Frustration with a capital F

maybe its more of disappointment.. truly disappointed when a person did not do his job well.

In another word, I am totally mad..

2 weeks ago, I asked the person in charge with all these deliveries including mails and documents to send my document consists of an application for a postdoc along with all his certificates and papers. I spent half day to compile all the necessary documents and put in the out tray in the dept office. I put a stick on note telling the PIC to deliver it safely to the Research and Internalization office at level 2.

As i havent heard any news from the office, i ve been looking for the guy whom sent my document and everytime I looked for him in the office, he is either missing in action or went to some other place.

But today, I cant wait any longer, he was nowhere to be seen so I asked for his mobile no instead from another girl in the office. I called him wanting to know to whom did he sent the document previously. He said he just put the document in the counter as no one is around that time.

Priorly, I called the girl in charge with the document at the Research office and she informed that she hasnt received any documents before. She then lookedevery nook and cranny for the document but to no avail.

I later messaged the guy asking him to trace back the document. Since I had class from 2-5 this afternoon, i never got to see him in person. Never thought of checking any phone msg as well

And guess what, i just read the msg, and he told me to reprint the document again because he said ' it is ok to do that"

so, here comes the ugly part..
I feel like banging his head on the wall (if i were there infront of him now).. feel like cursing as well. but my vocabulary is so limited tho.

So i replied his msg- I have no problem with reprinting the document but the fact that I have spent half day to prepare the documents and to compile all the appendices which God Knows, where the hell shall i start to look for them again in my congested superslow pc.. and how should i let the candidate knows that the staff here is so underefficient , he can always lose your documents-

The only thing that I can do now is crying with frustation..

I so detest the people who take for granted of their works.

Enough said.

and i so hate the people who think that they re so superior they can belittle others without mercy.. and if u think u r witty and funny.. i suggest u should use other words to describe yourself, maybe old, and snobbish? or maybe u think u re so good u can act like GOD?

People have feelings and u have none?

Case closed

deep diving, caffeine overdose and bingeing

I had a hectic weekend last week.  Everytime i have student activities during weekend, I would try to organize my house chores ( which i always do it on weeekends) accordingly. It rained mostly everyday last week. and by saturday, I feared that if i put my laundry outside, the rain will come and wet all of them again. So i just hanged a few headscarves  and one or 2 pieces of my handwashed clothes on saturday, thinking that i will have another day to hand the remaining of my laundry. It was a bright sunny day on saturday which actually extended to the evening. Hence, i hanged most of the clothes from the washing machine on sunday in the balcony. Too bad, it was raining heavily in the afternoon, and even me, almost got wet while walking to the car thru the heavy downpours.
On happier note, it was one fruitful finishing school. Thou i did sacrifice my weekend to facilitate the final year students on the probable outcomes once they re graduated, i was definitely satisfied with the results. Most of the students managed to obtain as much info, and they actually tried to practice it once they r applying jobs. Unlike the previous FSs, most students seemed to focus on the content and the gist of the ideas of FS. Some even asked to take photos with me, and i was overjoyed.
As an educator, nothing will most excite us, rather than the positive response obtained from our students.

Alas, due to the yester's heavy rain, I woke up with  cold shivers all over my body. I thought it was due to the cold morning, yet it prolonged even after i have reached the faculty. I went to the hospital with one of my student as right after eidul adha, i ll be having 2 appointments with 2 clinics at HUKM. Therefore, I need to do the blood test a week prior. The rest of the week will be spent attending a workshop.
 The shivering thing however started to diminsih once im done with a glass of iced nescafe and one large piece of tosai to be eaten with coconut chutney.. yummylicious..
Yesterday, i attended a workshop of 'deep dive'. It is actually an established sequential  procedures in developing ideas of either innovation or invention. This procedure has been applied by many infamous innovation/design companies to produce thousands of innovations. As we were in 2 small groups of less than 10 people yesterday, we had so much fun doing the assignment by the facilitator ( he is an english professor who specialised in this particular procedure, he even had the license to practise this process). And, we were assigned to redesign the airline meal tray.

We had so much fun, cutting the paper, babbling non stops, fighting over crazy ideas, cracking jokes whilst the professor will blow the whistle if things went overboard. and.. oh yes, I m thinking of changing my profession now that I am exposed to such activities yesterday lol. Sharim was one of the attendees yesterday, and knowing him who enormously full of humors, we giggled a lot while explaining our sacred innovation to the professor. Oh, by the way Sharim will be featured as one of the juries in the next Malaysian Masterchef episode that will be shot in cameron Highlands. He is supposed to go to CH next week, and we were green with jealousy when he was talking about it.
Anyway, I sincerely think that product designer has the most impressive vocation of all. We were shown of the video regarding the creativities occured whilst members of one established design company in US brainstormed on a reinnovation of a shopping cart. After 5 days, they managed to come up with the new shopping cart, selected amongst a few prototypes. Ohh Emm Gee, now i really feel that I need to be in such environment, where creativity rules and you ll never get bored with your working environment.

Anyway, after a few cups of brewed coffee, a lot of carb and proteins in buffet style, we managed to finish our innovation with some interesting features hahaha. Unfortunately, it cannot be put in here, as we worried that other airline companies will actually steal the ideas of our wacky definition of airline meal tray. Trust me, after seeing our tray, one can never be bored with the meal tray anymore LoL.

