Things that make me wonder...

1. Ko sebuk duk bergame fb bagai lagi sedangkan tak sampai 12 jam ko akan fly ke negara orang dan menetap di sana selama beberapa tahun.. dun u have anything better to do than playing those stupid games at this moment? ok fine, kalau dah siap packing bagai, tapi u ll be leaving yr home country and the rest of yr families in here, u can always do the game online, takkan larinya game kat FB tu.. but thinking that a rational person would choose a stupid game rather than .. u know.... *sighing*.. entah le tak paham aku org cam ni.. there are lotsa beter things to do to fulfil this moment... bulan puasa plak ni.. haishhhhh...! (buat ke sekian kalinya)
2. Realizing that there r certain women who dare to risk her lives by conceiving 3 babies in 3 years by c-sect... not sure whether i need to compliment them for her bravery.. i mean kalau normal procedure ikut suka hati ko la nak conceive tiap tahun pun kan.. but... c sect every year? ko memang nak menempuh maut la tu... of course la they will get back to takdir and rezeki.. tapi kan dah nama nya kita manusia, do some extra effort with birth planning... macam org miskin gak.. ko nak salahkan takdir sebab ko miskin? abis kalau ko tak usaha macamana Allah nak permudahkannya... ( kan akak quote hadith kan.. kekekek)
hello dey...some people think medical advices ni are bull shit... cam ada la satu pakcik yang akak kenal tu... dia cakap kalau wat med check up kat hospital of course macam2 la penyakit yang di diagnosa, end up stress tu yang buat lagi sakit... I totally disagree with this theory.. abis ko lagi suka la ek die in a sudden, as u wont have to take any medication for the diagnosed ailments.. biarlah rahsia gitu... tup tup kejung kat mana-mana.. biarlah.. dah ajalnya... kan?
Precaution... ko paham tak apa maknanya tuuu ?

ok la enuff about it... akak plak emo tengahari buta ni... some ppl think they r not selfish as all the actions they they took would be defined as their sacrifices to the loved ones... tapi bagi ahkak kan.. i have to be selfish for my own good... if it considers my body... tapi akak taktau la org lain kan... kunun berkorban apa saja.. harta atau pun nyawa... ko ingat laki ko akan stay single once u r dead? ntah ntah kubur masih merah , laki dah cari org lain.. kununnya nak kena jaga anak2 kecik yang beceretek arek tu...
Peviously, my sister mentioned in her fb regarding her junior MO yang passed away due to the birth complications.. most of her friend doctors siap komen kat status , more likely kutuk sebab this poor lady had a frequent pregnancy previously..
I have no idea why our moms boleh jek conceive every year,, tapi ko tengok la cara pantanga dia org lepas bersalin.. tip top... if they were to conceive the next year, the uterus dah totally healed... tu pun its not recommendable kan... compared to the modern ladies nowadays, jauh panggang dr api la... kan
( i dun know why i m still perturbed with this issue, I had my sister telling me regarding the similar case of her patient).. of course ahkak memang tak layak untuk mengkritik cos i dun have any tiny experinece regarding this... but i have LOTSA experiences ergarding other ailments.. U name it.. I am like a box full with lotsa diagnosed diseases... semua akak rembat hahahah..
Ok lah... tetiba emo di siang hari apasal kak? kekekee.. some people cant take any critics i guess.. somehow those critics would actually make u wonder abt yr life in person... kita takkan nampak apa kekurangan dan kelebihan kita sendiri unless ada org yg habaqkan kat kita honestly kan? I for instance somehow have been denying that i have this reporter insntinct in me.. my siblings used to call me that when i was a kid.. gara2 nak spread first hand info kat my father, akak boleh tergelincir atas titi dan terus terhumban dalama patrit yang penuh minyak hahahaa... tu pun tak insaf2 lagi... of lates jek, i have tried to reduce this so called attitude in me... tried to seal my mouth whenever i obtained some info from the rest of the family.. at times, it can be a good deed for conveying it,, but wat if the info was supposed to be a confidential.. ? tapi si reporter ni tak gheti2 nak tutup mulut?
sama la juga cam org yg suka membuat fitnah, ko ingat dia suka ke kalau org lain nasihat dia.. still cakap yang dia tu baik sebab bukak kain dalam org lain kan?

