Ides of March?

March already... woweeee.. how time flies..
I know this sounds so cliche.. but every now and then I m thanking The Almighty for letting me to live in this world.. to enjoy whatever i m having now ( watching the grace card on HBO early in the morning.. yes I know.. its not good)

Class seems to be not so hectic at the beginning of the semester, but I ll be having more towards the end of it. well, at least i can concentrate in preparing my CV, which is nothing to be boasted about..

One of the post grads has finally submitted her master's thesis, and being pregnant while trying so hard to finish up your dissertation is something that you should be amazed , i mean as her SV.. so she was so overjoyed that she sent me a lengthy message saying how thankful she is for having me as her SV, and thanking me too for having her all these while...

and tears brimming on my cheek while I read her msg..
Dear Erna, I am thankful too for having such a good student as you.. and well i have to admit that i am such a snob sometimes lol

I guess,when it comes to my students.. i would be the happiest if they appreciated what I have given them so far, be it.. dozens of encouraging words or gallons of complaints..

ok, I m being such a sensitive fool again..

Health wise, I have my weekly enbrel jab in my room since last month. There are always someone who would be willing to play nurse everytime I had my injection. So far, I havent missed any yet, and it was quite painful when u need to put into yourself like a 50 mg of the fluid.. yes.. it is painful, and I cant do without the help of my colleagues..

My rheumy followup is next tuesday. hopefully I ll have some good news from the Rheumy, ever since I had this medication..Its been more than a month already

We have decided to take a maid for my parents. We ll get it most probably by today, have to train it for a few days at zuni's and I ll be sending her back to hometown, next week.

I guess, ma would be glad to know tat she has someone whom can help her with the house chores, and the most important thing, assisting her taking care of the kids. When ma called me last nite, telling me that Zura was shocked to know tat I m bringing the maid home.. which quoted from ma' terkejut beruk~translated "monkey shock" lol
i was like.. kind surprised too as I noticed she was on the FB and she'd surely read the status that Abang Li put up last week. I asked ma, didnt she read the post? and ma told me she has to hang up now, in case Zura's coming in.. lol
My mom is so adorable, and now she's acting like a spy telling her 5th daughter about the 6th daughter..
Frankly speaking, I do not have any problem with my sister, but I have been thinking a lot for these past few days, and i personally think that it is so inappropriate of her to let my mom, i mean my 70 years old mom taking care of her 3 kids. and being mom, she wont dare to complain that she's too old for 'grandchild' sitting anymore.

I ended up asking Zuni, the youngest sister to get me a maid. It was so quick, and after a few days she told me the agent called saying that there are 3 indonesian maids coming in the next week. I was about to handle everything on my own, when i remember I still have my other siblings, and being a good sister (rolling eyes), i informed my decision to my brother. and then the brother put up a post in our family group in FB, asking whether everybody would  agree to take a maid for the parents. We had a consensus right after that, but Zura never responded to the post.
so, we thought she might be offended of our decision since she has decided not to take any maid since the last tragic incident. But i still feel, she should not let my mom to take care of the kids.. I mean my mom has been taking care of us the siblings when she was younger, and she should not take any other responsibilities now she's older. When it comes to your kids, please do not burden your mom any more. She had enough already,and now it is the time that we should takecare of our own kids, and not relying on our parents anymore.

Owh well, easier said than done eh. I havent gotten any kids, and its easier to condemn others when u were never been in their shoes.
Well, maybe that's why i am neither married nor having kids. So that, I would not burden my parents with my kids, if i had one.
Ok.. i am ranting now.. lol

I have to start doing the house chores now. Its not tat i have to do it, as this is my house, and nobody will ever bother whether its cleaned or not. but as my mom always say to me, "do it in your own sweet time, Ida"..
and being a prodigal daughter, lol.. nah.. an obdient one I would say.. I will start vacuuming the floor, one I m done with the  movie. Flashdance is on tv now. Such a good movie to go down on the memory lane..

tata peeps.

One bad habit..( is it?)

Has this ever occured to you? You have like so many deadlines to catch up and only a few hours left before you call it a day, and tomorrow is a public holiday, and you have a few manuscripts that need to be submit after revising.. but kaching! you feel like updating your blog at that particular time, mumbling about you have a lot of things that you can narrate, and you need to our it down before they are all forgotten and erased from your memory. And to make it worst, you had your peaceful weekend doing nothing, you even turned on your mac-cy for several times, bloghopping from one into another, yet you never feel like posting an entry in your blog....?
Life is weird. You need to feel your boost of adrenalin secreting in your system first, and to overcome so many self-made obstacles, pbhhtt!
The truth is, I have been staring at the same entry which was posted almost a month ago, and i was waiting for the moment to come. yeah, it is more like a writer's block (rolling eyes), and I guess today is the day, when you have like tons of things in your mind to be solved, and the inner voice is inducing you to spend you precious few hours by doing non-beneficial works.. ahaaaa..

Ok, enough about the so-called philosophy.. Anyhoo, I am visiting the hand surgeon again tomorrow, had my ct-scan 3 weeks ago, and tomorrow is the day that she's gonna decide, whether the surgery can be preceded or not.

ok, i m outta idea already ( tadi berkobar2 nak tulis hahaha),  owh tomorrow's sultan selangor's birthday, but KL people are still working tho. The house is a bit messy recently, as I have been procrastinating again the idea of cleaning and mopping the floor. owh well, not much to clean tho. Zura is coming this weekend, and I also promised my student to attend her wedding in Sabak Bernam.

Later peeps, the alarm is ringing ( i set it to only 30 mins break, so that I can continue my half completed work back, such a cool idea eh .. LoL)

Later peeps..

Oh no.. there is blood all over..

3rd day of eid-ul adha.. am stuck at home, the stove is broken with both of the gas burners kaput. I cooked my chicken soup using a rice cooker yesterday. Had called the handyman, he promised to come this evening.
on a lighter note, I had a quiet eid this year. Called mom and dad in the eid morning, and they were left alone as the younger sister went back to her in laws that day. A colleague invited me to go to her house which is only a distance away from yours truly. I was supposed to go there, yet early in the morning, before the eid prayer, the 2nd elder brother called me asking to meet up. The youngest sister was also availed in KL, thus we decided to gather in the evening. I cancelled my visit to the colleague's thinking that my bro will come early, rite after the jumaat prayer. yet, I had to wait till 5 before he called me ( rolling eyes). Alas, we managed to go to Gardens and my sister's family will be meeting us there. Had dinner at Chillies, with my BIL treated us .. again (rolling eyes, one more time). My bro insisted on paying it separately, but then my BIL eventually succeeded in swiping his CC , to pay everyone's meal. okay, i supposed my bro who should pay for everyone's meal instead of my BIL. (rolling eyes for the 2nd time).
i reached home almost 10 pm, took a quick shower and later,  crashed into bed. heaven..
and it was still heaven to think that i can wake up a bit late for 3 consecutive days.. anyway, yesterday, before i realised that the stove was not working i have already ordered some groceries from the mini market. when that indian guy came to send my supplies, he accidentally dropped a big bottle of grape juice infront the door. so the juice was left on the corridor, created a pool of blood-like liquid on the tiles outside. an hour later, i heard some noises outside my house, and it seemed that the indon cleaner was talking aloud with this one security guard regarding the spilled liquid. From the kitchen window, i could see the scenario outside, the guard was somehow yelling at I-dont know who, and the cleaner came out from the elevator, looking very nervous. Earlier, that indian guy from the mini market covered the damage with the newspaper as he thought the liquid is quite slippery for those who step on it. Not that i know, the cleaner thot it was a pool of blood, and she was very reluctant to clean it. So i yelled from the kitchen yard, that the liquid was actually grape juice. "owh really," she still didnt take my words, so i convinced her by telling that if she really noticed that the color of the liquid was actually purple, and you can smell the sweet grapey smell, of the liquid. hahaha it was a very funny scenario, when the guard later joking that maybe i could serve them the juice instead.
Hmm.. its been very hot these past few days. the good thing is, my laundry are all crispy dried when i hanged them outside. Anyway, it is too hot to walk to the nearest restaurant to have my lunch there.. (remember, i am not able to cook) .
I m having anther appt with both the rheumy and hand surgeon next tuesday. They have confirmed that i m able to undergo a wrist replacement, but still i have to undergo another ct-scan for my wrist. (and why it feels a deja-vu, everytime i mention ct-scan...*winking*)
Just wish me luck okay. I am working again next weekend for the purpose of gaining some cash for the prosthesis :)