I do not mind to come back for another enjoyable session this morning. Yet, the session has completely ended yesterday. So here I am at my workplace, half mindedly thinking of my dream vocation ( again.. *sighing*). Talking about this coming eid-ul-adha, I am not going back home to celebrate it. I had clinic appt right after the eid, and if i were to go back home, i probably need to drag my leave which probably will past the eid leave. Anyway, in KL, they only celebrate the eid for a day. My family however will not perform any 'qurban' this year, and if there is no 'qurban' meaning that this year's celebration wont have the definite meaning behind it. Besides, none of my siblings will be back. My youngest sis is going to Bali with her hubby, and the rest will be busy as ever. I will fill my time to clean my house, and on the eid day, I ll be going to my collegue's. So cleverr missy ( pat my own back).
And,, next weekend after the eid, I m having my 2nd FS. owhh.. havent i told you, the reason of m edoing all the extra works is to save some money for my prosthetic surgery. ohh yeahhh...
Ta peeps..

I had 2 sets of McDonald's burger in a week? matiler gemuk nanti LOL

This status is suitable to be posted in FB, but then, tried not to put these crappy status in there, or else, this would bring the disgusting snorts from all the people in my list lol.
Anyway, weekend was spent quietly and productively ( in the kitchen). It is very rare of me to be seen cooking in the morning for heavy dishes such as fried koay teow or anything, but then, I had enough of toast and butter already. Besides, the heavy dishes will last till afternoon. I had meatball spaghetti on sunday. need to buy the grocery  by next week, then.
Today is the 1st day of October. It seems yesterday, since I last stepped my foot on this house after a year medical leave. That was in early January. How time flies. I am maid-free  since last May, and things are going better. I even tried to clean the house once a while, thou it'd be quite difficult for me to do it, but, it is ok as i take it as one step at at a time.
Schedules are a bit hectic at workplace. Next week, we ll be conducting the 1st test. Not much to narrate in here, anyway. Happy working all :)

Of Indonesian maids.. again

Well how have you been? I m doing fine here, apart of having my swollen right feet last week, it fortunately diminished a few days later. I was about to worry when my right feet suddenly swelled, and I had a TOT on that day. Luckily, I managed to wear my softer sandal, which didn't bring much pain whenever i walked. The hotel however full of stairs, which made it harder to go and fro, be it to the toilet, or the cafe. Anyway, it has become better eventually, thou I still flinch over the first few steps taken.

Reminiscing over the Sept 11, a few days ago, I listened to an 'otai' channel in radio which was discussing on the prior tragedy, back in 2001. thus, it made me remember, down the memory lane, I, on the tiny bed, switching on the tv at one the small apartment which I shared with other 5 people. I managed to rent the smallest room of the house, alone and most of the time, I spent it watching the small tv in that room. It was that long ago. struggling to complete my PhD.. and 11 years later, they are still talking about the tragedy.

Another 'masalah negara', my so called 'prim and proper' sister's maid ran away last monday. We were quite shocked since she was really an 'okay' person since she started working for my sister in March. Even my mother ( who normally  has maid-instinct) never expected this will happen, especially on a maid whom she trust wholeheartedly. We were forecasting that my another sister's maid will run away, based on last ray's observation and also from the stories narrated by my sister. Yet, the 'good' one fled off, leaving the 'bad' one , remains  at home. So, moral of the story, Never underestimate the timid and 'good' maid. they might do unexpected things like fleeing off, and even capable to leave a 3 years toddler at home, alone...

Another thing that i discovered of these indonesian maids, no matter how good, or obedient they are, they will go berserk once  they started befriending males. I had one last time, which i disapproved big time due to her 'nymphomania". Got caught twice for talking to a male stranger at midnite. She left the tap on, and then secretly went out to have a chat with the 'guy next door'. and when my BIL caught her talking, she didn't admit it, saying that the guy asked her something when she went out to pick the towel for a midnite shower, when it was raining heavily a few hours before. Another time she was caught in the toilet. she was caught peeping from the 'sisip angin'. the target might be the house behind ( the house which occupies the male whom we caught her talking to, last time). And when I asked her,, she told me she was inside the toilet to have her nature call, thou my BIL ubiquitously showed her peeping in the dark ( she didn't lock the toilet,and put a small stool to stand onto, before putting her both hands on the window sill ( we found lots handprints there).

Due to that, i was actually reluctant to bring her to KL. I controlled her every steps, even she asked me whether she can go the shops downstairs, i said no. I bluntly told her that I did not trust her anymore. So please bear with me for being unkind ( in the sense of disagreed with whatever she told me). Later, she became lazier, and most of the time I found her staring at the thin air, while scrutinizing her toenails in the room. I became angrier, and she eventually told me that she did not want to work with me anymore. Anyway, she has already damaged the window holder and the 'sink' in the 2nd toilet was totally collapsed ( i only noticed it when she's already gone, she did not inform me). I sent her away before her first year ends. Actually, I was a bit pissed off with the agent, as I ve already asked for her replacement after the first time she got caught. It was in October. I did not manage to get a substitute at that time and when she decided to only wrk for me for a year, i called the agent, and she said she would give me a replacement. I did not have to pay for anything, as it is considered as a replacement, but later on she demanded another 4K from me. I was terribly annoyed and according to my SIL, since the employee breached the contract, the agent has to reimburse me. Seems like the agents was so cunning, she came up with some many excuses, which I finally made up my mind, I ll just sent her back, and as I do not want to pay anything, I ll be sending her for good without replacing a new one.  The agent sent my ex maid to another person, and she easily got another 7 K easily as she did not have to pay for the her entry cost. never mind then.. She'll be paid for her wrongdoings to me

I wish we  do not have to rely totally on these indonesian maids, However, with more than 2 kids, it'd be worthwhile to have a maid at home that sending them to the nursery. I relied on them also last time, when I was bedridden, did not even able to either stand or walk by myself. I need a maid to lift me up, help me bathing etc. Once i m confident that I can do many things on my own, I get rid of them quickly.