... Ok lah... nak tido sat... resolusi bulan ramadhan ni cam tak berapa menjadik jek.. cakap tak nak marah2.. tapi kalau ko marah tak melibatkan org lain tak pe kot..... marah sorang2 ngomel sorang2... hihihi

updating..

jari sangat pijar, taktau kenapa.. agaknya sebab tadi duk pegang cili api nak blend.. ataupun sebab akak kuoas bawang putih dalam gelap.. entah entah dah tersagat jari sendiri..
dah 2-3 hari tak puasa.. frust la juga sebab tengah berkobar kununnya nak menkhatamkan quran yang dah terbengkalai sejak tahun lepas.. ingatkan dah ambik jab ni, selang sebulan la ke dia 'datang' tapi ambik jab ke idok, regular jek.. dah le tu, selalunya 15 hari baru ok... (motif nak elaborate ni pehal kak?)
Anyway, anak buah akak yang kat SSP tu ada kat rumah this weekend.. kalau akak la sementelah tak puasa ni, ala kadar jek la makan.. tapi since dah tetamu ada, terpaksa la ke param.. ( bukan terpaksa masak kakaka).. semalam te5jadi la satu kekecohan sebab org yg nak pick up niece akak kat ktm serdang tu, tak berapa nak kenal muka niece akak tu.. so saling tunggu menunggu, akak pulak jadik perantara.. niece akak tu pulak takder hp, rely on public phone, dah le public phone byk yang rosak.. dekat 1/2 jam la jugak baru ketemu..
pas ambik akak kitaorg ke param depan rumah..tayau la apa nak makan, beli nasik kerabu for the 2nd time pas tu beli onde2 , 8 ketui 2 ringgit .. ish ish ish.. nasi kerabu pun takder la sedap mana.. cam tak cukup syarat tapi boolehh la..
kul 4.30 pagi, kejutkan niece, panaskan nasik dan lauk dia nak makan pas tu akak pun turut sama tak tido sampai la dah dekat nak masuk subuh... mithali sungguh la mak sedara ni kan kekekeke
petang ni mungkin ke param.. kalau budak skolah tu cakap nak pegi tapi akak cadang nak masak mihun goreng , tadi tgh kupas bawang la yang tersagat jari tu...
esok, ada bukak puasa kat KD, sempena nak meraikan abg ke 2 akak yang dah nak 'blah' ke marseilles jumaat depan.. (selamat duit raya akak untuk anak2 dia tahun ni hahaha). so kitorang the rest of the clan pakat2 sponsor bukak posa utk dia satu famili.. abangnda yang sulung dah delegate sapa kena bawak kuih apa.. byk cantikkann.. hahaha.. abis yang diraikan tu seperti biasa la main lenggang kangkung jek la kot datang kekekeke.. ( motip kutok abang sendiri kan)
so.. itu lah dia.. dah tak berposa ni.. cam tak best jekkk.. harap2 takder la lama 'cuti'.. tahun lepas akak cuti satu hari jek tu pun sebab akak kena posa utk xray.. so akak tak dapat sahur.. tak sahur maknanya tak makan ubat.. so pas xray akak buka jek la :)
dah pukul 4.. jap lagi kalau rajin ke param yang ntah hapa-hapa tu.. round 2-3 kali pun cam tak der menda yg rasa nak makan...