I had 2 sets of McDonald's burger in a week? matiler gemuk nanti LOL

This status is suitable to be posted in FB, but then, tried not to put these crappy status in there, or else, this would bring the disgusting snorts from all the people in my list lol.
Anyway, weekend was spent quietly and productively ( in the kitchen). It is very rare of me to be seen cooking in the morning for heavy dishes such as fried koay teow or anything, but then, I had enough of toast and butter already. Besides, the heavy dishes will last till afternoon. I had meatball spaghetti on sunday. need to buy the grocery  by next week, then.
Today is the 1st day of October. It seems yesterday, since I last stepped my foot on this house after a year medical leave. That was in early January. How time flies. I am maid-free  since last May, and things are going better. I even tried to clean the house once a while, thou it'd be quite difficult for me to do it, but, it is ok as i take it as one step at at a time.
Schedules are a bit hectic at workplace. Next week, we ll be conducting the 1st test. Not much to narrate in here, anyway. Happy working all :)

Awaiting Ramadhan

I am having cold right now, as saying it as 'flu' sounds so serious to me. I was boasting to my SIL the other day that I seldom catch cold. The last one i got it was like 3-4 years ago. It was a bad one, i lost my voice for a few days, and I couldn't smell anything for many years due to that LOL! See, I told you, I am very worried once i caught the cold, as some disaster like losing one of your senses might happen.. again Oh, btw the siblings has a bbq gathering last weekend. Yours truly was the one who suddenly came out with the idea. It actually occurred to me that my elder bro and his family, will be coming back for good the week after. So i was suggesting maybe we can hold a potluck and 'makan-makan' at one of the sibling's house. As we cannot make it this weekend since another brother will start working in Bahrain at that time. so we decided to make it last weekend, and seemed like the ones that we should entertain for are still not availed at that time...but then... owh well.. we had a good time thou, the rest of the siblings were in KL last weekend. I have just realized that I have never scrutinized people, i mean for their appearances . We had a meeting with a Kazakhstanis ( not sure whether it is pronounced correctly)yesterday, and my boss who was in the meeting with me yesterday, was narrating it in the dept meeting this morning. She was telling the dept members that she met a brown eyed professor the day before, ... and i could not remember whether his eyes are brown or not. She was asking me, "he do have brown eyes, right? Miss Crooked?".. and I was like... " err.. i know he's like a korean, but i cannot remember the color of his eyes".. How am i supposed to check whether his eyes are brown or not as we were like a few feet away from him..Hmm.. maybe its about time that I should check the power of my reading glasses again ... :) Ramadhan is coming in less than 2 weeks. I am not planning to cook for the iftar. It will be too energy wasting for me. I have decided to ask for food delivery during the months. Found one website, which deliver food to people like me LOL. Anyway, I still have to cook on weekends because the food delivery is only on weekdays. OwH, never mind, I can always survive on bread and crackers on weekend Since the meeting with that Kazkhstan Professor, I was thinking on doing my sabbatical in that country. Just found out that, there is a direct flight from KUL-Astana. Am impressed with the techniques that they used for early cancer detection. I mean, I would never have the gut to check my blood sample and then found out that I do have cancer, even though I haven't had the tiniest symptoms yet. The professor said that it can be detected as early as 36 months before the development of tumor. Waaaa can't even imagine that, yet it will be beneficial for those people with family history of cancer... On lighter note, I am happier now, even thigh I still have to be careful with whatever things that might happen in the future, yet I am not going to make the same mistake once again, If I did, that will be a choice. Cant wait for the Ramadhan. aHope it won't be the last one for me...

What make cupcakes so heavenly..

Well, its nothing to do with this post tho.. its a quote that i heard a few minutes ago from Rachel Alleb: bake in astro. Frankly speaking, i am not so into pastries, especially sweet ones.. Cupcakes, red velvet albeit any cakes/cheese cakes, cookies are never my forte..Chocolate cakes is a no no too.. whenever my sis baked those during hariraya, i never feel like tasting it... somehow those sweet cakes would not adapt with my 'weird' taste bud tho. hehehe... so if people are crazy with the so 'in' red velvet la,or macaroon la, or cup cakes la, i d opt for those traditional ones like 'sponge' cake. not sure what others call, maybe kek sarang semut kot, the ones which do not use margarine/butter inside. That was one traditional cake, because I used to eat it (at that time, i did no like the taste) many many years ago, when my late grandma was still alive. Nowadays, kek tu ada balk kan.. and it is quite expensive tho from what my mom said, the ingredients to bake it is so cheap..( but being me, I d never made an attempt to learn baking hahaha. Owh, what's the use of learning when u d never feel like eating it.. It'd be such a waste of time and energy mahhh..
There is another traditional cake that I love but people rarely bake it nowadays. Not sure what the KLians call it but me, the kelantanese name it as kuih ambong or apom. That is considered a hard work if u do have a suitable cooking tools, macam the way we make kuih baulu.. It neither needs any butter.. all u have to do is whip the egg with sugar till it becomes so fluffy. add a tablespoon of vanilla essence, add some artificial coloring as well and steam it. Then you will get one fluff among yg sangat sedap dan tidak muak langsung. When i was little, my mom used to bake it during hariraya, and the only cake that mom baked during that time is marble cake. I still love marble cake, in fact I love all plain cakes, the same thing goes to cookies. i still crave for plain raya cookies, yang kita tak bubuh apa2 except for some custard , tepung gandum and some colorings. However, it'd difficult to find em during present raya as people are likely to serve fashionable cookies cam almond london la, mama kerrys la , just naming a few.
I am not into cheese cakes either hahaha. anyway, I can have tiramisu in small portions .. i m suffering from cheesy-syndrome.. once i ate 2 pieces of cheese cakes and that made me a diarhheal one.. hahahaha.. imagine u r not able to stand yr nature call in the middle of yr car trip and to find a decent toilet during the trip was a torturous one... I ve never eaten big portions of cheese cakes afterwards ..
On another store, Beto Kusyairi is so 'in' nowadays. We can watch him on tv like a few times a week. He starred in every drama swasta/cerekarama nowadays. in every channel too..owh he's not a hunk like adyputra or aaron aziz, but he has the talent of making his characters come to live. such a talented actor, he is..love to watch him on tv :). he was in last nite cerekarama as well with Nora Danish. I seldom watch tv at nite tho...but it will be an exception when they put my favorites in the drama.. that is something that i d not be able to resist.. but then it'd be rare of me to stay up till midnite.. normally, after 10 i am already safe and soundly asleep
okk.. end of story.. till next time peeps :)

Pagi yang panjang..

...disebabkan traffic jam yg ala2 ular dipalu dah... kuar pukul 7.20 pagi sampai kul 8.40 pagi... di saat kalau traffic smooth, akak boleh sampai dalam 10 minit sajork... ni kalau mengikut masa, akak dah boleh sampai Kota Damansara, sempat ambik sos ABC yang akak kirim kat bibik mistiah lagik.. nih idok le.. hatta, 1 jam 20 minit itu di manafaatkan dengan mengutuk-ngutuk pemandu yang memandu melintang kalang.. tetiba decide nak ambik lane yg paling kiri semedang sedangkan saat itudia berada di lane yang paling kanan sekali... iya lah.. di ssat traffic jam tu la ko baru ingat yg ko kena ambik exit lane menghala ke KL la, ke Monggolia la kan? ended up makin menjadi2 la massive jam yang sampai post ni ditulis pun akak still taktahu apa kah punca kejadian... takder accident.. ada la kereta rosak tapi tu mungkin sbb berada di jalan terlalu lama kot.. penat tau.. (walaupun akak takdrive hehehee).. nasib takder kelas kul 8.. nasib la akak tak ikut sama ambik pic dgn handphone ( seperti yang 3/4 of the drivers buat) kununnya nak jadi bahan bukti yang ko datang lewat pasal trafic jam kan? nanti boleh fwd kat boss bahan buktinya kan? ada akak kesah? akak walaupun jam 2 -3 jam pun, tetap akak sampai clock in time tu jek.. tak kira la walaupun sampai kul 2 petang akakakaka. ( ni apasal ko bitter mode ni kak?)