I m having a lot of things to write about actually, but the post is written between lunch, a meeting and non stop door knocks at my door, as the students keep coming in to get my signature.

I ll post  again another time

KM portal thingy

boleh tak akak buat joget lambak sekarang sebab dah selamat isi semua kmportal akak sementelah hari jumaat ni adalah deadline nya? weaahoooooo! taksesia akak bersengkang mata di hari jumaat ( sampai minum air suam jek for lunch on that day) dan juga separuh hari , hari ni untuk mengisi menda alah yang masih menjadi kontroversi walaupun dah 4-5 tahun km portal ni di-isi secara online, bak kata TNC Akademik la..
Yerr.. ikut la resam akak ni ( ecehwahh), even tho i keep on procrastinating it, but at the end i managed to fill it within 1 1/2 day.. (yeay sekali lagi).. sila fokus macam akak and why dun u spend the time that u reserved for complaining this km portal, to fill it.. seriously... exchange of emails, endless sarcasms to other clinical lecturers who managed to get their DU54 without even clicking their fingers ( especially not filling their kmportals), ofcourse there are a tinge of facts in those emails.. akak pun geram gak... penat woooo, we have to supervise students, writing papers, do research, applying for more and more grants, and yet those people who do nothing ( not even teaching) have been promoted in a record time.. tak nangis akak tu ?
but then, if u see on a bright side (mode pegang tangan sambil nyanyi nasyid), dah itu rezeki dorang, ( bak kata dekan akak le), the university cant afford to lose them to other private college/ hospital, thus they have to give wat they demand.. and this is actually in line with what KKM has done to its staff, automatically promoted those who are in service for 10 years or more to U54. owh well.. mek xura has already obtained her portion.. tats why she managed to treat us at dchiengmai last month.. akak pun tak jeles la.. she deserved it..
anyway.. where there is a will, there is a way.. aite.. being a staff, i have signed my akujanji which stated that u need to follow watever the university rules and regulation. Who are u kidding with? I mean, if we have set our mind to just do watever tasks that are essential in this university, eventually we ll manage to do it, with a sincerity hokayyy.. ko kalau mengomel sambil buat kije tu.. pahala pun tak dapat...
Honestly speaking, I love wat i am doing here.. i love working here, I am surrounded with good friends and colleagues, some whom u can lean on yr not so broad shoulder, some whom will listen to yr frequent complaints ( of cleaners, lazy students, bad management hihihi) without trying to spread to others lahh. and as long as u accomplish watever tasks that have been given to u, u r on yr own flexi time...
but the most important thing.. u r paid for wat u do.. paham konsep barakah anak-anak? ekekekeke
onnnn another note, the students will start coming in next week...( huwaaaaa, motif emo ni naper kak?). The door will be knocked every 5 minutes ( owh akak sukerr jek), the labs will be full again class reps will call me to ask whether the class will be on or not ( aku tak paham sungguh bebudak ni, sukerr sangat kalau class cancel awal2 semester, pastu menggelabah biawak at the end of semster kalau class belum habis)..
eh ironically, akak pun macam tu jugak dolu2, cuma kalau class cancel akak pi library hokey sebab tak koser nak panjat bukit balik ke hostel.. arakian bebudak sekarang, disebabkan hostel yg cuma sepelaung jek dari fakulti, asal class cancel jek, pi membuta kat bilik.. pas tu the next class, tak datang sebab terbabas.. sebabnya.. ko nengok K-pop video kat youtube sampai kul 4 pagi kannn ( see, akak adalah seorang yg sangat memahami rutin dorang ekekek)
Wahh skill mode membebel akak masih on rupanya... even tho its been months since i last nagged to the students..:P
owh before i forget, ajih has safely back in Kl last thursday.. despite the delay flight on monday, he managed to take another flight on wednesday to paris-amsterdam-KL. meroyan kot mamat tu tak dapat pulut pagi.. bak called yesterday morning, informed that ajih will be reaching KB within an hour. I can imagine he's gobbling the nasik kerabu, nasik belauk and all kinds of kueh (pulut nisang should be on top of the list) this morning. I havent seen him yet, not sure whether I manage to see him before he's flying back to Marseilles in 2 weeks time.. Hopefully he'll remember his "jjamung' before going back.. My never ending missions on "pow-ing" my siblings is still my priority watt! eekekeke
Lunch time already.. feeling so wonderful today when u ve accomplished a task.. owhh... still got time to write one more paper kot. (whoaaaa hooo, gila produktif ko ye akak... jangan riak sudahhh ekekeke)

Last weekend..

