in random.. (la sangat)

Syukurlah hari ini sudah hari jumaat.. or dengan kata2 omputeh.. TGIF ahakk..
I have not been well for the past few days.. actually it started since the thaipusam day.. my resolution of having my kitchen and balcony floors scrubbed was not fulfilled.. I was too sick to do all the house chores.. i had a n excruciatingly painful stomach.. and a day before i had a roti canai sardin (which i thot i shud blame on this roti canai, fir initiating my stomach colic)..The pain is somehow extraordinary, not like a normal typical stomach pain.. On 2nd tot, it might due to UTI or endometriosis.. I duuno.. I m having another apointment at Rheumy clinic rite after CNY and another one at O&G. in the end of february.. If i could not bear pain till then, I d seek for help in the nearby clinic...( which i think it'd be impossible as I do have a very high pain treshold, unless akak tak meriau terjaga tengah2 malam due to the colic, takder la nak pegi emergency begging for an i.m kakakaka..
I am not going back for CNY. I ll spend 4 days of the festive holiday in Kajang or perhaps KD or Putra Height.. it depends on how well i am.. if i were not in the bestest state, alamaknya terbongkang kat Kajang jek la.. seriously, i dun feel like memerap kat rumah org when i m in my sorry state..
I d be extra bz when February comes.. A bit worried of my deteriorated health... as I dun wanna miss any of the February events.. tapi mampukah akak? huhuhuhu
I ve just been informed that the students will have a very long semester holiday which consists of 4 long months. They will only come in September after Eidul Fitri as KPT has set the beginning of the new semester which will be tallied with europe/uk summer hols.. owhh is that a good news? ntah le akak pun taktau..sebab there wont be anymore sem break and the students esp the final year wil be rushing for their project..
eh akak nak chalo dulu.. nak pi beryls, beli chocolate.. ada CNY sale kat kilang dia kat Sri kembangan till 31st...
ciao

updating..( as if anyone care..)

Life has been pretty quiet lately.. last week was a bit hectic tho.. with 2 events to attend to in the fac (tapi org lain tak heran pun nak attend tu), but being me, I always remind myself to be involved in any events held in the fac.. yes i am such a pekerja contoh sampai any events to be held.. akak jugak yg kena jadi commiteenya.. kekekeke..
my health condition is deteriorating again.. i thot I m done with it, tapi roper2nya.. i just realized i ve been in shortness of breath lately... tried to climb up a flite of stairs.. i felt like collapsing in the middle of students' crowd while in the process..
bila bangun tido pulak.. i feel a tightness in my chest everytime... having 2 sistas as medical doctors only worsened the situation as they scared me off with their "diagnosis". One made me dementedly worried when she tot i might have lung fibrosis due to the adverse effect of mtx and another sis told me that my eyes looked a bit yellowish..that may lead to the liver failure.. might be.. so akak , being a hypochondriac mula la imagine macam2.. ended up me begging for an early appt of my rheumy clinic..
My weekends are fully occupied.. since the previous weeks.. and it will continue till the end of October.. early Nov, I m going to bandung for a conference cum jalan2 trip. with this current condition.. i dun think I can afford to walk more than 200 m in faster paces... last week, while attending the student's convocation, i couldn't even catch up with a person infront of me while parading from the admin building to the hall.. . i was like.. ya allah.. jgn la aku pengsan tgh2 jalan ni...
I am so pathetic kan? To add it up.. I have like tons of works to be done ( which is not suprising anymore)... I think my Hb is dropping off again... tu yg buat akak rasa macam hypoxia all the time...
Seriously, with this condition, I dun think I m able to take care of myself, let alone others.. when i look at my messy house, i feel like hiring a maid to get it all done...
Enuff said... the colleagues are mostly supportive tho..

Akhirnya..

Akak baru balik ke KL 2 hari lepas.. Lama gilerrr balik kg.. seronok sangat kot sampai taknak balik kije semula? Silappp tuan puan adik kakak..
Akak terpaksa mengorbankan tiket balik ke KL dan pulang seminggu kemudian sebabnya...

jeng jeng jeng.....

yer.. akak hospitalized..

sangatlah shahdu raya tahun ni... sebab ...
akak TAK BERAYA langsung... nasib puasa sebulan habis ..
jadi akak bersyukur yang amat sebab akak berjaya menghabiskan puasa tapi tak dan nak menyambut raya..

Sakit yang Allah nak bagi, terima jek la.. takyah komplen komplen kan.. tapi akak rasa ini adalah kifarah daripada segala dosa2 akak waktu bulan posa... hambek ko.. TUHAN bayar cash kakakaka..

Serius akak tak beraya lansung... raya pertama akak minum air dengan kepayahan.. makan pun dah tak boleh.. raya ke empat... since dah tak boleh minum waima makan, nak telan air liur pun hazab sampai pressure telinga... maka akak terpaksa rela masuk hopsital untuk di bagi drip...