yesterday's emotion

I was so disappointed yesterday, that i wept silently while cooking . remember how i longed for the nasik kerabu in my yesterday's post? Someone did buy it for me, along with all the tempting kelantanese kuih muih, ie lompat tikam and tepung pelita. I was so happy on the way back home yesterday, ala-ala my dream has come true.
Tapi...
panas tidak sampai ke petang...
Rite after i cleaned myself, i unwrapped all the purchased food, and looks like someone has MISINTERPRETED my request.
I was asking for NASI KERABU, not the NASI DAGANG...
so there went my resolution of going to be extra patience during the fasting month.. Tried not to get angry at anyone.. but... yes, I was babbling to myself in between.. cant help vented out my frustration via 2 sms-es to that person (yang tukang beli)..
in the meantime, I defroze the fish, planned to fry it and cooked the rice, the nasik dagang will go straight into the thrash bin... ( see, kunun nak insaf... takder maknanyaa)..
I have no idea why i went a bit berserk + emotional.. ala2 cam orang mengidam la plak...
but then, after 30 minutes, i have calmed down.. i m breaking my iftar with nasik panas and ikan goreng jek + ulam timun jek la...
Not knowing that someone took a real effort to go back to the place where he bought the food ( in the middle of the heavy rain) and came back to my place just to give me a pack of nasi kerabu (yang dah tak cukup syarat)..
Am not sure whether i should thank that person of it (due to his kasih sayang yang melimpah ruah hahah) or he cant stand my cruel sms-es that have been sent to him earlier. I wasn't that cruel la.. besides there 'd be another day..( never felt apreciated tho, if that was the reason )
Anyway.. the nasi kerabu is under-rated... so i guess the same goes to the untouched nasi dagang.. and all the kuih muih, i only managed to take a spoonful, which gave me the bitter taste ( gilo, lompat tikam rasa sangat pahit), and it cant even be covered with the sugarless air nisan.. similar case with the tepung pelita.. i think they added bucket of water to the diluted santan.. which doesnt give any creamy taste of the santan... which have made me so so so.... frustrated that I vowed i m not gonna buy anymore food from the param tis year... and if i ever did, it shud be from the same established stall that i bought it in SS... ( makan nasik ngan ikan goreng lagik best babe!!)
Dont have the heart to curse them. I bet lotsa customer have already done tat...
On another note.... I finished my follow up at rheumy clinic very early today. yeay!.. accoding to my blood test, everything is under control.. my sugar level is ok, my cholestrol level is going down.. and i feel so happy... (cant afford to get stressful during fasting month aye?)
Got another O&G follow up next week, time for another jab :)..

p.S still cant believe i got so emotional over an unworthy pack of bland nasik kerabu yesterday.. haishhh

and still...