2 more weeks before the new semester starts.. and there's not much that i ve accomplished up to this point.. am trying to fil the so called km-portal but as usual, it is so hard to initiate things like scanning the documents bla bla bla.. how i wish i have an RA to do all these stuffs, also thrashing out out all those papers in my room heeeeee..how i wish i have a genie in a bottle that will come to my beck and call and spring clean my room at the end of each semester.. dream on ah akak...
anyway on happier note, weeekend was fruitfully spent at putra height with aleeya, rayyan and lil areej. It's nice to have some changes in yr static life styles anyway. my usual quiet weekend was transformed to a chaotic one with the wailing rayyan demanding his 'oti cekelat' every 5 mins and areej trying to balance her robotic steps while clinging to bibik's knee. Zuni has tested her cooking skill in making nasi beriani and laksa penang.. not bad tho..
Anyway, as today, am back to usual working routine.. just finished a report on a master's thesis.. trying to concentrate on finishing another paper in the mean time..

oh my.. i ll be going extra bz when the students start coming in.. anyway, will be having a unit meeting on thursday.. and i think i have to be rough ( la sangat) at a few lecturers which are in ignorant mode all these while..
apasal la akak sekarang asyik nak marah manjang ek? hmmm... must be one of the aging smptoms ( or perhaps pre-menopausal? ekekekeke)

owh btw, ajih's flite was cancelled and he's only coming back perhaps this thursday.. i m waiting for the right time to demand for a 'makan busat' sponsored by him.. ekekeke..

till then...

can I spend my weekend in peace?

Had a tremendous weekend with the parent and siblings. It started with a bbq cum areej's belated bday's party at my younger sis's hse at putra height. ma and bak and xura n family arrived at abg li's house a day before. saturday and sunday were well spent at putra height and we convoyed to DR Cafe's at mont kiara's for coffee session later on. onsunday morning, after having a full breakfast, headed to OU for a shopping session. Back to KD at noon and had a last min dinner reservation at d'cheng mai at sg buloh. we reserved earlier at jeram sea food , alas, as usual, abg li couldnt come back home on time. ( we 're supposed to leave at 5.30 pm so that we'd be able to reach there before maghrib). well it was an excellent dinner as the best meal is always a free meal :). tokk a last minute EL on monday as I feel like being in the same house with the parent. Still at KD :). They went back home this morning , so did i.
anyway, the only thing that spoilt and ruined my weeekend was.. the non stop calls and sms from the studnts which really irritated me. Can't they leave me alone on weekends? can I have my privacy on weekends? I was SOOOO MAD that i neither took any of the calls nor smses.. Seriously, they are too much. During my days i never dare to either call or text my lecturer/supervisor, worried that they might need their own family time during weeeknds.. BUT THE STUDNTS ARE SO INSENSITIVE AND SELFISH NOWADAYS! They will keep on calling you and keep on texting you, thou i did tell them to not to ruin my weeekend.. One of them have already texted me informing that she'll be getting a medical leave due to the chicken pox.. yes, she has been doing nothing since ramadhan. no result no NOTHNG! and she still called me just to inform me that she's having chicken pox? as I if I would not be able to read her sms... ?
I feel like barking at all of them now.. Had enuff with those 2 students whom'r supposed to submit their thesis this week, and yet still struggling with the printing, tho I spent few days of last week to correct their softcopies...
I am sooo tired.. really tired with their attitudes...

Maka..

semester baru sudah pun bermula.. not good not good...sebabnya..
1. hidup kembali kelam kabut dengan kunjungan students yang tak putus-putus bertali arus... tak berapa nak suka.. sebab... sakit kepala sebab mulut kena bercakap sepanjang masa.. seriously.. akak kalau bercakap jek esp dengan nada yg sedikit kuat.. akan menyebabkan kepala rasa sakit...dan juga...
2. bila kena bercakap banyak... kije tak berapa nak jalan.. konsentrasi asyik terganggu... sekejap2 bilik kena ketuk... seriously.. susah jadi org poplar ni.. ahahahah
3. semangat nak bagi lecture awal2 ni.. sangat lah kurang... dah 2 bulan tak perlu pung pang pung pang depan students.. akak ni kan org tua.. kalau mengajar kalau tak diselit dengan nasihat dan omelan cam mak nenek.. cam tak berapa nak lengkap jek lecture tu...
4. akak rasa akak need a break.. bukan nak break yg duduk goyang kaki kat rumah.. pas tu jalan2 makan angin nak memperabiskan duit.. akak ni kan ada satu lagi passion yakni buat penyelidikan.. tapi semenjak dua menjak mengajar jek.. takder masa nak menyelidik sepenuh masa.. setakat supervise students tu jek... itu tak thrill...
5. akak sebenarnya sangat suka dengan kije akak.. yelah.. wat more do i want.. ada kawan2 yg memahami.. yang bila akak tension akak leh confide to them... ada deadlines.. tu pun akak suka.. walaupun kadang2 rasa nak meroyan bila tak leh achieve deadlines.. ada jugak sorang dua yg akak rasamenyampah ngan attitudes dorang.. ( tu yg pangkat dah tinggi tapi bab2 melukakan hati manusia sekeliling amatlah cekap).. tapi.. ada akak kesahhh? moto akak. tak suka jgn campo dorang...
6. kadang2 rasa frust juga dengan management.. tapi akak tau dorang tu durian akak ni kan mentimun.. sob sob sob
7. overall.. akak sangat suka ngan kije akak.. flexi time.. walaupun kena punch in punch out and bila lepas kul 8 dia akan jadu merah.. tapi ada akak kesahhh?as long as kije kita siap takdernya dorang nak warning kita datang lambat ke hapa....
8.walaupun akak dan kwn2 yg lain telah di label sebagai syok sendiri... oleh sorang mamat hampeh tu.. tapi akak tak kesahh.. sekurang2nya penat jerih akak untuk memajukan tempat kije akak ni dihargai..
-- owh lagi satu.... akak sangat suka kalau dapat students yg first day.. dah menunjukkan minat yang amat mendalam pada subjek yang kita ajar.. dan penuh hormat pula ucap terimaksih bila kita lepas dia awal... and datang sorang2 cium tangan... owhh sangat terharu disitu.. dan tiba2 akak rasa its worthwhile akak mengajar pelajar2 yang penuh tertib macam tu...tetiba rasa seronok sangat jadi guru nih... bila dpt pelajar cam nih... TAPI..
bila dpt pelajar yg manjang komplen.. semua nak komplen.. masa itu lah akak mula jadi mak nenek.. membebel dalam kelas... nak bagi pelempang jek sorang2..
so SELAMAT HARI GURU.. akak ( haha tetiba.. motif nak berhari guru walaupun dah lepas.... )
... ok lah.. akak nak kena tido.. bukak lappy ni pun sobab kena update lecture notes utk esok.. last minute punya kije...

