CC's day out at JJ for a so-called stress therapy".. boley?
anyway.. the good thing out'f tis is..i managed to buy an advance bday present for beloved ma n bak. (it wont be a surprise one tho as aku siap consult saiz depa in the middle of the chaotic crowds)
seriously, regardless the hike of fuel price , the hike of so many necessary goods, people are still spending their money lavishly like no tomorrow. I still have no idea why ppl want to buy so many pillows n bed linens just bcos they put the unbelievable discount price. some people bought few big suitacses some more.. and they had like a few trollies to put all the goods.
ye, aku sungguh tak paham.. i just bought things tat i have planned for ages to buy, only i havent had time to buy it til now..and there r items tat i was still unable to buy bcos it doest suit my taste..
so lebih kurang aku ni.. kiranya a good consumer kan? kih kih..
ye tepuk to CC!

Woke up at the wrong side of the bed

well.. the title narrates it all.. and my grumpiness only started when I could not find my body shop perfume bottle after the final touch up. Scruffed thru all the bags, tote bags, over nite bag, hand bag.. yet i still couldnt find it. i wear the perfume whenever i m not in my menses time (get wat i mean?), and dabbed other perfumes when i m in tat time of the month ( still get wat i mean?)..
yeaa.. aku biol hari ni.. after swearing like 100 times and later merintih cam org mati anak kucing .. i was still unable to find it. Ishh i have other perfumes tat i can wear.. tapi tu la.. today is the sparkle sequioa's body shop day.. kalau takder.. jgn harap aku nak pakai lain..
ishh... i remember i held it and planned to put it in my overnite bag as i was at my bros last weekend.. ishh.. I am soo absent minded nowadayss...tuihh!
so i dragged this grumpiness all the way to work. I have the first class tonite.. ( but i dun feel like preparing any lecture notes,, boley? ) there goes the award for this year's most dedicated lecturee ( another ptuih!)
the usual bfast partner decided not to come today.. lagi la aku grumpy.. and its been raining cats n dog since tis morning..
To add to my grumpiness.. i could not find the air tickets.. i remember i just put it in the first drawers along with all my monthly pay slips.. the drawer.. ishhh was an extremely messy.. while r'ransacking' my own drawer, i was like.. allah huakbarr.. mana aku letak ni.. for 100 times.. (luckily i was not into swearing mode)..
I blamed my age for this so bloody absentmindedness.. and my 'taking for granted'-ness.. but i know the ticket is in the drawer..
after abt 15 mins.. i found the ticket.. yes.. its actually inside the drawer.. leaning to the wall of tat drawer.. ( ko imagine la sendiri.. bahasa aku ni pun dah lintang pukang)
and now i feel like... makan goreng pisang sambil lepak atas l-shaped sofa aku tgk 'shutter' the movie leh?
Cam bosan jek hari ni..
and yes.. i am still in 'grumpy' mode..
rasa cam nak makan anak lebah jek..ke memangh ada anak tebuan dalam perut aku ni? it hurts like.. hell.. ( no like reban ayam)

The next Philip Kottler?