day 6..
Bukan kira berapa hari posa.. tapi.. berapa hari duk mendetoksifikasikn badan ni...
Dah 5 hari.. keluar masuk toilet.. penat wooo.. ada kalanya tak kerap sangat..adakalanya ( cam hari ni) hishh... toliet bowl pun dah bosan kot nengok akak bertenggek atas dia hahahah
since esok nak kena pi rheumy klinik... haruslah stop untuk sehari.. tak koser nak berulang pi tandas spital.. kat opis ngan rumah boleh la.. bersih..
dah dah 5 hari, akak berjaya tidak pergi kemana-mana pasar ramadhan.. masak sendiri.. takder la grand sangat, tambah2 duk sorang lagi la... buka posa makan kuih jek.. semalam teringin nak makan popia, buat la barang 20 ketul, goreng 5 ketul pas tu minum air teh secawan.. itu je la juadah buka puasa.. semenjak ambik supplemen detoks , rasa kenyang jek.. tapi sahur harus gak la makan carbs.. so sahur makan leftover spaghetti tuna yang digoreng di ptg sabtu.. letak brocolli dan cendawan banyak2.. ( yang menyumbang kepada kekerapan masuk tandas juga la tu)
petang ni, since kelas abis kul 6, rasanya terpaksa la juga beli (wahh terpaksa tu).. dedulu, 2 tahun lepas ingat lagi, asyik tulis dalam blog , hari2 kena jamah nasik kerabu.. dulu boleh la param depan rumah.. pas tu org yg jual tu memang yg jual hari2 bukan bidan terjun bulan poser jek..
akak bulan pose memang allergi dengan masakan bersantan.. napa tah.. so dalam hati cuma ada kuah yang jernih jek cam tomyam ke, sup ka, masak bening ke.. ayam cuma boleh makan ayam goreng jek.. (ayam percik pun ok )tapi yang lain meman g hanya akan menjadi santapan mata sahaja... senang nak bela akak ni :).. tak der nak perabiskan duit pun hahahha
duk sorang ni,, nak buat kuih pun malas,,, nak buat banyak bagi kat jiran? ermmm jiran pun akak tak kenal tau... yg depan rumah.. pasangan tanpa anak.. kalau terserempak keluar rumah sekali,, laju2 jek dia blah masuk lif cam taknak berdepan jek... org sebelah pun dah bertukar ganti... bila akak kuar menyapu, kalau kebetulan dorang ada kat luar, cepat2 masuk... ishh terasa sungguh akak.. cuma yang kat hujung tu jek.. yang dah beranak pinak... kalau jumpa jek senyum.. tapi itu la akak ni kadang2 jumpa sekali dua lum cam.. kalau org senyum esp lelaki.. antara dua.. nak senyum ke tak.. mana tau akak yang perasan ke ...
Rasanya tak der bezanya ramadhan atau tak... cuma amal ibadah jek yang rasa lebih skit bila bulan posa.. yang lain tu.. macam nak makan ke apa.. sama jek sbb bukan bulan posa pun ramai jugak yang tak makan beriya...
rasanya hidup sebatang kara ni cam tu lah.. bulan posa cuma meriah bagi yang hidup berkeluarga.. tanya la manusia ke jin afrit mana pun... akak kalau nak rasa meriah, pegi la lepak rumah abang yang penuh dengan anak buah.. tapi tu la.. yg dah besar pun buat kije sendiri2... manjang duk atas main playstation la.. bukak internet la... layanyang kecik jek la... *sebak*
Semua orang ada kehidupan masing2, macam akak pun.. dah lama berseorangan ni, bunyi2 bising jek rasa nak marah orang... nak ketenangan la kunun.. sekali sekala boleh la jumpa kawan.. tapi kalau dah selalu.. apa ke pekdahnya.. waima.. kawan baik pun semua dah berkeluarga... yang tak berkeluarga.. tak boleh masuk dia org punya peel lak...
kalau zaman dulu, umur cam akak ni dah ada cucu tau ( ewahh motif nak cucu hahaha), hari tu ada sorang budak kecik dalam umur 3-4 tahun masuk lif ngan mak dia.. makdia duk panggil akak ni "nenek' bila bahsakan kat anak dia.. ishh sentap disitu akak.... hahahaha.. tapi pk2 betul la.. kalau akak ada anak masa umo 17 tahn, anak sulung dah 25, mesti dah berkawin bagai ada anak der kan... so tak jadi la sentap, tapi jegil2 manja jek kat mak dia hahaha.. nak sedapkan hati.. ok la ok la akak jadi nenek vogue jek la heheheh
Frankly speaking, akak tak kesal pun kalau dah ditakdirkan takder jodoh sampai ke akhir hayat.. Itu dah bahagian akak dari Nya.. Ada la sebab musabab nya TUhan dah takdirkan cam tu.. Akak redha sebenarnya ( waahhh siri meluah perasaan la pulak)..
Tapi kan, akak rasa mungkin masa dalam kandungan dulu masa Tuhan bagi pilihan kat akak, kau nak Phd ke kau nak kawin dan ada anak, dan akak yang materialistik ini pun memilih nak ada Phd sebab kalau ada Phd dapat banyak duit, dan kalau ada duit banyak, ada kau kesah ko ada anak ke laki? so akak pun memilih pilihan yang kurang tepat hahah ( astaghafirullah, akak joke jek ni tau)
tapi kan, akak selalu terfikir.. in a way musahabah, kalau akak ni tak sakit sejak kecik, mungkin bila besar, akak akan jadi liar dan bebas dan jahat mengalahkan jin afrit, kalau akak ni punya suami dan anak, mungkin akak tak boleh menjaga rumahtangga akak dengan baik, end up dengan cerai berai dan sebagainya.. so konklusinya,, segala yang berlaku itu mesti ada hikmahnyaaa.. kalau dah kita berusaha tapi Allah tetap tunjukkan yang itulah pengakhiran hidup kita... akak pasrah.. sebab DIA tahu, akak bleh menerima dan menempuh segala dugaan dan cabaran serta ujian yang diberikan.. ( wahhh adakah akak mengangkat bakul sendiri?)..
Ilmu akhirat takder la sebanyak mana, seriously masa akak kecik dulu biasa la budak kecik), bla sakit jek akak nangis, tanya kenapa lah DIA beri ujian yang berat ini pada akak yang masih kecik ni , tapi bila dah meningkat dewasa dan 'menua" akak bolehjek terima apa jua dugaan tanpa bersungut atau merungut. kadang2 persekitaran tersebut boleh menginsafkan kita sebenarnya.. baca blog minah loaded yang berbapakan tansri, rasa macam.. wahh bestnya diaaa... semua yang dia nak dia dapat.. tapi bila baca blog yang meruntun jiwa, macam ibu yang ada anak bermasalah ke.. terasa betapa bertuahnya kita... bila baca berita bayi dibuang.. terfikir, macamana la ibu dia tu menghadapinya berseorangan... dengan masalah maha besar.. pas tu mengambil keputusan melulu...dan otomatik terus mensyukuri diri kerana diberi akal yang rasional sepanjang 42 tahun hidup di dunia ini... Banyak benda sebenarnya yang kita boleh fikir-fikirkann dan mensyukuri nikmat yang Tuhan bagi...
.. dan bulan puasa ini jugalah yang membuatkan akak berfikir sejenak.. tanpa perlu memikirkan.. apasal la aku lapar sangat ni,, nak makan pun takder apa.. sebab banyak masa yang kita boleh peruntukkan di bulan puasa ni untuk memperbaiki diri.. bukan hanya dibulan puasa tapi untuk bulan2 seterusnya...
Akak insaf.... ( harapnya untuk selama-lamanya la ).. ni idok, esok manjang duk komplen marah tak leh bukak botol sos cili, la tak leh capai hanger kat kabinet atas la.. (itu bukan marah, itu keciwa sebenarnya) hahahaha