Almost 'meroyan'

Kita hanya merancang.. Tuhan yang menentukan,...
Dan atas pernyataan itu lah akak harus pasrah dan redha kerana segala yang dirancang tidak berlaku..
Maka, akak terpaksa teruskan juga rancangan itu walaupun berseorangan.. walaupun segala rancangan telah terkubur begitu sahaja...
Tapi akak MASIH ada PLAN B.. okeyyyy! :)

Kisah 2: Akak masih lagi meroyan dengan kerja yang makin berlambak-lambak ,ditambah dengan students yang punya hobi hantar draf tesis last menett pas tu expect akak boleh baca dalam satu hari...(Akak rasa kalau hari-hari akak meroyan, memang tak lama la tu akan dihumban ke bangunan sebelah tempat kije pakcik shahe kita... ada harapan jadi jiran dia karang :)). Namun begitu ada la juga kebaikan nya... yakni (1) akak tak sempat nak makan minum.. boleh kurus gamaknya (kot)..(2)akak merasa diri sangat produktif, so rasa sedikit sebanyak akak telah menyumbang kepada negara.. (lame punya ayat ni ). Tapi entah mengapa, walaupun bulan ni adalah bulan yang sungguh 'hectic' tapi akak rasa cam bersemangat je.. ( apakah...!)
Kisah 3: Rindu kampung tapi takboleh balik. Ingat nak balik weekend pun, tetap ada jek aktiviti samada difakulti ataupun universiti. Nak balik weekdays, kena tunggu final year students go thru dianya viva dan segala bagai. 2 orang kawan karib akak dah collapsed dah sebab stress kot. Akak, alhamdulillah masih lagi bertahan. kalau nak tumbang.. sempat pegang lamp pole lagi kot :)

Akak harap Allah permudahkan laluan hidup akak dan juga sihatkan tubuh badan akak sehingga hujung tahun ni. AMIN

Haruan Goreng Berlada

Hari ini akak adalah kempunan. Tak dapat jamah sup haruan dan haruan goreng berlada, lepas syarahan inaugural one of the professor kat dept akak, Akak terpaksa rush ke MATTA fair ( la kunun) untuk mencari tiket ke suatu tempat. hasilnya.. nan adoo. Takder matta fare, normal fare jek ada, baik akak beli online jek cam tu. So inilah yang dinamakan.. yang dikejar tak dapat.. yang dikendong berciciran.. Udah le kat PWTC tu punya la ramai, byk travel agencies yang mengamalkan diskriminasi.. akak dukla tercangak kat kaunter punya la lama, takdernya nak dilayan... ikut hati nak jek buat aduan kat tourism malaysia kat situ gakk..
Akhirnya akak pun balik dengan penuh rasa keciwa.. sebab last matta fair, akak sempat la beli tiket ke kyoto yang hanya separuh harga daripada tiket yang dibeli online. Nampaknya plan akak kurang menjadik tahun ini.
Esok ada simposium lagi kat fakulti untuk 2 hari. The father n the sister are in town. Tak tahu la sempat nak jumpa atau tak sebelum dia org berlepas balik KB semula.
Akak merasakan sungguh bizi sampai tak sempat nak mop lantai rumah minggu ini.
Okeh la. akak nak pi beli tiket online jek la sat gi.
Taaaa...

Sudah terlalu lama...

