Feel like posting another entry.. (even tho aku masih dalam mode mild sentap agik)
Yang pertamanya:-
aku sayang mak aku.. walaupun aku selalu rasa aku ni dah byk mengecewakan dia. or aku dah byk menangis kerana penrnyataan pedas dia ( adohaii), tapi.. disebabkan makcik ni taknak menjadi anak DURHAKA, makcik hanya mendiamkan diri sahaja, tanpa menjawab walaupun makcik akur la sangat bahwa segala kenyatan yg dibuat oleh ibuku tersayang itu langsung tidak relevan ( tis is actually to clarify the buckets of tears over last weekend's incidence).. Yes, i ve learnt and am still learning not to hurt my mom's feelings eventho in the end its my feeling which hurts most
Keduanya-
even tho I cud admit that I am a COMPLICATED person but if it were to come from other ppl's mouth, it surely offended me alot, especially when u ve been elaborating it into details..and one more thing... how sure r u, tat it was how i felt when or vice versa.. maybe it was one of yr assumptions/ analysis again which u always think tat u r good at it
KETIGANYA-
i believe that when u concern abt someone, u at least give a few mins of yr time to sms or call, rather than leaving msgs in Ym ( bcos I rarely login to YM now, and if u saw me on line, it doesnt me tat I am really online, sumtime i do login via my hp, checked my emails for a few mins and logout but others wud still see me online.. and to know tat i am the one wth a few maladies here, dun xpect me to spread the news everytime i went thru hard times
KEEMPATNYA-
Go reread yr entry again and put yrself in my shoes. Then u will know wat I ve been trying to tell u. Not to mention, i also read comments and i can feel a tinge of insinuations in one or two comments.. ( and I DID NOt say FINALLY)- i reread my entry on tat particular matter.. I do not understand WHY do u have to sound so cynical abt it ( bcos i didnt say, tat there'd be others who wud do the same thing if i were sick?).. anyway I ve been sick for a long time (apart from the one mentioned in blog), and have u ever asked how i ve been before? rather than claiming that u did leave me a few msges in my YM, which i ve never received bcos they have blocked my YM in d office for months now ( which i d never able to bother bcos i have lotsa things to do when i m at work). I have my ego too, i dun go and announce to d world dat somehow, they have suspected tat it might be a malignant thingy . I have enuff problems to deal with, and there you go accusing me of being complicated and elaborating more nonensical theories abt me. Ko kata ko terasa, walaupun takder satu patah pun yg leh link-kan entri aku tu ngan ko, in fact sorry to say, i did not think abt anyone when i wrote the entry. tats wat i felt. he was there , awlasy there for me for the past 6 months. Everyone i know is either so bz with their familes, babies, old schoolmates. I m not jealous of others bcos i know, they have their own world. let them be la kan. so i met him and we became friends. Is it wrong bcos i didnt tell to any one of u? Ada aku marah ko takder bagi tau aku wat u ve been doing or whom u ve met recently? wat i knew if thru yr blog which i follow frequently. Ko ingat aku tak terasa ke? AKU SANGAT SANGAT TERASA OK! cam la aku ni kalau sakit cuma patut mintak tlg pada kawan2 rapat aku yg dah berbulan pun taktanya khabar aku, tapi aku tak kesah pun sbb aku pun sama. I beleive in up n downs of a realtionship/friendship. Semua org ada hidup masing2. satu ketika kita rapat pas tu tak lagi. so dat's it la. Aku pun ada kehidupan aku sendiri. Ishhhhh aku takpaham sebenarnya apa yg telah meng-initiiatekan isu ni.. tapi ap[a yg aku tau aku mmg SENTAP ok... cam la aku ni... aku ni... ishhhh ( takder ayat yg sesuai nak ditulis kat sini)
IRESTMY CASE. yg sebenarnya.. aku dah malas nak sentap pun..sbb aku dah malas nak ambik port.. dan seperti yg dah aku tulis , tats final. sbbnya.. yes its too complicated.. as u said i am.. so TAK PAYAH NAK RISAU OR WATSOEVER NGAN ORG COMPLICATED NI>> aku tak ambik tau kisah ko.. ko takyah la ambik tau hal aku...kalau ada org yg sanggup nak angkat aku dr tingkat 10 pun , ada org lain kisah? ko pegi la angkat org lain yg memerlu ianya di angkat dr tingkat atas ke tingkta bawah.. kalau rasa nak mengangkat sgt..

DAH... end of my anger management entry,