Ok lah... memulas untuk kesekian kalinya...

Detoxifying month of Ramadhan

Not in the mood to update the blog, as I have lost it while marking the students' ethno paper. Senatp hokeyyy. Akak merasa sedikit sakit jiwa juga sedikit kuciwa dengan prestasi pelajar akak yang sangat kelaut... dorang ni paham apa tak yg akak ajar ke jenis main spot soalan.. so soalan yang masuk totally outta their league..
Sunnguh akak kuciwa.. so marking amat mengambil masa.. walaupun hanya 22 ketui sahaja yang ambik paper ni... kata paper elektif... Soalan part akak memamng ko setakat ni.. so ada lagi 2 soalan daripada topik lecturer lain..
Sesungguhnya emosional di hari pertama ramadhan adalah amat tidakk sesuai yer....
Sementelah waktu kerja di bulan ramadhan ini dipercepatkan setengah jam, (tapi akak kul 6.30 pagi dah terpacak dalam bilik), haruslah akak balik awal sikit petang ini untuk mengubati hati yang lara.. ( motif?)
Dan seperti kebanyakan blogger lain yang memperihalkan kisah sahur di hari pertama, maka akak juga adalah tidak ketinggalan untuk berkonngsi cerita (ewah!).. Cuma cerita sahur akak tidaklah berapa meriah kerana akak hanyalah bersahur berseorangan sahaja diiringi dengan jeritan anak2 pak iran di luar bangunan. Disebabkan akak telah berazam untuk men-detoksikan diri di bulan ramadhan ini, maka akak telah mengambil minuman ( yang kununnya mampu mendektoksikan) yang menyebabkan perut akak memulas mulas sahaja sejak dari pukul 10 pagi tadi.
Owh , lupa pula,, sahur akak adalah berupa tomyam (paling sedap kat Sri Lavnder, Kajang) dan juga paling pedas yang amat. Akak masak satu periuk besar ( sebab tak gheti nak ration untuk sorang ni).. dan haruslah akak mengulangi makan tomyam tersebut sehinggahabis licin satu periuk. Paling cepat lagi 2 kali buka puasa dan 2 kali sahur.
Buka puasa nanti, akak akan mendetoksikan diri lagi sekali sebelummenjamah apa sahaja makanan yang berada di dalam fridge. Adakah kesan minum detoks itu menyebabkan akak terasa tidak terliur langsung dari membayangkan makanan2 enak di tghari ini? hmmm mungkin juga.. sbb akak rasa masih kenyang walaupun dah 2-3 kali berulang alik ke tandas. Owhh... hati akak sudah mula berbunga kerana sekiranya rutin ini boleh diteruskan sepanjang bulan ramadhan , harus la akak berjaya mencapai saiz model of the year nanti.. hahahah ( ok, tak kelakar)
harus mintak diri dulu kerana perut akak kembali memulas2.. (owhh btw, minuman tadi mengandungi ekstrak nenas di samping pelbagai ekstrak tumbuhan yang menampilkan kaler yang sungguh tak menarik iaitu kaler hijau.. tapi rasanya sedap dan everytime akak sendawa, akak rasa nenas... hihihi)

permisi ke tandas dulu!

Ramadhan's coming..