Lupa arr nak criter apa.. kelas start lagi 10 minit.. kije cam dah complete la ( for today), dengan pc yg slow cam siput ....
owhh perlu ke akak meng-komplen lagi? Dah takder apa2 yg nak dikomplen kot pun (for today)...
Owh malam tadi akak tido awal.. sebab akak tak lunch ptgnya.. pas tu akak pi makan kat SUP urat Keting ( akak makan nasik dgn ikar bakar jek pun) dan hasil daripada memakan nasik, sangat la mengantuk.. owh jumpa Zizan RL and Cat farish kat situ... (ada akak kesah)... lepas makan rasa sngt mengantuk,,, hasilnya peniduran yang sangat awal iaitu lepas isyak sampai la 20 minit nak suboh... selalunya kalau terlebih tido ni pun dia akan mengundang ke kemengantukan juga pada esok harinyaaa yakni hari ini...
so intipati daripada entri merapu ini... kesan daripada pagi yang panjang itu ( see ada relevant kan entri akak ini hehehhe).. akak ada kelas sampai kul 7 malam.. keleeeess kan? so sepatutnya akak tukar tajuk entri ini daripada pagi yang panjang.. kepada HARI YANG PANJANG.....
motif akak tak tukar tajuk ni.. sebab kalau dah tukar.. apa pekdah akak nak publish entri ni kan? it will be straight to the point... tapikan manusia mana suker direct to the point... dia mesti ada mukadimmah dulu yang memakan masa 4-5 jam... pas tu baru come to the point.. kan kan kan?
Dah.. akak nak pi kelas...

Tahun Baru 2011 dimulakan dengan kemalasan melampau

....untuk meng-update blog...
sementelah semester baru jek bermula dan pagi ni. belum kuar sinar diufuk timur, akak dan kereta2 lain dah sama2 tersekat dalam trafik jam ke HUKM. Cepat2 pi ultrasound my kidney, and cepat2 melepak nunggu urologist kat klinik..pastu cepat2 pi makan walaupun dah kul 10 am (dah ala2 hypo dah time tu) sebelum betul2 kebulur. Balik fac.. baca thesis lebih kurang.. stress lagi ada lah.. tulis thesis cam tulis karangan saya nak pergi bercuti di New Delhi.. bahasa lintang pukang.. ( makk sangat stresss hokey) yang menyebabkan kemengantukan melampau, lalu akak pun kononnya nak catch my 40 winks , siap off light, kunci pintu lalu tido lah akak beralas kan bantal strawberry.. di atas 2 kerusi yang disusun sebelah menyebelah... 40 winks la sangat.. 10 minit kul 2 baru akak bangun ekekeke...
ok lah. nak sambung my 40 winks ptg tadi to an 8 hours beauty sleep..

Weekend rambling

ok lah.. sementelah akak log in internet di hari sabtu, akak terasa seperti mahu memblog la pulak, walaupun amatlah 'rare'nya akak nak buat begini during weekends sebab akak lagi suka tengok astro sambil tergolek depan tv sambil makan tak ingat sambil tambah2 2-3 kali ( yeah there goes my diet plan which i have been faithfully followed dbefore ramadhan last time).. tapi sekarang ni cam rasa mencanak canak naik nya berat badan akak ni.. i did blame in on the elevated steroidal dose which i took priorly , op kos la it will decently raise my appetite.. but the truth is, ever since i suffered from a terrible muco cytis last time, which enabled me to eat and drink anything for a week, I ve realised that i should enjoy my appetite and make full use of my taste bud before He takes it away...once again..
Owh, not that i will totally diminish the idea of dieting again in this lil head of mine, but i will take it one step at a time.. and try to reduce my carb intake.. slowly heheh and eat more veges.. and protein.. and rarely eat fast food ( which i think I ve successfully reduced it as the last time i ate mc donald was 3 months ago :))..
owhh and btw, my stress level is lowering down, thanks to those 2 students of mine who managed to submit their thesis on time... and now, I have to concentrate on other essential things such as filling my km portal, writing papers bla bla bla..
on top of all, during my recent rheumy appt, most of my diagnostic levels have come back to normal.. akak sangat suka.. except for the specialist who attended me , dah ala-ala dr Rozmey dah akak nampak dia,dengan bow tie nya (which i found very weird, hahaha) and the way he enquired me pertaining to my pencytopenia last time... i d prefer to see the registrar instead then...
tetiba takder idea.. i woke up at 6 am tis morning, regardless the weekend... had my bfast at 6.30 am.. and staring at the idiot box for hours before i fell back to sleep on the sofa.. while listening to the korean drama lol. i cooked my lunch at 11 and been eating non stop ever since... dunno why but i think my cooking skill is getting better nowadays kah kah kah. ( who am i kidding aye?).. really regretted that I was not able to attend the baking class last saturday.. walaupun chances to do it at home is very slim as I do not have a decent oven ( yeah rite) but stil, if it can kill my time during weekends, why not.... hehehe.. they said it is never too late to make changes in yrself aite....

I d better key off... nak solat... have a fruitful weekend akak.. ( motif wich diri sendiri?...)

I'm blessed

baru balik makan nasik ayam dgn one of the colleagues.. ingatkan nak kena tunggu kul 5 baru leh makan.. nasib ada yg psychic kat dept ni kekekek..
Anyways,, akak semakin sehat... yang semestinya akak dah agak sebab kalau dah start kije.. seluruh jiwaraga dan juga otak akak akan bertmabah baik.. in fact kalau beku kejung kat rumah tak buat apa2 tu la yang buleh membuatkan rohani dan jasmani (ewahh) makin tak sehat...
So dah hampir 5 hari balik KL ni, selera akak juga makin menjadi2.. recently lak craving for sandwich bread.. semalam beli roti makan ngan mayonis ayam brand tu rasa macam wahhh ohhhhhh heaven.... esok ingat nak buat sandwich sardin la plak...
almaklumla akak ni kan penggemar roti dan segala jenis makanan bertepung (except for roti canai yang jarang2 la dimakan... )... hasilnya... akak dah naik 400 g dalam masa 5 hari.. tak ke bangga dengan pencapaian akak tu hihihihi
esok ada open house kat rumah adik bungsu akak kat putra height.. ahad kena jaga exam barang 2 jam.. ok la tu.. tugas kena baca thesis yg berlambak2 ni masih tak jalan jugak.. insyaallah.. minggu depan boleh initiate.. walaupun banyak lak event kat fakulti ni minggu depan...
akak cuba untuk mengurangkan rasa marah kat post grad akak yg tak jugak hantar draf ni.. walaupun deadline antar thesis lagi 1 bulan... malas nak stress.. kang ada pulak yg tak leh nak telan air liur lagi kang...
driver dah sampai... nak kena balik dulu..