Akak rasa akak la org pertama yang time raya turun mendadak berat badan kakakaka.. 4 kg dalam masa 4 hari...

Anyways... bila akak kuar spital iaitu 9 hari selepas raya, semua maknosia dah balik kg.. segala jenis kuih raya semua dah tinggal serbuk kat rumah akak.. so akak pun menyambut raya dgn cara akak sendiri la..nak posa 6 pun maktak bagi sebab dia cakap badan lemah lagi..
Of course, tangan akak masih lebam2 ala2 didera sebab doktor nak ambik darah tak dapat.. katanya urat akak halus sgt.. nasib branula boleh masuk.. kalau tak akak dah mati kekeringan..

Alhamdulillah, akak dah boleh makan dengan sempurna.. walaupun phobia farink ngan tekak akak membengkak sampai air liur sendiri pun takleh telan... Surprisingly akak tak demam langsung... cuma merasa la jadik makcik bisu 3-4 hari...

Now dah balik kije, walaupun segala urat saraf rasa cam disentap2.. tapi kije tetap kije... nak jalan lebih 200 m pun rasa nak tergolek tengah jalan sebab oksigen tak sampai kat kepala...redha jek la akak....
Insyaalah raya tahun depan kalau belum meninggal.. boleh sambut lagik..kan kan?

Pathetic Tuesday..

I was in such a pathetic state yesterday ( waaa.. trust me when it comes to seeking sympathy).. alkisahnya.. i planned to fast yesterday.. and while cleaning and mopping a corner of the room ( as they were going to install the wardrobe and the book shelf in those corner the next day), I accidentally shifted my body in an awkward way ( kununnya nak bersihkan debu kat bawah katil). later on i felt the sharp pain on my left waist, ironically, I ve just gone for a follow up in the urology clinic in the morning, and they found out that there're another 2 tiny stones remain in the kidney, at the lower bottom, after my post-eslw last month. when the dr asked me whether i had any pain lately, i brushed off his question while boastfully answerd that " i m good nowaadays, dr".. and on that very nite, those sharp pain haunted me back.. padan muka aku..
I did swallow a mild pain killer before i went to bed ( thinking that the pain will go away later on ). But it did not. I managed to call for help, at 5 am. and that was because, I did not think i d be able to stand the pain anymore.. it throbbed every 5 minutes which made me felt like i was in labour pain ( ok, i lied,, never knew how'd it feel).. The rescue came 5 mins to 6, and we rushed to emergency Hospital Serdang. After getting a jab, I was half ok already. It was already half past 7 when we left the hospital, and i ve decided to take a medical leave for a day. Since I was at home, the plan still went on and they came around 11 to install the items. It was quite noisy with all those drilling watsoever, and i was like a zombie trying to stay awake infront'f the tv. It would be so appropriate if i had just lied infront of the tv like always, so I decided to lie down in the rom ( minus the noises in the next room). They still havent finish installing those stuffs at 4 pm, and i was a bit shaky already, due to the lower glucose level. Switched on the tv again, while feeling sorry to myself ( motif?). They did a good job tho, tho the floor ne3ed to be mopped when they left. Had the leftover of nasi beriyani, from the sunday's khenduri ( it was supposed to be my sahur actually)..Still had those pain on and off, and they only gave me ponstan for oral painkiller. and this morning, i had my sahur with the leftover nasi beritani and ayam masakl merah again ( for the 3rd time duhh), and came early for work. Feeling good today tho, despite the yesterday's unfortunate event..
taaa..
P.s no pic today. enuff of kyoto's piccas..