As usual, when i am so worn out with works i ll take a secret little break by updating my blog in lightning speed ( hopefully).. I m about to finish a 2-3 pages of thesis report. I have other 2 queuing up for the "GOD-knows when the vivas are' and another 1 is adding up. Managed to finish reading the thesis in a record time, yes i spend a whole morning reading it yesterday, as I had an afternoon class afterwards. This morning, took a peek on its discussion and ran to a meeting which took place the whole morning. I am now trying to write a report based on the thesis content, have marked many pages of it, and silly me, i forgot to bookmark which pages so now i have to flip over the pages in order to mention the corrections that she has to make in the report.
Then, i think i need a break.. ok a short break.. to be precise a 5 mins break..
Eh lupa.. the fasting month will begin tomorrow.. I should be extra excited... and less sleepy... as I tend to go to be dearly so that I can wake up early for sahur and coming straight to work rite after subuh prayer... ok i lied.. i tend to get sleepy again while waiting for him to pick me up in the early morning. On 2nd tot.. i wont if i managed to find myself a suitable tv series that i might watch it with interest during those early hours...
I have one.. Its in KBS world channel.. they have tis one programme called "Screening humanity' which it actually a reality show on all sorta people in Korea.. This week, they are featuring a stay at home korean dad who take full care of his 10 months old son..Owh,, and last week, they featured a group of elderly women who lead independent livesamongst themselves.. I wept during one of the stories.. ( actually i wept in each of the stories.. heheh).This programme is on air every monday to friday at 6.48-7.28 am. see how god i am with the time? heheheh
On another story, mom called me last nite, informing me that she has collected all 4 pasang of my baju raya.. I asked her of the colors of those baju raya (i have the same problem of going back for raya with the mismatched tudung every year, and ended up with my sister's tudung). So this year, I m pretty sure i have the matching tudung to go with my simplest (motif?) baju kurung raya... lol
Can i talk a bit about my weekend? before the time's up... (cett!)
had a visit to SMC , maybe i havent blogged about this yet.. my 20 yrs old niece has undergone a surgery to remove a cyst and a fibroid (which has been ruptured into 3)on friday. Dunno wat happen these days, too many youngsters and teenagers suffer from the gynae problem. She( the niece) wont be diagnosed if she did not go for a thorough medical check up for her overseas admission priorly. She did not feel any pain, and the only things that they found out in prior was her BP which was a bit high for a 20 yrs old female . That led to a thorough check up, and since one of the aunties is a gynaecologist, she managed to find abdominal masses via the CTscan. And now, the bp is finally back to normal.. my elder sis flew back from kelantan since thursday and now going back with her daughter this evening. Hope, she will have a speeedy recovery. She was supposed to register in UQ last month, yet due to her failed medical check up and now this, she might be able to start her study latest after raya.... hopefully.. (now i have one more place to go for another overseas trip *grinning*)
My brother and his family will be flying to Marseilles at the end of this month. he will be working there for 2 years, bringing his whole family together. Now they are so free, as the niece and the nephew have quit school since last month and along with the mom, they are engrossedly knocking their heads off over FB games..*eyes rolling off*.. and owh Marseilles.. here i come next year lol!
owh.. its more than a 10 mins break.. and before i end up my entry, I m gonna wish my readers ( i know there is one or two) a happy ramadhan.. and another mundane picca from the last Kyoto trip lol.. me and the rest of the gang infront'f the Golden temple... don't know why , but I feel so serene everytime i look at this picca.. must be the surrounding.. i guess..