Seriously, I m so oversaturated today.. well forget abt "sepi' with this kinda situation.. 'sepi' wud be the last in my list for he time being. Let me begin the story.. ( bunyi org tiup nafiri kat belakang " sound effect' beb)
I was told dat i wont be teaching any courses this semester, and kalau ada pun, theer wud be one, and i m so darn confident that they wont appoint me to teach the course ( FYI, it was "asas keusahawanan' course, which is a university course for the students who have registered starting 2007/2008 session. so, since all the students will reg for this course, and the experts who came from the econ n mgmt fac are not enuff.. they have appointed lecturers from each fac, and yrs truly ni.. have been selected amongts a few others la. I have attended its TOT kat sban last march.. which i have to admit.. i was totally 'bingaied' thru the course. so we ( me n my 2colleagues from Biochem n a anatomy depts, just sat quietly and let the experts yg mmg dah taraf sifu tu controlled the floor. and dgn konpidennya jugak, i dun think they will let all the students reg this course at one time.. they must put the quota for the numbers taking this course kan.. and THEY did.. latest info dat i got a few days ago tat, they ( the xperts) will handle all the classes, and hearing tat, i was so relieved, bcos I can imagine how much damage wud be done if i took the class..
surprisingly, well expectingly la kan.. i was told to handle one class which the group will consist of the students frommy faculty, ( wat happened to the experts yg ramai2 kat their facs) and the reason is .. bcos the studnts came from yr faculty... and to add it more.. i have no teaching workload tis sem ( Cett.. i ve been planning to be publication productive tis semester).. and end up.. I m gonna teach the nursing and dietetic students about the principle of entrepeneurship.. best la sangat kann.. I cant even pronounce the word rite..
and to show how dedicated i am.. the class will only start from 8 pm to 10 pm.. twice a week.. so i have to bid goodbye to my early nites.. kah kah.. ( no.. they gave me the timetable bcos nursing studnts only finished their classes at 7pm every day.. ) well thinking abt them, i was so lucky during my heydays.. have to salute la this nursing students whom majorities r the veteran
I m offering anothr course at the last minute anyway.. so they wud think tiwce abt appointing me in teaching this course next sem kah kah.. ( yes.. i m so smart rite? ). there will be more students who r registering for tis course next sem.. and we only have 6 lecturers from our fac who have attended the TOT.. the chance of me teaching again next sem is very huge tho.. and i have anothr 3 core courses to teach next sem.. when can i have the time to produce papers la?
anyway on lighter note.. i m not complaining bcos of my teaching workload.. i m dissatisfied bcos i have to teach the class at nite.. and i ve heard lotsa creepy stories regarding this building at nite.. scary laweyyy
anyway... I hope 'it' wont show its faces to me la during the time..
or else i t d gonna be anothr label in my blog namely "Ghost stories' kan?

S E P I ..

still in 'sepi' mode.. been humming tis song since i watched the clip on tv tis morning, b4 i went down to work.. the movie trailer just complete the weepy part of it. kinda haunting song tho.. and every time i hear the song.. i never failed to weep..
sedih wooo.... (i mean if u really 'listen' to the song). well I do..

eh kira ok la tu kan.. sekali sekala in sentimental mode..

attaching the lyrics here..

sepi hati terjadi lagi
mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
biar senyum hadir di hariku
namun ini hanya ada di bibir
di bibir saja
aku ini yang bisa mengerti
walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
namun berat beban di hidupku
biarkan saja biar saja
hanya ku yang tahu
sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap kuberdiri
oh! ada saatnya kubicara
bila hatiku t'lah bulat
sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam
oh! sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri
oh! ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku t'lah bulat
sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam..


anyway.. life has been pretty hectic recently. manjang meeting.. manjang training...
sungguh productive makcik nowadays..
.. but still i feel like this song is telling about...
heeee... *mode bingai*
kah kah kah

Loneliness ( translated : sepi)

