Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Doom's (ke?) day

I am gonna have my teeth ( as in a row of teeth) extracted tomorrow. Sila pegi menangis balik pintu hahahaha.
I have to prepare my mind for a  week liquid diet starting tomorrow hu hu hu
Tak tahu lah.. kan dah 20 tahun acik tak pernah cabut gigi dengan dentist... asyik cabut sendiri je
I have to mark tomorrow's date as one of the unforgettable day in my life...

Ok... propa overloaded..

Friday, March 03, 2017

Entri separuh hati (ku di bawa pergi)

last post was written in April 2016. fast forward its Feb 2017 already. Pheww

Lotsa things happened thou.. I m listing it down in chronological order..

May 2016 - A trip to Bulgaria with sista, more like a conference trip thou, but as usual I managed to go sight seeing albeit my swollen ankle

August 2016 - I finally underwent a surgery to replace the prosthesis due to another infection on the knee. they replaced it with a temporary implant, a molded one made of cement, a very light one thou.. I asked the surgeon, how long should I wear this, btw it was implanted inside the knee, and the surgeon said, until we confirm that you r free from infection and it may take up until 6 months.. and he told me again that you wont be walking without any crutches or knee brace, and at that time I have been thinking about all the lectures that i ll be  missed and MCs etc..
anyway, how long they ll be giving mcs then?

so the first few weeks were tough enough.. wearing knee braces will actually limit your mobility. post op is another torturous moment. You can feel those "thing"rolling inside your knee, trying to adapt itself, and it hurt like........ that i have to move to various knee positions while wailing myself for hours. It did not help thou as the on call MOs did not give me any morphine,  Instead they injected me with pethidine which did not even work on me. so after a painful nite, the surgeon came to check on my condition. he has already prescribed morphine for the post op, but the oncall MO dare to joke with me, asking me on the pain scale.. I told its beyond 10, but he said, i did not look like i was suffering, still can pray and talk... I ignored him then.

anyway... right after i was discharged i had to present a proposal at MOHE, so there i was struggling on a wheel chair while presenting the 'so called" proposal (seeking for sympathy as well lol hence the wheel chair.. too bad nobody noticed *sob sob")

(continue from previous draft yang dah berbulan ni)
fast forward a few months later.. after a few episodes of flare ups,,, uncountable counts to Ortho and RA follow ups.. here I am (switching to "too lazy to type mode" haha)
By the way I did not get the research grant from the shortlisted proposal presentation last August..
still looking for a new one.. (nangis balik pintu)..

eh dah le.. malas pulak nak type banyak2..

Sekian laporan yang tak semengah dari saya..

Till then ..

Friday, April 29, 2016

No title,

Ohh.. sudah lama tidak mengepost.. hahaha
(It's been a long time )