*sapu sawang jap*
It's been too long... pejam celik pejam celik.. semester dah berakhir minggu lepas..
markah dah bagi... kursus dah pergi.. sekarang.. menimbun-nimbun kerja yang masih lagi 'pending' , tergendala dek kursus PTK seminggu...
masa tu la nak audit bagai.. masa tu la segala mak nenek grant bukak.. masa tu la nak isi KM portal... yang bertembung lak ngan raya haji.. * which is .. kalau tak balik raya.. kiranya akak ni cam dah kena buang negeri la*
So ambik la jugak cuti barang sehari.. *nasib raya jatuh hari jumaat*, tu pun balik di pagi raya *yang tak der la shahdu cam pagi raya aidilfitri* orang2 kat airport tu cam rilek saja pun time raya aji..
Makanya.. cam pelik laplak tetiba update blog pagi minggu... *nampak cam takder kije la sgt.. actually gas masak baru abis.. so chances nak masak utk makan tghari dah jadi 0, malas nak menapak kat kedai depan suh hantar gas'..
Assisgnments PTK yang tiga tu masih ada dalam beg.. dari jumaat lepas berhurray sebab finally abis gak kursus yang menensenkan tu *walaupun PTK dah kurikulum baru, exam dah takder.. cuma ada komponen fungsional which they have translated it as assignments *tapi tetap soalan cam exam gak* and komponen generik which include 1 kertas refleksi, public speaking ngan individual presentation.. abis jek public speaking rasa cam abis segala masalah.. ibaratnya..
So tunggu-tunggu jek la.. maybe isnin baru nak tengok balik assignment mana yang nak ditulis.. deadline submission is on 7/12. sempat la juga nak pegang ekor lembu kat kampung .. and if there is a chance.. pi Pengkalan Kubor survey high end imitation designer handbag there? hehehehe...nak beli yang original yang ribu riban cam sayang la plak nak perabiskan.. baik gunakan utk menda yang perlu ... at least high endnya imitation wont go more than 1k..
I ve been making plans for the next year's agenda.. well part of em la.. Looks like for the next sem's courses.. it's gonna be a whole lot... *bila la boleh ambik cuti sabatikal ni*
last but not least.. i m attaching a few pics taken from the previous trip to Kyoto.. the city is tremendously clean.. parit kat belakang rumah punya la jernih air dia.. cam boleh jek wat minum air dia.. the smokers over there even keep their cig ash in their own tiny container before throwing em into the dustbin when they found one.. and the elders.. whom r 60-70 yrs of age even walk faster than me.. which is amazing.. tgk dorang takder pun mengah2 naik bukit.. rileks jek...

/>posing kat atas tangga kat temple mana tah.. the only temple that we managed to go.. tak koser nak pi semua temples which scattered all over Kyoto

/>me n my master student kat depan temple.. the japanese duk tibai cakap japan ngan dia.. thinking that she's one of them

it was raining when we first arrived in Kyoto.. te next day pun ujan renyai2. so ala2 posing ngan payung while exploring the nearby area di pagi hari..

the room..quite big cos we have separate dressing room and toilet and wardrobe.. up to european standard size la jugak..
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Kyoto sky.. taken in JR Haruka Express on the way to KYoto.. it took 2 hrs to reach Kyoto from the airport.. somebody left his wallet kat dalam train and we only realized it masa nak turun train.. but kita org tengok jek la.. cos kyoto is the last station and the management will surely keep it bfore the person report the loss.. kat sana tak der org yg sebuk ambik kesempatan nak curi ke apa if we accidentally left our wallet in the train..

Updating....

Yes, it was a month ago since i updated my blog. and it's been a month since the students came in , and akak masih terkial-kial dgn clas schedule yangtak tentu hala.. ( yes, this is the 3rd week dah) and ada satu kelas tu, i kept on changing dia nya class schedule because....the students cant make it on those slots, so akak terpaksa memerah otak so that they r able to attend for every class, bukannya attend ikut turn.. bley?
it was not my job to reschedule ke apa ke, tapi itu la.. since those meant students r from Medical faculty, in their 1st clinical year plak tu, so their supervisor suka ati jek la panggil dorang anytime even tho those slots are already scheduled for my class..
tapi ntah la.. malas nak ckp lagi... the course pun , it's not from the fac, in fact it's from other fac. ikut ati malas rasanya nak ajar, howeversince i was told to teach, so .. akak ajar la.. not my niche area pun....
other than that, akak ok sajork. I gotta teach and coordinate an elective course, supervise 5 undergrad students for their final year project, and having this huge problem of terminating an iranian post doc who hasnt performed at all. This makcik, has the gut to go to the top people in this university, trying to appeal as she 's the innocent party and i was the bad one who can simply terminate her. After all the chaos that she has created, including the soxhlet extractor that she claimed she accidentally broke it, I finally decided that it has to be ended. and terminating her, is the best solution ( even tho giving 3 montsh prior notice wont give any benefit to the univ), as she 'd simply get 3 montsh alary withour doing anything when she's known that she's been terminated.
Akak pun malas nak berkata apa lagi.. the onlything that I knew is she's one big liar... harap muka jek cun tapi pembohong besar... i shudnt have taken her in the 1st place..
on happier note... despite the hectic schedule and all, I managed to have a sorta break cum overseas conference trip again. Its the time of the year anyway.
last year I managed to go to Athens, andthe year before to Austria, and before that to Washington, this year, despite the H1N1 pandemic, i have set my mind to proceed for the Kyoto trip which i d be leaving this weekend. me and 4 other post grad students from my fac. so, the good thing i wont be alone this time
well moshi moshi Kyoto.....