wawawawa.. at last i finally feel like updating this blog. Well, actually i m not dat bz , well not as bz as Incik Shah la kan. Tapi seperti biasa la i tried to make myself bz, so dat ppl wont point their fingers at me and accusing me of not doing any works ( ka kah kah). Boleh kan gitu? 'This will be the last day of our freedom ( mine especially, bcos the studnts will return next week, the new students will start flooding in this coming monday, and we have our not so grand orientation week which i ve been including myself as one of the 'menyebuk' comittee. well its good for yr SKT kan.. cesss!
Anyway, back to my last day of freedom. we, d 3 stooges, decided to celebrate it at alamanda. yes, tats the only place which is very close to our fac, and u can get to see n mengumpat all those govt servants ( erm I mean full govt servants )which will be having their shopping sprees rite after gaji day. ( uish jahatnya aku kan)
Anyway, we did manage to get the tickets to watch .. jeng jeng jeng.. guess wat..! we watched Sepi the movie, yes.. a malay movie ( yg lepas aku tengok, i ve given it a 5 star).. its the same movie from the director who directed 'Cinta" ( yes, ni info makcik nak bagitau specially for Incik Shah) kah kah kah.
I m in the mood of watching lovey dewy and weepy movie, so here it is. and i have to admit, tis movie is worth watching,, the dialogues are so natural, and the plot.. ooohh my God, terasa meresap masuk dlam hati sanubari ku.. U wud just simply weep by watching their face expressions. ( Incik Shah! lu patut tgk citer ni! )
well im not gonna elaborate any further, but to summarise it all.. all those 3 stories.. its all abt the second chance in love.. ( and the sound tracks, mak aihh.. remind me to buy the OST when they come out)..
and the cinematography,, its so.. beautiful. U have to watch it la.. if u wanna evaluate it.. ( agak2 berapa Khabir Bhatia nak bagi komisen kat aku ni ek, advertise movie dia hahah)
its a good movie, seriously.. If u have such a sentimental, 'looked strong outside but actually u r fragile inside' character ( cam aku.. kah kah kah), then tis is the movie for u.. its worth yr 7 ringgit ticket tau.. at the end of the movie, u r gonna sit back, reminiscing over yr life and have to agree, tat it might have similarity with some events happened in yrs.. ( but Im sorry, if u do not feel anything after watching this movie.. then.. there's something wrong la with u kah kah kah)
owh well.. this is gonna be a full weekend la as I have another training course on saturday and sunday. I cant stop talking about tis movie la, bcos u know, when u have watched a movie tat did some twist in our hearts, it d be like a song that wud spin in yr head all day long.. alaa.. cam ala ala incik Shah yg hum lagu rihanna dr pagi sampai ptg tu la.. huhuhuhu
well.. im gonna end la tis entry.. with 2 dialogues dalam movie tu.. in diff stories..
mengapa kita diketemukan hanya untuk berpisahh..(Adam to Ilyana)
Kita diketemukan kerana kita sudah ditakdirkan untuk bersama.. (Sufi to Marya)

owh btw.. i did weep... a bit.. i tried to control my tears.. i really did ( nak kontrol macho la tu kununnya).. but as a result, i felt tis lumpy thing inside my chest...
Duktur .. tulung... kih kih kih

Moral of the story: kalau nak nangis tu.. jgn tahan2.. nanti sapa susah kalau sakit dada? mereka dan keluarga mereka jugakk,...

Scribbling

Incik Shah! i m 'hapdeting' now. okkeyy!
Yes, I know, I ve been bz and lazy for the past 3 weeks. besides there r lotsa 'jinxy' things ( if there's such word)thing happened to me. Not that I m complaining. duh!
Eh.. 2 jejaka malaya ajak pi bfast kat tepi kuil hindu la plak.. ishh..
hmm.. i ll write again next time la ek,... janji dah 'hapdet' kan kan

Updating.