Saat menjelang balik kampung

Esok akak balik! hahaha advance betul.. di saat bebduak skolah masih lagi kena belajar lagi satu hari, akak dah terbang balik KB, gila taknak kalah ngan bebduak ingusan yang excited balik kampung ( akak yang tua bangka ni pun taknak kalah ekekek).
Alkisahnya, akak ingat akak dah tak lewat nak book tiket balik, tetiba sebulan sebelum posa, akak check semua airlines, tarikh a few days belum raya tu dah sold out ( cam hampeh), kalau ada pun makan 3-4 ratus untuk one way trip, akak mana mampu!.. last2, browse tengok tiket paling murah adalah seminggu sebelum raya dan seminggu selepas raya.. so akak pun turut la sama menyertai kekalutan budak skolah untuk balik awal berposa kat kampung kekekek.
dedulu akak rajin jugak menumpang adik beradik yang balik kampung naik kereta, tapi sekarang, anak dorang pun post kot udara, apa kes akak nak menyelit2 nak tumpang disebalik celah2 kerepek, biskut dan beg2 dorang tu.. lagi satu, akak tak larat nak rasa kematu kat dalam kereta sebab lama sangat nak sampai.. ada 4-5 tahun sudah... akak nasib tak terkencing dalam kereta jek sebab terlalu lama menahan .. abis nak berenti, jem bumper to bumper.. tu bykan highway.. jalan kampung jek..
so resolusi semenjak 23-4 tahun keelakangan ni, balik sendiri, hari tu akak baru tingat nak beli tiket balik raya haji, dah sold out semua dah.. nak taknak akak balik pagi raya jek.. :)
4-5 hari lepas, akak melepak (tak ingat) kat KD. 5 hari tuuu.. siap ambik cuti lagi isnin tu sebab selasa kan cuti merdeka. kunun2 bawak kije nak buat sekali.. harammm tak disentuhnyaaaa.. tapi kan, ikut hati akak rasa cam nak balik rumah sendiri juga bila kebosanan menjelma.. so ptg selasa tu rasa cam legaaa jek bhila dah sampai rumah.. akak tak tunggu pun nak buka posa kat KD selasa tu.. sebab ingat nak mendobi kain baju yang ditinggalkan since jumaat.. sampai2 jek terus bawak masuk kain baju masuk washing machine... tengok2 air takderrr.... ! sakit hati betul.. ghopa2nya dorang rajin nak cuci tangki hari cuti tu.. akak expect dorang cuci time hari kerja... so pahala posa akak kurang le hari selasa tu sebab duk menyumpah2 pihak pengurusan yang amat cerdik pi cuci tangki hari cuti pas tu offkan air sampai la lepas buka posa...
cuti lama hari tu, akak sempat la buka ngan hoemmade nasik kerabu yg sangat bestt sampai tak cukup satu periuk besar... sangat sangat sedappppp.. tapi sebab panggil org datang buka, so portion org yg ambik makanan terhegeh2 ni sangat ciput sebab tak sempat nak tambah dah habis ekekeke.. padan muka ko akak...
hari sabtu lak bukak posa kat puncak alam, ok le.. tapi sebab hari tu akak dah makan kari kepala ikan, dah tak rasa nak jamah lagi.. hari ahad buka ngan spaghetti meat ball, hari isnin ngan lauk ketam.. tak koser akak nak makan. nak abiskan sekor tu pun punya la lama sampai kering nasik kat tangan kekekek
since balik rumah, akak cam takberapa lalu makan jek.. napa tah.. tengah tido sebelum bangun sahur pun asyik rasa mual... masalah tul la.. tapi bukak posa abis gak apa2 makanan hehehe..
kerja pun ada yang akak dah settle especially yang ada deadlines tu.. tetiba jek bersemangat buat kije sebab taknak ler balik nanti, kerja banyak pending... actually bila akak balik nanti mungkin akak sorang jek kot kat rumah.. len2 maybe balik lewat skit.. sorang dah berambus ke france, sorang lagi beraya kat penang.. cam tak cukup kuorum jek.. tak best rasanyaa..
mak akak pun time posa mesti tak berapa sehat... moyok jek.. akak lagi la takder mood kalau dah tengok keadaan cam tu.. adik akak sorang lagi hopefully balik sama akak esok since dia kat KT jek.. manjang tulis tak sabo nak balik kat status FB dia.. dan akak seperti biasa la mematahkan semangat dia dengan mengeruhkan keadaan kekekeke.. dah memang tu nature sorang kakak kan.. takder nya nak bagi muka kat adik2 dia kekekeke..
akak dah belikan baju kat bapak akak kat the curve last week.. sukerr.. sebab akak memang suker soping kat bapak akak ( anak sapa la mithali sangat ni ekekeke), pas tu kan nanti akak akan kira berapa kerap dia pakai baju akak beli compared to baju yg siblings akak yg lain beli... selalunya.. kalau dia kerapa pakai tu maknanya dia suka la... purata akak beli baju kak bapak akak kan.. ada lah dalam 5-6 helai setahun.. kalau ada trip ke indon mesti akak beli kan.. last trip kat jogja pun ada beli.. ( eh ni dah ada unsur2 riak ni akak)
okeh la nak pi solat dulu.. tgh pikir camna nak bawak balik biskut raya nanti.. selalunya akak pos thru abg akak jek.. tapi memandangkan hari ni baru nak ambik.. esok dah nak balik.. takder la nak berkirim2 bagai.. kalau boleh masuk semua dalam checked in luggage ok jek ( pas tu bila sampai tinggal serdak kekekek), ni nak kena p hand carry leceh la.. sebab akak tak nak feeling2 balik kampung bawak biskut raya.( ecewahh). akak cuma gheti balik kg nak raya lenggang kangkung ekekekeke...pas tu jeling jek bila satu family balik kg checked in luggage satu kontena.. no no no itu bukan akak okeyyy... kekekee.. last year lagi bagus.. akak beli set pinggan mangkuk kat pengkalan kubur untuk pakai hari2 kat umah akak, akak kirim kat adik akak suh bawak balik KL.. apa2 jek yg boleh dikirim semua akak suh kirim.. hasilnya.. akak berjalan2 kat airport tu dengan handbag jek.. tanpa luggage kekeke
since balik kg ni takder internet... so akak awal2 lagi mengucapkan selamat hari raya dan maap zahir batin... mana la tau kot tulisan akak ni ada membuatkan sapa2 tersindir ke tersentap ke.... tanpa sengaja... balik kg ni for sure kena bergaduh ngan anak buah akak si daniel gumuok tu... dia tu kalau tak buli makcik dia memang tak sah le...
bye..

Things that make me wonder...

1. Ko sebuk duk bergame fb bagai lagi sedangkan tak sampai 12 jam ko akan fly ke negara orang dan menetap di sana selama beberapa tahun.. dun u have anything better to do than playing those stupid games at this moment? ok fine, kalau dah siap packing bagai, tapi u ll be leaving yr home country and the rest of yr families in here, u can always do the game online, takkan larinya game kat FB tu.. but thinking that a rational person would choose a stupid game rather than .. u know.... *sighing*.. entah le tak paham aku org cam ni.. there are lotsa beter things to do to fulfil this moment... bulan puasa plak ni.. haishhhhh...! (buat ke sekian kalinya)
2. Realizing that there r certain women who dare to risk her lives by conceiving 3 babies in 3 years by c-sect... not sure whether i need to compliment them for her bravery.. i mean kalau normal procedure ikut suka hati ko la nak conceive tiap tahun pun kan.. but... c sect every year? ko memang nak menempuh maut la tu... of course la they will get back to takdir and rezeki.. tapi kan dah nama nya kita manusia, do some extra effort with birth planning... macam org miskin gak.. ko nak salahkan takdir sebab ko miskin? abis kalau ko tak usaha macamana Allah nak permudahkannya... ( kan akak quote hadith kan.. kekekek)
hello dey...some people think medical advices ni are bull shit... cam ada la satu pakcik yang akak kenal tu... dia cakap kalau wat med check up kat hospital of course macam2 la penyakit yang di diagnosa, end up stress tu yang buat lagi sakit... I totally disagree with this theory.. abis ko lagi suka la ek die in a sudden, as u wont have to take any medication for the diagnosed ailments.. biarlah rahsia gitu... tup tup kejung kat mana-mana.. biarlah.. dah ajalnya... kan?
Precaution... ko paham tak apa maknanya tuuu ?