drooling over the kelantan delights during ramadhan

Hari Jumaat yang sangat mengeringkan tekak. Dah puas akak menggagau cari ayaq minum, nak turun koop beli mineral water malas, kat dalam pantry, bekalan air dah abis.. so puasla akak menelan air liur (eeeww) tapi tetap tak hilang hausnyaa.. tapi kunyah biskut mayat for lunch tanpa air... rasa cam unta la plak...
anywayyyy... untuk menghilangkan ngantuk, akak berblog(bley?), since nak minum kopi hang tuah.. ayaq panaih takdakkk...
Ada satu thesis nak kena baca dan satu paper nak kena write up. Gigih write paper sebab nak cukupkan quota hikhikhik. owhh insentif last year publication pun lum dapat.. so tahun ni berazam untuk publish kat impact factor journals la plak...
Akak ada satu lecture jek weekly sekarang.. lepas raya ada balik lectures untuk subject lain.. so skrg takder la bz sangat nak prepare lecture.. boleh la membuat kegiatan sampingan yang bermenafaat ..
Semalam lunch kat Mohd Chan dengan adik akak dan colleaguenya.. they all dtg untuk meeting department yang setahun sekali pun tak penah attend tu hikhik ( motif kutok adik sendiri).. Anyway, most of the siblings balik kg this weekend membuatkan kejelasan akak melampau-lampau... takpe.. tak sampai sebulan lagi, akak akan balik untuk beraya... ( ewahh posa pun lum dah berangan nak balik raya)..
bese la abg akak itu, nak masuk bulan posa, wajeeebul balik kg untuk membeli serbo mok-niko kuih2 kelantan untuk dibawak bekal berbuka posa di KL. Akak pun cam tu sebenonya, bulan posa teringin la nak makan kuih2 kelantan yang sangat menarik tu.. esp sagumpal.. lapis sekaya, akok, buah mulong, nekbat,tepung pelita, colek ayam wahhhh meleleh airliur akak dissat menaipnya.. sorry karipap org kelantan tak makan yer.. tak der langsung nilai2 estetika karipap di bulan posa...
dan dibulan posa juga la akak akan mengidam segala jenis kerabu, nasik kerabu, ayam percik,solok ikan dan segala lauk2 kelantan.. tapi sorrii.. kat pasar ramadhan tu sangatlah taksedapnyaa dan sgt la mahalnta hapa2.. rasa pun tak sama ngan kat Kelantan punya.. so dibulan posa ini akak hanya boleh menaruh kepercayaan kepada restoran sup UK kat sek7 sahaj yang berupaya untuk mengembalikan nostalgia indah berbuka kat kelantan.. ( tak la sepenuhnya tapi ok la dari ngko menyumpah seranah sipenjual lauk yang tk berdosa di pasar ramadhan itu)..
Takpasal rasa lapar plak duk menyenaraikan lauk2 kegemaran nih.. ishhhh
owhh nak balik nak balik.. kalau kat rumah.. lauk singgang daging pun dah sangat sedappp masa buka posa...mak aihh ngidam singgang daging la plakkk...

Pathetic Tuesday..

I was in such a pathetic state yesterday ( waaa.. trust me when it comes to seeking sympathy).. alkisahnya.. i planned to fast yesterday.. and while cleaning and mopping a corner of the room ( as they were going to install the wardrobe and the book shelf in those corner the next day), I accidentally shifted my body in an awkward way ( kununnya nak bersihkan debu kat bawah katil). later on i felt the sharp pain on my left waist, ironically, I ve just gone for a follow up in the urology clinic in the morning, and they found out that there're another 2 tiny stones remain in the kidney, at the lower bottom, after my post-eslw last month. when the dr asked me whether i had any pain lately, i brushed off his question while boastfully answerd that " i m good nowaadays, dr".. and on that very nite, those sharp pain haunted me back.. padan muka aku..
I did swallow a mild pain killer before i went to bed ( thinking that the pain will go away later on ). But it did not. I managed to call for help, at 5 am. and that was because, I did not think i d be able to stand the pain anymore.. it throbbed every 5 minutes which made me felt like i was in labour pain ( ok, i lied,, never knew how'd it feel).. The rescue came 5 mins to 6, and we rushed to emergency Hospital Serdang. After getting a jab, I was half ok already. It was already half past 7 when we left the hospital, and i ve decided to take a medical leave for a day. Since I was at home, the plan still went on and they came around 11 to install the items. It was quite noisy with all those drilling watsoever, and i was like a zombie trying to stay awake infront'f the tv. It would be so appropriate if i had just lied infront of the tv like always, so I decided to lie down in the rom ( minus the noises in the next room). They still havent finish installing those stuffs at 4 pm, and i was a bit shaky already, due to the lower glucose level. Switched on the tv again, while feeling sorry to myself ( motif?). They did a good job tho, tho the floor ne3ed to be mopped when they left. Had the leftover of nasi beriyani, from the sunday's khenduri ( it was supposed to be my sahur actually)..Still had those pain on and off, and they only gave me ponstan for oral painkiller. and this morning, i had my sahur with the leftover nasi beritani and ayam masakl merah again ( for the 3rd time duhh), and came early for work. Feeling good today tho, despite the yesterday's unfortunate event..
taaa..
P.s no pic today. enuff of kyoto's piccas..