Finally, i am able to update my blog.. after ermm 8 days? hmm quite long for someone who faithfully updates her blog recently. and as priorly stated, i did not have time to evn logon to internet when i was home.
I came back last wednesday, took an 8.50 flite, reached lcct at 10 and straighytly headed to the faculty afterwards. siap heret luggage tu huhuhu.
Amboi Incik Shah, tak sayang jari tul tinggal komen cam tu.. takpa takpa.. ada kari ada pengeras.. kahkahkah
The ankle is getting better, on the day i went back, i was the last one who went inside the plane, apa taknya, jalan cepat skit daripada kura-kura jek. tapi dengan semangat yang kental, sampai juga aku ke rumah dengan selamatnya, sempat singgah pasar baung beli nasi kerabu hitam. hari Jumaat, aku dah berjalan sakan.. hari sabtu pergi Pengkalan kubor in the afternoon, and hari ahad, dengan semngat yang berkobar, bcoa i knew, i wont be able to shop for the next 2 days cos I d be bz attending the khenduri. Therefore, i shopped in a record time. as bak wont be able to park anywhere, the people, ( i mean the orang luar as the kelantanese called em ) have flooded all shopping areas in KB. most road are congested. Huh.. tobat aku nak balik Kb time cuti skolah next time. dan dengan gigih juga aku memanjat tangga pasar lama tu semata2 nak beli tudung dekat tenpat makcik yg biasa aku beli. i am one of her regular customers anyway. and believe it or not, i finished my shopping less than an hour, went to 3 shop at different places. im impressed wth myself.
Monday, we were at auntie's at Kg huda whole morning. at 3, we cant stand the heat anymore, so i went back home, terus terbongkang dalam bilik. on Tuesday, we went there after zohor. manusia punya la ramai. lupa pulak nak snap pic with the pengantin yg sungguh bz layan tetamu dan bertukar persalinan 4-5 kali. My sis sent another auntie back home. She just lost a daughter ( my cousin) 2 months ago. Bila dah masuk tumah dia, nampak anak2 dia yg kecik2 tu, ternampak2lak dia berlegar2 dalam rumah tu.. terus menitis airmata.
it was a very packed schedule masa kat sana.. cam tak puas jek duk melepak2 kat rumah.. byk lak tu yg lum makan. i rushed back thinking tat i have to attend a 2days workshop yg tetiba telah dipostpone last minute. arghhh.. rasa nak jek patah balik Kb semula.
The faculty was a bit quiet. looks like everyone has decided to spend the holidays wth the kids. Eh aku yg tak der kids ni pun, patut gak cuti kan?
Mood masih lagi takada untuk bekerja. and due to the heat n humid weather in KB, aku telah mendapat batuk2 dan selsema yg masih lagi tak kuar dengan sepenuhnya.. cam hampeh jek kan...
apart from that... i m still kicking and alive.. boleh gitu?

During my absence..

I was exhausted today. First, it was due to my swollen ankle, yang masih sakit bagai nak mati ( mati ke?) bila nak jalan. Tot of calling sick at first, tapi baru ingat aku tak tutup pc kat opis, and besides, i need n have to finish one paper to be submitted to the journal.Kalau tak set cam tu, alamat Im not gonna publish anything la tis year. Being in one of the reserach university, we r forced to publish lotsa papers so tat tis RU status will remain. Sapa cakap kije kat universiti tadak tekanan? Tekanan bagai.. but Im not gonna grumble n complain in here la. Life's too short to do dat anyway.
Anyway, I ll be on leave starting tomorrow till 27th. kalau cuti lama2 tu kiranya balik kampung la. Attending a cousin's wedding as well. I m the only one who ll be back for the khenduri. The rest of my siblings semua bz kalahkan VIP (not blaming them tho). My 1st bro is in Japan till 31 st, The 2nd one is in France on tat khenduri day. The youngest sis sibuk on call pasal kena cover senior yg tgh xm. tat left me yg semedang tak bz la kan ? kah kah kah. Tu pun kira aku dah ponteng 2-3 meeting time aku cuti. alaaahh.. kije tak kan pernah abis la pun.
So I ll be in KB dan berpoya-poya dengan bahagianya for the next few days. I can feel the excitement already.
I wont be posting during my absence. Wud be very lazy to get online at home. With the slow connection over there, who will..
Ishhh sudah terbayang keenakan nasi kerabu nih... yummyy..

Till then.. have a good life !

ahh another day to go thru.. i think i had enuff of the rest, and in my case, too much rest, will make my condition worsen.. the ankle is still swollen tho..
anyway, it's such a fine morning.. a bit cloudy, such a nice day to be tucked in bed all day long.. my sis text-ed me, cant wait for me to go home.. she has passed her exam by the way, and now she cant wait to treat the rest of the family members (me included la kan, kakak sayang dia.. kah kah kah). im going back to attend a cousin's wedding. besides i havent been back sincle last raya haji.. and tat was like 6 months ago? fuiyooo! Zura, the sis, asked me wehther i wanna share in buying a wedding gift for the cousin, and I said yes, yeah, its another wedding gift of microwave for the cousin, we gave a microwave to anthr cousin on her wedding last year.. yes.. we re a 'microwave' family.. kah kah kah.
am trying to paste some pics in here.. well, it was me 39 years ago.. heheh just kidding.. it's my youngest niece.. oppss.. the second youngest i think.. lost counts of the numbers of nieces n nephews..