ok la enuff about it... akak plak emo tengahari buta ni... some ppl think they r not selfish as all the actions they they took would be defined as their sacrifices to the loved ones... tapi bagi ahkak kan.. i have to be selfish for my own good... if it considers my body... tapi akak taktau la org lain kan... kunun berkorban apa saja.. harta atau pun nyawa... ko ingat laki ko akan stay single once u r dead? ntah ntah kubur masih merah , laki dah cari org lain.. kununnya nak kena jaga anak2 kecik yang beceretek arek tu...
Peviously, my sister mentioned in her fb regarding her junior MO yang passed away due to the birth complications.. most of her friend doctors siap komen kat status , more likely kutuk sebab this poor lady had a frequent pregnancy previously..
I have no idea why our moms boleh jek conceive every year,, tapi ko tengok la cara pantanga dia org lepas bersalin.. tip top... if they were to conceive the next year, the uterus dah totally healed... tu pun its not recommendable kan... compared to the modern ladies nowadays, jauh panggang dr api la... kan
( i dun know why i m still perturbed with this issue, I had my sister telling me regarding the similar case of her patient).. of course ahkak memang tak layak untuk mengkritik cos i dun have any tiny experinece regarding this... but i have LOTSA experiences ergarding other ailments.. U name it.. I am like a box full with lotsa diagnosed diseases... semua akak rembat hahahah..
Ok lah... tetiba emo di siang hari apasal kak? kekekee.. some people cant take any critics i guess.. somehow those critics would actually make u wonder abt yr life in person... kita takkan nampak apa kekurangan dan kelebihan kita sendiri unless ada org yg habaqkan kat kita honestly kan? I for instance somehow have been denying that i have this reporter insntinct in me.. my siblings used to call me that when i was a kid.. gara2 nak spread first hand info kat my father, akak boleh tergelincir atas titi dan terus terhumban dalama patrit yang penuh minyak hahahaa... tu pun tak insaf2 lagi... of lates jek, i have tried to reduce this so called attitude in me... tried to seal my mouth whenever i obtained some info from the rest of the family.. at times, it can be a good deed for conveying it,, but wat if the info was supposed to be a confidential.. ? tapi si reporter ni tak gheti2 nak tutup mulut?
sama la juga cam org yg suka membuat fitnah, ko ingat dia suka ke kalau org lain nasihat dia.. still cakap yang dia tu baik sebab bukak kain dalam org lain kan?

... Ok lah... nak tido sat... resolusi bulan ramadhan ni cam tak berapa menjadik jek.. cakap tak nak marah2.. tapi kalau ko marah tak melibatkan org lain tak pe kot..... marah sorang2 ngomel sorang2... hihihi

updating..

jari sangat pijar, taktau kenapa.. agaknya sebab tadi duk pegang cili api nak blend.. ataupun sebab akak kuoas bawang putih dalam gelap.. entah entah dah tersagat jari sendiri..
dah 2-3 hari tak puasa.. frust la juga sebab tengah berkobar kununnya nak menkhatamkan quran yang dah terbengkalai sejak tahun lepas.. ingatkan dah ambik jab ni, selang sebulan la ke dia 'datang' tapi ambik jab ke idok, regular jek.. dah le tu, selalunya 15 hari baru ok... (motif nak elaborate ni pehal kak?)
Anyway, anak buah akak yang kat SSP tu ada kat rumah this weekend.. kalau akak la sementelah tak puasa ni, ala kadar jek la makan.. tapi since dah tetamu ada, terpaksa la ke param.. ( bukan terpaksa masak kakaka).. semalam te5jadi la satu kekecohan sebab org yg nak pick up niece akak kat ktm serdang tu, tak berapa nak kenal muka niece akak tu.. so saling tunggu menunggu, akak pulak jadik perantara.. niece akak tu pulak takder hp, rely on public phone, dah le public phone byk yang rosak.. dekat 1/2 jam la jugak baru ketemu..
pas ambik akak kitaorg ke param depan rumah..tayau la apa nak makan, beli nasik kerabu for the 2nd time pas tu beli onde2 , 8 ketui 2 ringgit .. ish ish ish.. nasi kerabu pun takder la sedap mana.. cam tak cukup syarat tapi boolehh la..
kul 4.30 pagi, kejutkan niece, panaskan nasik dan lauk dia nak makan pas tu akak pun turut sama tak tido sampai la dah dekat nak masuk subuh... mithali sungguh la mak sedara ni kan kekekeke
petang ni mungkin ke param.. kalau budak skolah tu cakap nak pegi tapi akak cadang nak masak mihun goreng , tadi tgh kupas bawang la yang tersagat jari tu...
esok, ada bukak puasa kat KD, sempena nak meraikan abg ke 2 akak yang dah nak 'blah' ke marseilles jumaat depan.. (selamat duit raya akak untuk anak2 dia tahun ni hahaha). so kitorang the rest of the clan pakat2 sponsor bukak posa utk dia satu famili.. abangnda yang sulung dah delegate sapa kena bawak kuih apa.. byk cantikkann.. hahaha.. abis yang diraikan tu seperti biasa la main lenggang kangkung jek la kot datang kekekeke.. ( motip kutok abang sendiri kan)
so.. itu lah dia.. dah tak berposa ni.. cam tak best jekkk.. harap2 takder la lama 'cuti'.. tahun lepas akak cuti satu hari jek tu pun sebab akak kena posa utk xray.. so akak tak dapat sahur.. tak sahur maknanya tak makan ubat.. so pas xray akak buka jek la :)
dah pukul 4.. jap lagi kalau rajin ke param yang ntah hapa-hapa tu.. round 2-3 kali pun cam tak der menda yg rasa nak makan...

Ramadhan's coming..

As usual, when i am so worn out with works i ll take a secret little break by updating my blog in lightning speed ( hopefully).. I m about to finish a 2-3 pages of thesis report. I have other 2 queuing up for the "GOD-knows when the vivas are' and another 1 is adding up. Managed to finish reading the thesis in a record time, yes i spend a whole morning reading it yesterday, as I had an afternoon class afterwards. This morning, took a peek on its discussion and ran to a meeting which took place the whole morning. I am now trying to write a report based on the thesis content, have marked many pages of it, and silly me, i forgot to bookmark which pages so now i have to flip over the pages in order to mention the corrections that she has to make in the report.
Then, i think i need a break.. ok a short break.. to be precise a 5 mins break..
Eh lupa.. the fasting month will begin tomorrow.. I should be extra excited... and less sleepy... as I tend to go to be dearly so that I can wake up early for sahur and coming straight to work rite after subuh prayer... ok i lied.. i tend to get sleepy again while waiting for him to pick me up in the early morning. On 2nd tot.. i wont if i managed to find myself a suitable tv series that i might watch it with interest during those early hours...
I have one.. Its in KBS world channel.. they have tis one programme called "Screening humanity' which it actually a reality show on all sorta people in Korea.. This week, they are featuring a stay at home korean dad who take full care of his 10 months old son..Owh,, and last week, they featured a group of elderly women who lead independent livesamongst themselves.. I wept during one of the stories.. ( actually i wept in each of the stories.. heheh).This programme is on air every monday to friday at 6.48-7.28 am. see how god i am with the time? heheheh
On another story, mom called me last nite, informing me that she has collected all 4 pasang of my baju raya.. I asked her of the colors of those baju raya (i have the same problem of going back for raya with the mismatched tudung every year, and ended up with my sister's tudung). So this year, I m pretty sure i have the matching tudung to go with my simplest (motif?) baju kurung raya... lol
Can i talk a bit about my weekend? before the time's up... (cett!)
had a visit to SMC , maybe i havent blogged about this yet.. my 20 yrs old niece has undergone a surgery to remove a cyst and a fibroid (which has been ruptured into 3)on friday. Dunno wat happen these days, too many youngsters and teenagers suffer from the gynae problem. She( the niece) wont be diagnosed if she did not go for a thorough medical check up for her overseas admission priorly. She did not feel any pain, and the only things that they found out in prior was her BP which was a bit high for a 20 yrs old female . That led to a thorough check up, and since one of the aunties is a gynaecologist, she managed to find abdominal masses via the CTscan. And now, the bp is finally back to normal.. my elder sis flew back from kelantan since thursday and now going back with her daughter this evening. Hope, she will have a speeedy recovery. She was supposed to register in UQ last month, yet due to her failed medical check up and now this, she might be able to start her study latest after raya.... hopefully.. (now i have one more place to go for another overseas trip *grinning*)
My brother and his family will be flying to Marseilles at the end of this month. he will be working there for 2 years, bringing his whole family together. Now they are so free, as the niece and the nephew have quit school since last month and along with the mom, they are engrossedly knocking their heads off over FB games..*eyes rolling off*.. and owh Marseilles.. here i come next year lol!
owh.. its more than a 10 mins break.. and before i end up my entry, I m gonna wish my readers ( i know there is one or two) a happy ramadhan.. and another mundane picca from the last Kyoto trip lol.. me and the rest of the gang infront'f the Golden temple... don't know why , but I feel so serene everytime i look at this picca.. must be the surrounding.. i guess..

