updating..( as if anyone care..)

Life has been pretty quiet lately.. last week was a bit hectic tho.. with 2 events to attend to in the fac (tapi org lain tak heran pun nak attend tu), but being me, I always remind myself to be involved in any events held in the fac.. yes i am such a pekerja contoh sampai any events to be held.. akak jugak yg kena jadi commiteenya.. kekekeke..
my health condition is deteriorating again.. i thot I m done with it, tapi roper2nya.. i just realized i ve been in shortness of breath lately... tried to climb up a flite of stairs.. i felt like collapsing in the middle of students' crowd while in the process..
bila bangun tido pulak.. i feel a tightness in my chest everytime... having 2 sistas as medical doctors only worsened the situation as they scared me off with their "diagnosis". One made me dementedly worried when she tot i might have lung fibrosis due to the adverse effect of mtx and another sis told me that my eyes looked a bit yellowish..that may lead to the liver failure.. might be.. so akak , being a hypochondriac mula la imagine macam2.. ended up me begging for an early appt of my rheumy clinic..
My weekends are fully occupied.. since the previous weeks.. and it will continue till the end of October.. early Nov, I m going to bandung for a conference cum jalan2 trip. with this current condition.. i dun think I can afford to walk more than 200 m in faster paces... last week, while attending the student's convocation, i couldn't even catch up with a person infront of me while parading from the admin building to the hall.. . i was like.. ya allah.. jgn la aku pengsan tgh2 jalan ni...
I am so pathetic kan? To add it up.. I have like tons of works to be done ( which is not suprising anymore)... I think my Hb is dropping off again... tu yg buat akak rasa macam hypoxia all the time...
Seriously, with this condition, I dun think I m able to take care of myself, let alone others.. when i look at my messy house, i feel like hiring a maid to get it all done...
Enuff said... the colleagues are mostly supportive tho..

I'm blessed

baru balik makan nasik ayam dgn one of the colleagues.. ingatkan nak kena tunggu kul 5 baru leh makan.. nasib ada yg psychic kat dept ni kekekek..
Anyways,, akak semakin sehat... yang semestinya akak dah agak sebab kalau dah start kije.. seluruh jiwaraga dan juga otak akak akan bertmabah baik.. in fact kalau beku kejung kat rumah tak buat apa2 tu la yang buleh membuatkan rohani dan jasmani (ewahh) makin tak sehat...
So dah hampir 5 hari balik KL ni, selera akak juga makin menjadi2.. recently lak craving for sandwich bread.. semalam beli roti makan ngan mayonis ayam brand tu rasa macam wahhh ohhhhhh heaven.... esok ingat nak buat sandwich sardin la plak...
almaklumla akak ni kan penggemar roti dan segala jenis makanan bertepung (except for roti canai yang jarang2 la dimakan... )... hasilnya... akak dah naik 400 g dalam masa 5 hari.. tak ke bangga dengan pencapaian akak tu hihihihi
esok ada open house kat rumah adik bungsu akak kat putra height.. ahad kena jaga exam barang 2 jam.. ok la tu.. tugas kena baca thesis yg berlambak2 ni masih tak jalan jugak.. insyaallah.. minggu depan boleh initiate.. walaupun banyak lak event kat fakulti ni minggu depan...
akak cuba untuk mengurangkan rasa marah kat post grad akak yg tak jugak hantar draf ni.. walaupun deadline antar thesis lagi 1 bulan... malas nak stress.. kang ada pulak yg tak leh nak telan air liur lagi kang...
driver dah sampai... nak kena balik dulu..