Anyway.. my health is deteriorating at present.. I am not sure whether it is arrythmia.. but I have read regarding all of  it's symptoms and most of them have all occured in me... (nervous). I have been experiencing severe tachycardia for the past few nights, and  back pain as well as jaw pain. It really scared me off  thou..
last week i have undergone another incision and drainage (I&D) procedure, again. I think I have not posted about my previous surgery in December last year, in which the arthro surgeons have already decided in removing my knee implant, due to its aseptic loosening. I have been having infection on the medial knee for a few times, and the last one was in June last year. When the abscess recurred back in December, the doctors have warned me in prior thou, that if it recurs, whether I like it or not, they will have to remove the implant. So when it did recur in December, I  was more than  ready, mentally and physically. and for the next 6 months, i have imagined myself with wheelchair and crutches and knee braces, before they are able to replace  the new implant.
Surprisingly, they did not remove it as according to them, the implant is not loose and still intact. In addition, they found out that the infection was not connected to the implant, thus they closed it .
Well what could I say, I was MORE THAN happy since I am still able to walk like normal. However,
langit tak selalu cerah (sobs), after 2 weeks, another infection was shown on my lateral knee. and with that, they decided to open the knee again.. well, I said - "No! I have given you chance to remove my implant last time.but you did not do it and now, you want to open it again??? NO way JOSE!!!"
well, I did not really say that to them. ( cam berani sangat nak cakap cam tu kat dokter kan) It was in my mind already, but what was just blurted out "Just give me more time, maybe not now, maybe at the end of this year", and I added ( this one for real), "I have already planned so many things  throughout this year", well yeah, the plans that I have decided to postpone when they decided to open up for the first time, and now there's no turning back, comraded.. ( hahah drama sangat kan aku ni)..
So with that final say, they started giving me antibiotic, to suppress the infection. I have been on antibiotic since December until one fine day in march, I went  to another appointment with my Rheumy. Owh.. have i mentioned about  I had my knee aspirated twice within that time, it hurts like hell la weyy, (sakitnya tu disini) and they managed to get the fluid from that infected site.
So when I went for the Rheumy followup, they asked me to stop the antibiotic and started with the antifungal instead, as the results from the fluid preciously taken stating that it's contaminated with Penicillium.
So I started taking Sporanox at the end of March, and last 2 weeks, the infected knee started oozing with some clear fluid, not pus thou. and the next monday, I was admitted again. I asked them again not to remove my implant and was joking with the consultant that I have to go to this one place next month. so he said " Where? 6 feets below?" (Kong hajaq tul kan.. ) hahahaha
anyway to cut the story short, I underwent a surgery on Tuesday afternoon, and the anaesthetist there informed me regarding my abnormal ECG.
But dun worry, I m due for another appt next week, I ll inform them regarding my condition. It might also be from the antifungal drug. I read  that they might give adverse effect of shortness of breath etc, so I m realy hoping that these are just temporary symptoms from the drugs, Aamin...
 owh to get back to work..


Saturday, January 02, 2016

Azam tahun sangatt

Sempena tahun baru 2016, saya berazam untuk mengupdate post setiap hari......

Ok la... setiap 2 hari...

Come to think of it.... I dont want to promise anything.... i ll settle for a weekly post...

There's nothing interesting will happen to me within a week..
.so how about once a fortnight...

After a long thought.. and numerous pause... ok lah.. i think i can handle a monthly post (mcm la ada org nak baca pun kan)...

Hmm.. i ll start thinking about the next month's post ye...

Ok lah tahun depan la pikir.. aci tak..

Yang tertangguh...
Akak yg hangat-hangat tahik ayam

Friday, August 14, 2015

trying really hard to write.. but as usual.. I failed .. again

I have been trying to update my blog numerous time,,, but alas... to no avail. And today.. I thought, hey since my brain is highly saturated.. as I have been working on a book chapter for the past 2 weeks..I cant stand anymore of all the scientific words..

I have gone through raya and the previous months successfully even though in between I have been admitted twice ( Hey I realized I did not finish the draft narrating about this as I was like writing halfway.. and after a few sentences I had a writer's block hahaha)

Anyway.. I have a maid now... so my house is now double shining and the floor can now be utilized as a mirror... in case you cant find one lol

ok.. what else should I write ere then?

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Blogging is the hardest thing to do..

someone asked me nicely, when will i update my blog? Owh well... I guess a blog should be updated.. at least once a year... or if i were a bit generous, twice per year hahahah..
So here it is...
Do you know that when you are in vacation, you ll always have things that you can properly describe it in detail in your mind and you may translate them into words,, beautiful words.. I might say. The thing is you will be fully inspired with what you feel, see , smell and experience at that time..
and it will only happen when you have emptied your mind from works, stressful works and works again hahaha..
Those are the time that you really see things in their own shapes and sizes.. when in prior you never bother about those tiny things..
Ok lah.. hujan lebat... kang ada yg kena litar pintas lak kat sini hahaha...
anyway.... terimalah..... my favorite place in the world... so far..