Coffee orgasm :)

Tajuk tak boleh blah keh keh keh:)
Oh yeah.. this is bliss.. while sipping a mug of hot coffee ( unfortunately its not kopi aik cheong, my fav, but hang tuah is as good as the former brand).. and sorry to all the starbuck lover or coffee bean ke apo as I am not their fans.. which is kopi yang mahal nak mampuih.. but the pleasure of drinking it is as good as @ even less than drinking the kopi kampung.. ( please check the calories of those branded ones..boleh terus ambik insulin pas tu hahahaha.
Anyway, i had a pleasant morning today.. not to mention i spent half of the morning chit-chatting with the etika agent whom happened to be the brother of actor jehan miskin ( no we did not gossip about the entertainment world, more likely into complaining of my iranian neighbours whom have conquered those 3 blocks of the apartment..
I had lunch with an istant mee in a cup, :) ever since we had our water dispenser refunctions in the so called pantry, i ve been going to and fro, thinking of wat sorta meal that Im gonna have next. Instant beverages are also been provided, and the only thing that they forgot to put in is either nasik lemak or mee hoon for instant breakfast. well its not that 'happening' now, it will even become quieter once the fasting month starts, yet now i dun have to worry to look for a glass of hot@ cold water like before. Its just a few steps away from yrs truly's coccoon:)
..... let me again enjoy another sip before the coffee's getting cold hehehehe..

The parent is coming this afternoon, I m not sure whether they will be picked by the 'ignorant brother' or the 'concern sister' hahaha. See.. i have names for each of my siblings.. Another 'totful sister' the one with the 'tantrum son' will be joining us tomorrow. And yes, she left the maid behind and will only be accompanied by her 'middle child syndrome' son lol..
The ignorant brother will be having sorta hse-warming on saturday nite, I m thinking of going to the idolised bro's house first so that i can tag along with the family later on.. eh wait a sec.. i think i ve narrated all of these in the prev entry.. rite.. cet..

almost 2, hope that this cofee wil make me awake till 5. need to look bz till then..

and. another kyoto pic.. ( as this is the only pic folder in tis pc)

us infront of the palace which was the previos location for The Last Samurai movie..:) never had neither the courage nor the strength to climb all those flight of stairs, ended up with us grinning infront of the place, as we did not have enough time to go to all the historical places.. Last stop was the tempura restaurant and i had another orgasm meal there... hahahaha

A yg meruntun jiwaaaaaaaaaa

lunch time, tapi hari ni akak posa (harapnya sampai ke petang.. amin)
alkisahnya semalaaaaam air tumpah ( air kotak) kat atas keyboard ni, so hari ni huruf 'A" adalah stuck, dan akak terpaksaa menggunakan segenap tenagaa akak untuk menekan keypad a itu. See kalau tekan haruslah byk aaaaaaaaa yang akaaaaan keluar.. TENSENNN! Tengok!

Takder benda nak update sebab penat nak menekan hurup A ini, try nak cungkil tadi taaaaaaaapi cam tak boleh.. ishhhh

Anyway, akak sekadar blog hopping dan membaca manaaaaaaa- manaaaaaaaaa blog yg boleh dibaaaaaaaaaaaaaca... hah

Tahap kronik dah ni...
anyway terimalah....


akak di tengah sebatang jalan di kyoto, konon2nya misi mencari geiko.. jumpa sorang tapi lari lintang pukang bila nmpak kita org... owh terasa feeling2 ala sakura kat sini, tu sebelah adalah tokong diaa apa tah, sgt sunyi walau pun masa tu tghari.. ini adaaaaaaaalah perkampungan geiko.. atau pun trainee geisha.. so bese la kan.. geiko kalu siang dia tido, malam baru beroperasi keh keh keh ( motif diakhiri dengan keh keh keh?)

okeh, akak nak jadi mcgyver jap.. nak repair keypad A nih

se-entri sekeping gambar

seorang makcik tembum with a picturesque scenery as the background, Lupa dah nama waterfall tu, tapi ianya adalah sangattt cantik, dan akak terpaksa turun natural marble stairs dengan railing kayunya untuk sampai ke sini.. tapi tetap la gigih nak turun jugak... nasib baik ada 2 PA membantu, sebab nak turun adalah sangat licin... my other frends siap ambik picas bawah waterfall tu lagik.. ni yang anak dia jek,, ada lagik yang beso... yang akak rasa cam ala2 nak posing 7 puteri kayangan.. tapi ( sedo diri muka tembum hasil lantakan kebab dan pelbagai turkish mealselama beberapa hari..pas tu bawak knapsack yang berat jugak la sampai tetarik baju akak.. gilo...kan) surprisingly kedai jual souvenirs kat waterfall ni lagik murah drpd bazaar yang hidup2 tipu kitorang masa kat antalya tuh.. ingatkan sini lagik mahal... ces ces )
I m gonna update with a lightning speed... bley?
Akak baru perasan, asal jek weeeknd, berat akak macam mencanak sedikit and then goes back to normal on weekdays...(yes, akak sekarang cam weight conscious jek.. nape tah)
pas tu, akak kan.. tengah2 baca thesis students, pas tu pegilap sliding door.. pas tu dalam 10 minit lagi... pegi basuh balkoni.. suka suki jek take a break nak buat spontaneous hse chores.. is it good or bad? ( or sekadar indicate yang akak ni bukan jenis yang organised)
Of lates, akak sangat suka tido awal.. asal jek terlelap kat sofa tu.. terus akak off tv pegi kroh2 dalam bilik.. malam sabtu hari tu, boleh tak, akak masuk tido kul 7.20.. ( walaupun dah boleh my mom will be calling malam tu , wahh tak sengke akak ada ESP:))
dan seperti yang dijangka.. akak dengar deringan telepon dalam kul 8 lebih gitu.. ingat malas jek nak angkat.. tapi akak taknak la plak mak akak stak wasangka, ingat anak dia pi clubbing ke jadi kutu berembun kat mana2 ke... ( padahal anak dia dah terbongkang tido, siap mimpi2 lagik).. so akak call dia balik... cakap lebih kurang.. boleh sambung tido tanpa sebarang masalahh... ( does it indicate i m such a 'pentido' yang berjaya? hahahaa)
tapi kan akak memang perasan kalau siangnya akak stress baca draf thesis budak2 amalatnya awal la akak lelap malam tu.. penat woo otak baca hasil ilmiah ni esp hasil ilmiah yang kelauttttt...
owh tak lupa jugak... mimpi akak cam meleret2 ntah mana2 pi kalau dah tido lebih 8 jam tu... hari tu akak mimpi handbag akak kena ragut.. gila boleh fikir dalam mimpi tu... kad atm tu dorang bleh pakai ke sbb akak cuma boleh report kehilangan kad atm tu keesokan paginya jek.. pas tu dalam mimpi tu boleh akak pk, eh.. kan aklau kita buat transfer dalam internet.. kan dia akan acknowlede samada kita ke yg buat transaction tersebut thru their sms to them.. so akak gumbira.. pas tu ehh tetiba terpk tu, applicable to credit card jek.. bukan atm card.. boleh lak tersedar mimpi pegi kencing.. pas tu gi check handbag ada ke tak atas meja.... hahahaha ( does it indicate that I have a REM stage of my sleep?)
owh lagi satu.. akak jugak astyik mimpi kawan2 masa skolah dulu... masa za,an primary school dulu... eh tapi kan.. byk kali jugak.. bila akak mimpi that partuclar person, nanti lagi 2-3 hari akak akan jumpa dia dalam face book... ( sekali lagi, adalah akak mempunyai ESP?)
Akak jugak baru prasan, kalau weekend, barnyak betul akak consume caffeine intake.. sekejap kopi, sekejap teh... bagus sangat la tu.. trigger akak punya batu karang lagi kan...
owh I hasd another eslw last month. as I had another attack in april, aweek before i flew to turkey.. so during tat period, akak posa kopi.. tengok jek la org minum kopi masa kat antalya.. pas tu ada this one day, akak made myself a cup of mint tea, tetiba jek akak rasa it soon gonna be anthr attack occur.. terus naik bilik... ambik painkiller.. tapi sementara nak tunggu drug took effect, sempat la jugak akak muntah seraun dua, sambil menggigil tahan sakit.. the pain went off adter a few hours...
so when i went for an appt after 6 months of having my 1st eslw, I had my ultra sound prior to the appt, so the registrar cakap.. ada lagi one stone kat my left kidney.. terus akak suh dia buat another procedure... tapi tis time gilerr sakit... sbb dia masoh in the kidney, last time it was already in the urethra...the dr cakap i can only do the same procedure 3x.. hopefully all of the stones dah selamat keluar.... tapi tu le,, akak ni degil, bila tak sakit minum balik nescafe... bencikkkk
so there's the end of my ranbdom rambling yang takder hala tuju itu.. I m gonna iron my baju for tomorrow. owh by the way, my parent is coming this weekend, my 2nd brother kununnya nak was 'naik rumah'.on saturday nite.. and then ada kenduri my parent's besan ( my sis's SIL) on sunday..) waaaaa ala2 ala bz la akak this weekend ye...
owh.. and there's another random pic in tis entry..
P.S cant wait to go to work tomorrow.. (harusla motivate diri sedniri kan... apart of kena sambung baca hasil ilimiah my student yang sangattt ke laut tu.... another probability that I m gonna have an early nite again tomorrow.. heheheheh)