She vomitted, she croaked

Last week was... ( uwahhhh).. sangat menyedihkan okay..
I was not supposed to narrate em all here.. bcos.. as much as I dun like people whining about their disappointing health condition.. I shud not do the same thing here rite! ( dengan lain perkataan, tidak baik untuk aku merungut atau berkata-kata dengan segala kejadian malang yg menimpa ku.. wite?)
but,, nak juga aku berkata-kata.. since I ve gone hru a few episodes of.... ( drum rollings)
1. renal colics ( when i typed colics, meaning, i ve gone thru it more than once... tersangat sakit okay. in chronological order:
a.Wednesday evening, while waiting for pakcik to fetch me, outta sudden i felt the pain initiated on my left waist, and it continously throbbed inside till i reached home. after an hour, lying on the bed, i managed to wake up, thinking of going to the clinic, and outta blue, the pain diasppeared.
b. Thursday evening, The smiliar pain started again at 7 pm. I managed to take my bath, washed the clothes, and after i took my dinner and painkiller, i lied down. It became worst, i know its a renal colic, bcos i ve experienced the similar pain 5 yrs ago, a week before i underwent my TKR at dat time. so, the it has ttacked me again. Vomiited for like 5 times before pakcik arrived and brought me to the clinic. ( ok ini part yg aku rasa cam nak belasah jek the doctor yg buat locum kat Klinik P*enawar tu tau!)
Masa aku masuk, dia tgh baca paper dgn bagusnya. Aku baru pas muntah untuk kali ke 6 kat toilet klinik. This is part of theconversation occured:
Makcik: Dr, I think i got a renal colic la
Dr ampeh (DA): macamana awak tau?
Makcik: Sebab saya dah pernah dapat sakit yg cam ni 5 yeras ago, and besides,my ct scan report said there are multiple renal calculi inside my left kidney.
DA : So apasal dia org tak buat apa2
Makcik ; (sambail tahan sakit) bcos they did the ct scan for my endometriosis
DA ( membebel panjang lebar) sambil masih baca paper
Makcik: So can u give me the injection to reduce this pain
DA: Membebel tak abis lagik
Makcik: Boleh tak dr? saya dah tak tahan sakit ni
DA: ok, boleh but mungkin bukan kidney stone, mungkin muscles ( he pronounced it as muzzles)yang buat aku terkebil2 tak paham
Makcik: can u give me the injection NOW dr?
DA: maih dengan 'muzzles" dia sambil duk baca paper lagik. pas tu bagi instruction yg tah hapa2 kat aku.. sedangkan aku dah siap baring kat atas katil dah
Makcik : so pissed off at dat time
DA : ok saya bagi buscopan?
Makcik : (dalam ati : wat? gila apa nak bagi aku anti-spasmodic.. aku dah cakap ni bukan muscle spasm.. bagi la voltaren ke weiiii).. hm ok la ( wutever)
after for like 5 mins, dia injek aku wh buscopan, (yg dapat aku rasa, it wont give any effect to me)
DA: so balik nanti meniarap, pas tu letak airbatu kat pinggang bla bla bla
i went back home, did as he instructed, and as predicted, that buscopan didnt give any effect to me. I vomiited for like a few times more. siap2 menggelupu atas katil sbb tak tahan sakit ( boleh imagine tak? ).. not a pretty sight i must say.
at 11, we decided to go to A&E hospital serdang. tu pun aku rasa cam lama sgt nak sampainya.. sampai sana jek, aku paksa adik kat registration to attend aku dulu. terus dia antar aku kat dalam. masa baring kat atas katil tu, terasa lama sangat dengan aku yg pegang plastik in case aku muntah yg kali ke berapa dah. so they put me on a drip, and then since i cantake tramal, so they injceted me with voltaren sajork. after 10 mins, ( lama skit sbb my level of pain tu kira dah level 8 outta 10), the pain was decresing slowly. after getting my blod and urine and xray result, they discharged me at 3 am.
c. hari jumaat aku ok sajork. Since dapat mc, aku pi opis jap ptg tu nak ambik buku untuk finsihing school aku. stomach muscles aku tersangat sakit disebabkan gerakan yg terover masa muntah pada malam sebelumnya. suapar aku terus ilang jugak
d. saturday, aku ada FS, so dengan suara yg sgt merdu, aku mengfasilitasi kan bebudak tu , and at 4.30 pm, tetiba aku rasa sakit tu dtg balik.. haaa sudahhhh.
ambik another pain killer, kul 5.30 abis jek sakit makin menjadi2 lak.. jadi sebelum terngadah, aku pi klinik P*enawar tu lagi for anthr voltaren jab. Check dulu sapa dr bertugas, tobat aku taknak masuk kalau dr yg sama cam malam tu ada.. nasib baik dr lain. Dr ni mmg dah selalu aku jumpa.. so he kinda knows me la. When i narrate that nite incidence, terusdia cakap sambil geleng kepala.. "eh tak cukup ngan buscopan, mana boleh bagik tu saja... renal colic ni mmg sakit.... "
See. dia sangat memahami.,..
e. Ahad, aku siap2 ambik another voltaren tablet sebelum kul 4.30. so bila balik rumah, terasa sakit skit dah, cepat2 ambik another voltaren. nasib baik the pain ease away after an hour
f. Isnin, bangun dgn sakit matanya on the left side ( tatau kenapa) and batuk2 yg mengokol2 now. Took one tab at 1 pm and at 7pm dia start sakit balik. terus ambil another tab, anthr panadol actifast and off to bed. around 10 pm baru la dia betul2 ilang.
and today... im at work. have taken one tab at 1.30 pm just now.. i know the trick now. sebelum dia sakit atau rasa sakit skkit2, terus ambil ubat.. tapi tu la.. i m now so so relying on painkillers. baru jek steroid free... cett
well... thinking of going to urologist earliest next week. sangat sibuk tis week with tests etc. besides hospital serdang only have visiting urologist which is actually from KL. and I have asked them to give me ther referral letter to HUKM, senang, all my medical history kat sana..
owh well... tata