P.S getting back to work..

extremely exhausted

referring to the title.. cam best sgt kan aku ni kan? cam aku sorang jek la yg buat kije non stop whilst the others makan gaji buta blogging gossipping ym-ing semata-mata kan?cam orang lain dtg kije post 3-4 entries per day pas tu skype-ing bagai pas tu siap bloghopping agi? kih kih kih
ada ke org sentap kalau aku ckp cam ni? bunyi cam aku jek tu? NOT! hehehe
(tetiba jek feeling ala-ala evil pagi nih.. abaikan jek la perangai aku yg tak semengah nih)
anyway on lighter note...disebabkan aku selalu sgt komplen weeekend cam tak produktif jek.. hah hambik ko.. minggu ni.. aku tetiba jek dibebani ngan workload yg melimpah ruah..sampai tak sempat nak lunch bagai... my weekend too wud be filled with the finishing school. Ermm ini aku yg nak bukan dorang bagik.. at least dalam LPP aku ada la gak penglibatan aku dalam aktiviti pelajar ( not to mention the benefit tat they reward me for being with the stds for 14 straight hours! Muntah darah la dorang manjang tgk muka macik yg kiut ni kan kah kah kah )
Alkisahnya dari sehari ke sehari.. aku nak upload pics dr hp aku ( yang dah nak kong tu.. alih2 tetiba jek off sendiri), pas tu ada a few piccas dr camera jugak.. tapi tu la.. nak memulakan mencari cable usb yg aku simpan kat tempat baiiikk punya sampai aku pun dah lupa kat mana.. tersangat laaa menciknya aku...
tetiba gak mode nak post entri disertai dgn piccas sebagai bukti menguasai diri..
so dari sehari ke sehari jugak.. aku simpan segala bentuk citer yg kununnya nak di-narratekan balik kat sini ( sebagai iktibar ye tuan puan.. )tapi tu lah... dah lama sgt aku pun malas nak backdate dah...
Tak rajin sebenarnya aku ni.. baru aku perasan hihihhi
--stop jap.. nak pi studentnya practical barang 2-3 jam.. kalau rajin.. sambung le balik.. 2 entries in one day? fuhhhh makcik sudah bagus nihh...

ok.. its published

outta sudden im in 'updating mode' ( sangat menyampah rasanya bila tetiba terbit mode ini, cos i tend to spend like hrs to write, reread due to lotsa typo error and later on.. will hesitate like umpteenths times whether to publish it or not ! enuff said... the damage is done already! erkk!

anyway, tis is my 1st day at work after a month medical leave ( actually its 33 days to be exact). and i reached the faculty 10 minutes to 11 due to a meeting whch took place at the main campus . I was not in the meeting actually, but The Research TD wanted me to be around regarding the post doc aplication of an iranian researcher.
Anyway, taking an iranian as either your postgrad @ post doc student is like risking yrself to some bad ( or might be worst) consequences of not achieving yr project's objective. But... i have to take the risk due to my 2 post grad students who quit before they even registered for the course, and tat left me with NO post grad student at all and i have like 6 months away to produce a progress report for a project which 's supposed to start now, alas.. i have no one to conduct the labworks for the project.

and now I have one student who came 'menyerah diri' to me and another post doc to do all the works . so i m now in a very secured position, providing i have to bark, yell and push them very hard.. ( nahhh.. am not that kinda person tho)

For the past few days, there was a hot issue been discussed in every academic staff's email box. There's like a few sarky responses from the professors and all those top hierarchys regarding the parking issue ever since the admin reminded us not to park the car at the area which's not the parking area or else the car wud be clamped. as usual, we blamed the students for parking their cars at the staff's area and the professors demand their own parking spots. have to admit there is not enuff parking spaces in the faculty since the number of the staffs have increased gradually,not to mention the numbers of cars been driven by the students as well.
well not my problem anyway, tho my heart bleeds for those who have to face the problem everyday when they came to work.. well I have someone who sends and picks me up everyday then! hihihih

Anyway, back to usual routine now. I have class on monday and tuesday evening. and pharmacology class wil start after the break, the toxicology class will start in march.. and ( eh.. i m republishing the same statements taht i wrote in my prev entry la plak).. nampak sangat dah takder idea cett!
owh.. byw i spent the weekend, attending a 2 days TOT for the 5th Finishing School in Marriot Putrajaya...well makcik is back in action I guess..hihih
till then..

Intermission

I m in my office room, at the faculty, trying to xerox 40 copies of handouts to be distributed for my 5 pm class. cehhh gigih bertugas walaupun im ubiquitously still on medical leave.. haishhh...
Owhh before I forgot, many thanks to Tim Tams for yr prayers and continuous concern.. I shud have known at least I can count on one virtual reader who anxiously waiting for my health progress.. (yang len hammmpehhhhh tak leh harap.. kekekeek)
owh by the way, the wound is still not completely healed.. starting today, i need to go for a daily dressing.. and they r gonna take one last look ( hopefully) at the wound next week.. owh btw, iwas so so in pain when they pulled out the remain of the stitches this morning... (nearly wet my pant hahahaha)..
katernya pain endurance level is very high.. cettt!
and they only gave me antibiotics today, ( i did beg them to prescribe last week, tapi nan ado yg nak dengar kata aku..) but today, even tho its not as watery as the week before, i tot i was just the serous, but then diff MOs will have diff opinions. They r afraid the wound will be infected, and my opinion it's just some flakes from the skin.. but who am i to question their opinions kan? Im just a normal human with an untypical cervical bones.. keh keh keh..
anyway... I cant find any replacement lecturer that wud be able to deliver this one particular course. and lectures still have to be on schedule.. I ve missed 3 hrs slot last week.. and i m catching up this week.. tak koser sebenarnya nak wat kelas ganti...
so tat makes me wat? dedicated lecturer la kan? ekekekekeke
well.. gotta run.. im trying to discuss with the students later .. perhaps i can change the class schedule to earlier slot..
well im not too keen to end my class at 7 pm every monday...
Till then...