Pukul 2 pagi...

Di Jogja , may hari tu.. ni gigih mendaki candi borobudur semata2 nak ambik gambar.. ikut hati tak larat tapi sebab dah sampai, naik la jugak walaupun slow kalahkan kura-kura... tu pun posing kat tanah jek.. tak koser akak nak naik sampai ke puncak AF sana.. keliling candi ambik gambar barang dua 40 keping pas tu turun ... on the way turun dikerumuni oleh penjaja yang mengekor sampai 1 km suruh beli barang jualan dorang ... ikut hati kalau kaki akak panjang la.. akak terajang jek ( ewahh ada hati tu), tak koser den nak beli tshirt yang ada gambar candi hindu... tau!

Morninggg.. *while yawning*...
i ve been up since 2 am this morning. Gila tersakit perut di pagi buta.. puas akak pejam mata buat derk.. tapi takleh jugak tahan.. last2 terpaksa meninggalkan katil yang empuk dan panas itu untuk melepaskan qada` hajat.. dan selepas keluar.. terus mata jadi terang benderang... bergolek-golek sampai kul 4 , takleh jadi ni.. akak bangun pas tu layan movie kat hallmark.. bijak bijak akak kan...
owh btw, akak tidur kul 9 malam so kalau dihitung akak dah tido 4 jam sebelum terjaga untuk memerut. Pukul 4 pagi akak bangun masak... tetiba nak makan sup yg ala2 di makan kat restoran mohd chan bangi tu... nampak cam sap sap sui jek.. so ala-ala rasa cam lebih kurang sama tu kira suksesss la jugak masakan akak tu....
posa tinggal sehari lagi.. since bendera tgh merah so rasa cam membazir jek bangun pagi2 tapi taleh posa.. ( ha iya la tu... masa belum uzur hari tu, punya la liat nak bangun pagi utk sahur...ishhh apa nak jadi ngan ko ni kak.... )
Habis movie kul 5.30 akak pi mandi and then bfast di pagi buta... pas tu sempat vacuum segala bagai sebelum nyaris tertido di sofa.... hasilnya.. akak menapak sampai gate depan supaya segar sikit bila sampai opis ( tapi nengok kije kat atas meja , yakni kena baca draf thesis yang ayar tah hapa2.. semangat yang berkobar nak buat kije tu menipis balik).. lemah betul la,, kalau kita kena betulkan ayat yang bukan ciptaan sendiri... bukan sikit lak tu.. berkajang2 kertas... cam ni alamatnya... lagi 2 tahun la student akak ni grad agaknya... nak kena hadiri kursus menulis tesis yang betul dulu kot...
This weekend, tak der aktiviti kat fak, jadi yahoooo akak boleh bersantai.. ( opps lupo ada satu tesis lagi kena hantar report), semenjak tua ni, akak memang kena bangun pagi waima hari cuti pun sebab rasanya macam tak best jek kalau ketiduran sampai matahari dah tegak atas kepala... lagi weeeknd lagi awal akak bangun
sebenonya.. napa tah...
Lagi apa ek nak tulis.. sebenonya akak cuba nak menghibur hati sebab dah 3 hari duk ngadap draf thesis yang dah kali keberapa dah tapi tetapppp... nahu ayat bagai makin banyak salahnya... Minum nescafe pekat dipagi buta pun dah tak jalan.. bila nampak ayat2 yang ditulis ni... ( penat sebenarnya duk complain benda sama ni)
petang ni rasa cam nak memperabiskan duit jek.. tapi on 2 nd tot.. tak bulehh... bulan depan gaji cam biasa pas tu bulan 9 pun gaji cam biasa.. abis book shelf ngan wardrobe kat umah akak tu nak bayo ngan apa? sisik ikan?
iya.. sisik ikan la sangatt.....
harus sambung kije balik... semalam fb takleh bukak the whole day rasa cam resah gelisah, tapi kalau leh bukak pun bukannya akak nak bukak pun.. saje ngada kan... ( elok la tu sendiri kutuk sendiri iyakan).. nampak sangat kehidupan akak sehari2 terbatas dalam bilik sendiri sensorang ...

Ala-ala ibu tiri yang garang...

Mood akak untuk mengupdate hanya datang malam2 jek.. itu pun kalau bukak lappy.. dan online.. ada jugak masa-masanya online dan mengupdate lecture notes.. tapi itu hanya beberapa kali dalam setahun sahaja... heheheh
My classes for this semester only avail on monday and tuseday jek.. so the rest of the weekdays adalah masa untuk menghabiskan kerja-kerja yang masih pending since cuti semester hari tu.. akak pun taktau kenapa... rasanya cam kije dah tekun.. tapi nak siapkan satu paper makan lebih dr dua minggu... owh that wont be my paper.. i asked the post grad student to write the paper, tapi biasa la sampai kat kita, caca marba jek dibuatnya.. quote reference kat text, tapi tengok dalam list reference takder... masa nak amend.. hati duk menyumpah-nyumpah, rasa cam nak penyekk jek budak tu if she were infront me at dat time.. seriously... post grad students nowadays are of lowest quality... and i keep comparing myself during those years, masa akak jadi postgrad student dulu... (idokla akak nak bangga akak dulu bagus.. tapi ex-supervisor akak si Datin yang dah ada pangkat P kat satu universiti kat tengah2 KL tu masih lagi menyebut2 nama akak kepada students2 nya sekarang... ) tak ke bangga akak? sebab nanti dia akan cakap " haa,, akak tu, walaupun saya dah marah dia, maki dia , panggil dia tolol, tapi tetap dia buat kije dia dgn baik.." haaaa tak ke kembang kempis idung akak tu...
Akak tatau kenapa bebudak sekarang are very indecisive, dan tak determined... contoh paling dekat, anak2 buah akak yang baru masuk U. Sorang, pas sebulan kat matrik kat satu univ kat PJ tu tetiba nak tukar masuk satu univ kat kajang tu. Masa kita org nasihat dulu suh masuk the latter univ, macam2 alasan dia.. at the end dia ikut juga kata mak bapak dia tapi during the process, dia telah banyak menyusahkan dan menghari-birukan keadaan. Alasan dia kenapa nak tukar univ? sebab the former univ hostel dia tak best sebab kena duk ramai2 dlm satu dorm.. dan dia mau masuk the latter univ sebab kawan dia bgtau duduk situ macam apartment.. sangat best... haaa tengok.. he can be easily influenced by the friends.. whioch i think is totally RIDICULOUS... abis lepas ko masuk the latter univ ko tau. bahawa indah khabar dari rupa.. mana lagi ko nak masuk? Universiti of Tanjung Rambutan lol..
kes dua, anak buah akak yang perempuan... dapat dua offer, satu matrikulasi, satu lagi diploma kursus yang agak sukar le ko nak dapat kije rite after ko abis diploma tu.. so makcik2 dia dan juga atuk neneknya bagi la tau.. masuk la matrikulasi .. tapi disebabkan.. tempat matrikulasi tu mestilah jauh skit drpd kampung halaman tercenta..and tempat yg tawarkan diploma tu masih dalam negeri yang sama.. so dia pun memutuskan untuk mengambil diploma dengan memberi pelbagai alasan yang tak masuk dek akal seperti... ambik matrik susah... (sebab ada org kampung yang balik kg sebab tak lulus matriks) dan juga alasan yang dia dah taknak ambik subjek yang berasaskan sains... well hello.. abis ko ambik diploma tu.. ko masih kena ambik basic science courses...
so ok la.. since its her decision, kita org redhakan ajer... so pergilah dia untuk mendaftar... tup tup tak sampai seminggu dah talipon maknya.. cakap dia nak duk luar la.. demam la.. basuh baju tak sempat la... bila mak akak cerita dlm talipon.. akak gelak tergolek2.. tu taktik kotor la tu.. nak cakap dia tak suka duk kat situ... minggu orientasi pun belum abis, dah merungut macam2...
sebab tu la akak kater.. hudak2 zaman sekarang memang manja... mengada2... semua nak yg senang.. talleh rasa susah sikit... padahal anak buah akak yang pompuan tu bukannya duduk kat bandar besar.. takder orang gaji pun kat rumah.. tapi memang duduk menyelit bawah ketiak mak ajer.. yang mak dia pun (akak yang sulung) tu pun mengikut jek cakap anak dia...kalau nak dibandingkan hidup akak dengan hidup dia.. memang cam langit dan bumi ler.. akak ni sakit bukan yang sikit2.. tapi semangat nak belajar tu berkobar2...mak akak tegah pun akak buat bo layan.. bial mak akak acah2.. abis kalau sakit tak leh berjalan camna nak pergi kelas, sapa nak tolong.. kat u sana tu semua org buat hal masing2...akak balas balik, alaaa Allah kan ada.. Dia la yang tolong.. kalau nak harapkan manusia.. memanglah tak leh harap...
Dan itu lah yang menjadi pegangan akak... memang la.. segala apa yang mak akak acah2 tu memnag jadi kenyataan.. akak pernah tergolek sorang2 kat bilik.. tak boleh bangun, nak pegi kelas pun tak boleh, tapi betul la, Tuhan akan menolong hambanya... ada jek orang yg akan tolong akak walaupun akak tak mintak...
Entahlah, budak2 sekarang.. tak perlu tengok yang jauh.. yg dekatpun dah ada contoh terbaik.. seriously, akak sangat kuciwa ( ewahh), apasal la budak2 sekarang lemah-lemah.. segala2nya mintak disuap.. kalau tak, komplen, cakap kita yang tak baik.. tak tolong.. abis kalau dah mentaliti macam tu.. apa ko ingat ko boleh survive kalau dicampak dalam hutan? ini dicampak kat Dungun pun, dah mengonggoi nak balik...Agaknya sebab banyak makan fast food kot mental pun jadi cam kentang goreng yg akan lemau kalau dah sejuk...
Tapi kan.. akak rasa serba sedikit, ini juga mungkin berpunca darupada didikan ibubapa... kalau dah tak tegas dengan anak dari awal.. cam tu la jadinyaaa.. kalau mak tegas, bapak asyik lembik tengkok jek ngan anak pun tak jadik...abis kesedaran pun tak diberi dari awal.. asal jek dapat ok sikit result.. reward la dengan PSP la, kamera la, hp la,, akak dulu dapat no 1, takpernah dapat apa2.. sebab apa? sebab akak tau... ayah akak tak mampu nak mereward bagai ni.. gaji cuma cukup untuk makan pakai dan sara idup anak2... memang la.. akak rasa itulah sebab utamanyaaaa....Tidak syak lagik....
(wah lamanya ko membebel akak... macam la anak ko ada sepuluh tapi hakikatnya... NAN ADO..) . agaknya sebab tu la Tuhan tak kurniakan anak kat akak sebab Dia tahu kalau akak ada anak, mereka akan sengsara sebab dapat mak yang amat tegas.. yang tak akan teragak2 melempang kalau anak dia mengada2.. hahahaah).
Ok la.. akak dah tak nak cakap lagi.. tak pasal stress di malam hari sebab cerita pasal benda ni....lol...

Al-kisahnyaaa

akak di royal garden, istanbul.. dikelilingi ribuan kembang tulip..eh tau tak.. tulips are actually originated from turkey.. tapi tanah belanda yang dapat nama land of tulip.. sungguh tak patut... kalau ke istanbul musim bunga, memang akan nampak tulip dengan pelbagai warna sepanjang jalan dan di mana2 taman.. sangat sanntekkkkkk....

Terlebih dahulu, akak ingin menyusun sepuluh jari memohon kemaafan sekiranya entri ini ada berbau sedikit keriakan.. memandangkan.. menjadi seorang akak yang 24 jam duk sensorang ni, kat mana lagi akak nak mengabarkan perkembangan diri, kalau tidak di blog sendiri ( tapi tu pun jarang-jarang la sbb akak ni kan ikut mood, time mood siri bercakap ngan dinding, sekejap2 siri ketawa sensorang depan tv, kadang0kadang siri bermyahsabah diri,, watever lahh)
Arakiannya, sudah lebih sepurnama, akak meng'haram'kan nasi dalam menu akak.. nasik sahaja tau sebab segala jenis karbohidrat lain, akak masih makan dalam kuantiti yang tidak banyak. ye, akak masih perlukan karbohidrat untuk menjana tenaga supaya senang akak nak marah students master akak yang serba lembab tu..
tapi semalam, akak terpaksa la juga makan nasik ( nasik beriani herba lagi tu) di ladang herba kat pagoh tu, memandangkan akak dah membayo harga untuk pakej lawatan yang termasuk set nasik beriani herba dgn ayam herna dan segala2nya yang berunsur herba la kekdahnya..itu pun akak menyuap bersama sendu di hati.. guilty sangat la rasanya.. ( tak padan balik tibai roti separuh buku hahahaah)
nak cakap berat badan akak turun pun idak la, tapi akak rasa kandungan gula dalam darah takder la mencanak sepanjang masa.. ( owh lupa nak cakap, akak ni sebenonya ada diabetes ye kawan-kawan).. sepanjang satu bulan akak kerap la mengambik sayur dan protin sahaja sewaktu tghari ( sampaikan budak kat kafe kelab golf tu dah sedia maklum), akak ni umpama arnab yang telepas di padang golf itu gamaknya..
hasilnya... owh.. akak gumbira.. berat nya mantain sahaja.. dan akak merasa lebih sihat.. dan tak ngantuk pas lunch.. bley? yang penting kandungan gula dalam darah tetpa mantain sepanjaang hari dan akak pasti rheumy akak akan kagum dgn pemeriksaan darah akak.. cehh perasannn..
yang penting, akak punya waistline semakin mengurang, walaupun berat total takder la mengurang banyak sgt.. so beberapa helai jeans yang tak muat dulu sudah boleh dipakai (sila tepuk utk kejayaan ini)..
owh..masa akak balik turki bulan april lepas, akak sangat terperanjat bila menapak ke atas weighing scale, harap jek berjalan punya la jhauh.. tapi akak naik sampai 2 kg time tu.. separuh pengsan dibuatnya...
of course la, akak ni dinasihatkan tidak selalu menapak disebabkan ingin menjaga segala sendi yang menunggu masa untuk collapse itu.. apatah akak kan tidak berupaya untuk naik turun tangga, so apa lagi yg akak boleh buat untuk exercise kan?
so akak ingin teruskan dengan kempen tidak makan nasik ini selama yang boleh untuk kesihatan diri...