The next Philip Kottler?

Seriously, I m so oversaturated today.. well forget abt "sepi' with this kinda situation.. 'sepi' wud be the last in my list for he time being. Let me begin the story.. ( bunyi org tiup nafiri kat belakang " sound effect' beb)
I was told dat i wont be teaching any courses this semester, and kalau ada pun, theer wud be one, and i m so darn confident that they wont appoint me to teach the course ( FYI, it was "asas keusahawanan' course, which is a university course for the students who have registered starting 2007/2008 session. so, since all the students will reg for this course, and the experts who came from the econ n mgmt fac are not enuff.. they have appointed lecturers from each fac, and yrs truly ni.. have been selected amongts a few others la. I have attended its TOT kat sban last march.. which i have to admit.. i was totally 'bingaied' thru the course. so we ( me n my 2colleagues from Biochem n a anatomy depts, just sat quietly and let the experts yg mmg dah taraf sifu tu controlled the floor. and dgn konpidennya jugak, i dun think they will let all the students reg this course at one time.. they must put the quota for the numbers taking this course kan.. and THEY did.. latest info dat i got a few days ago tat, they ( the xperts) will handle all the classes, and hearing tat, i was so relieved, bcos I can imagine how much damage wud be done if i took the class..
surprisingly, well expectingly la kan.. i was told to handle one class which the group will consist of the students frommy faculty, ( wat happened to the experts yg ramai2 kat their facs) and the reason is .. bcos the studnts came from yr faculty... and to add it more.. i have no teaching workload tis sem ( Cett.. i ve been planning to be publication productive tis semester).. and end up.. I m gonna teach the nursing and dietetic students about the principle of entrepeneurship.. best la sangat kann.. I cant even pronounce the word rite..
and to show how dedicated i am.. the class will only start from 8 pm to 10 pm.. twice a week.. so i have to bid goodbye to my early nites.. kah kah.. ( no.. they gave me the timetable bcos nursing studnts only finished their classes at 7pm every day.. ) well thinking abt them, i was so lucky during my heydays.. have to salute la this nursing students whom majorities r the veteran
I m offering anothr course at the last minute anyway.. so they wud think tiwce abt appointing me in teaching this course next sem kah kah.. ( yes.. i m so smart rite? ). there will be more students who r registering for tis course next sem.. and we only have 6 lecturers from our fac who have attended the TOT.. the chance of me teaching again next sem is very huge tho.. and i have anothr 3 core courses to teach next sem.. when can i have the time to produce papers la?
anyway on lighter note.. i m not complaining bcos of my teaching workload.. i m dissatisfied bcos i have to teach the class at nite.. and i ve heard lotsa creepy stories regarding this building at nite.. scary laweyyy
anyway... I hope 'it' wont show its faces to me la during the time..
or else i t d gonna be anothr label in my blog namely "Ghost stories' kan?

The Tibai session

At this very moment, i m desperately seeking for any anti-yawning inducer. tengah tersengguk-sengguk cam burung belatuk while trying to digest every hellish statement that they put in their theses. yes, one more thesis to tibai. 3 done!i mean almost. the only therapy that i can think of rite now, is by sharpening my pencil every 30 mins ( tat showed how much i ve corrected their so called draft). life's been hectic for these last few days. Even tho i ve been reminding them to send their drafts by chapters, and defintely not in one whole stapled booklet tat consists all the chapters, but still they did tat. and aku bagai nak pecah kepala, trying to finish 3 theses in 2 days. since tis is only the first drafts, so bagai nak retak la jugak tempurung kepala, to come out with better, flowed text and sequential para. well, i m not so good in english as well, but when u wrote like u speak, tat means big probbblem. Read this : from the result, we can indicate that treated 32 mg/kg is very significant compare than other treated. 0.6M HCl show not very significant because only necrosis show significant. Just ignore all the grammatical error but focus on the gist of this statement. huh! tangkap nangis aku baca!
Makcik tgh beristighfar bebanyak sambil terus menibai satu-satunya tesis yg harus dihabiskan , let say within 2 hrs. yes, I can do it. CC boleh!
Nonetheless, no matter how much i tried to potray myself as one fierce lecturer, i d certainly miss their presence when they r no longer here. They r graduating this coming July. most of them have registered for Master degree, so i can still see them for the next 2 years.
Another story, I watched Congkak the movie 2 days ago. well, its not my kinda idea to release yr tension by watching horror movie, but then, we, me n my 2 best friends at work have set a date with Congkak long before it's been premierly shown in cinema. the sound effects. mak ai.. i dun think my heart cud take it. its too loud for my sensitive ears and crooked heart, lol.
I am still sleepy. dah penat kunyah popcorn lemau , a leftover from the 2 days ago nya movie. Just done with the viva for all those 81 students. next week, there's another presentation for the best 5 in each health sciences programme. They appointed me as the Timbalan pengerusi. kah kah.. and my task is to attend every meeting and show up during the rehearsal + makan2 lagi for the enxt 2 consecutive days. Sheesh! makan lagik..
Nih mana student aku tak muncul2 lagik ni.. janji kul 2.. cessss!