The day that I lost my temper..

In chronology:
1.i banged the phone
2. emailed the complaint while wailing
3. came back to my senses and listened to a long explanation from someone over the phone
4. Insaf... terus ambik wuduk pi solat hahaha

and no.. it got nothing to do with lover's quarrel. I was actually raging over some stupid rules and some senseless delivery staff who refused to deliver my grocery when the delivery truck was not allowed to go inside.

mintak mahap abang guard yerr...

PEACE NO WAR!! hahaha

Revisited: Mostaganem

In not less than a month, 2014 is going to end... pheww.. ( lap peluh)..
I seriously think that time files very fast lately. Imagine.. I clock in at 8 ish everymorning.. and after a while, it seems like hours and its almost time to go back home... It is either I am the slow person.. as I am not able to read a few pages from the text book or the clock is ticking twice faster than before.. ( clock ticking sound at the back..)

anyway... I am suddenly inspired to write a post.. today as .. it marked the end of my last lecture, safely delivered to the students this morning , for this semester. We still have another 2 weeks before the whole semester ends, and the final exam week starts..

Let see what I have been doing since my previous post. which is in September...
We celebrated Eid ul Adha in early october, and this time the whole family of my brother went back home. We managed to have our 'qurban' at some place close to our vicinity.
and then my sister and family prepared for a short attachment in London. They are supposed to leave in early October, but still they were waiting for the visa approval first. I think it was the second week of October that my sister managed to take the flight along with her 3 kids and the husband. However, the rest of the family's visas have not been approved, and even my sister's working visa for the duration of 6 months was also not approved. Nevertheless, they went there and have to be back after 3 months. Whilst, for my sister she has to return back to complete her 6 months attachment. Well, if she's still there in march, there is a big probability of me visiting her there. Anyway, the rest of the family will be back for good in the end of December

I attended another conference in Algeria in the end of October,  all by myself. Well, this is my 1st time travelling alone after the major things that changed my life in 2011. The insecured feelings are still there, but I realized I have The AlMighty that protects me where ever I go, and with that I knew that I am all prepared to conquer the world to travel all by myself.. again

A long transit at Istanbul.. ( by the way, the current mosque is now bigger than the last one, when I had my isyak ) during my previous to Albania. Since it is still summer in October, so I managed to have my fajr prayer in the new mosque. However, it was a really long hours before I got to catch the connecting flight to Oran. It was almost 1 pm Turkey time when I got to board, and after 4 hours I safely arrived at Oran. Since the conference place was situated at Mostaganem, the same place I went to last March,, which is about an hour drive from Oran, I have decided not to use the same route from the Last March's flight. Oran is another  international airport in Algeria and several international flights especially from Spain and some neighbourhood countries, but still its size is much smaller than our domestic airport.
Anyway, the conference committee have waited for us there, so off we went straight to the hotel.
and this is when all my misery started hahaha.
The hotel... was not as we expected. the apartment seems like an abandoned building with water flooded everytime we take a bath. The worst thing, I was locked in the shower, as I was not able to open the door. Luckily there are people outside whom unlocked it for me. Was not able to get the wifi as well...
Anyway.. I managed to survive for a few days and flew back home. Oh by the way, I was accompanied by a few Turkish Professor and we were actually complaining about the condition of the hotel. To bad, I was not able to go for sightseeing in Oran due to time constraint. I was hoping that there will be excursion after the conference but they cancelled it at the last minute.
Since I have been there before, I did not feel like taking anymore pictures ha ha ha. By the way, most of the people that i met in Tunisia were there... so I have no problem in mingling with them.

Wow,, this entry took a lot more than I thought...
I d better continue next time...
Anyway, these are all the pics ( still have some with my lovely daughters friends from Algeria). The 1st one is the "hotel". The 2nd one is Oran airport and the 3rd one is the pic that I snapped from the car.
Till then..

5 months later..

New semester started a week ago, and even thou I still have another few weeks before my leave ends.. they have appointed me to be the coordinator for SBP4302, and I willingly accepted it..
No harm thou...
Anyway... time flies... in between the last post, Managed to get another new bibik for mom.. lesson learnt thou.. I sent her to my sis for a week before she went back with my father to KB..
Owh by the way, went to Albania for the conference in May with beloved father. managed to visit the kruja castle at skandenberg mountain.. It was a breathtaking view up there, thou there were a few sellers who exhibited their hand made knitted material up there which kinda interfere the ambience.. went to visit the mosque as well, the clock tower at Tirana.. and joined the group to National Park.. which I found out later it was a Ramsa site, and not like our national park which consists of flora and fauna.. and errmm leeches... hikhik
Anyway. we managed to walk for a few miles under the sun... had the hearties lunch of baked fish and salad.. at the restaurant nearby...
Albania is such a beautiful country... the roses they planted there were the biggest I have ever seen, and being the 'jakun' girl, I snapped most of the rosebushes i  saw during the trip there..
By the way, I  was invited for another conference in Algeria, and this time I m hoping that I d be able to visit Oran and have my picture taken at one of the spot that I aimed during my last trip there. Too bad it was raining that time and we did  not bring any umbrella, and some more we were rushing to the airport to catch an afternoon flight to Algiers
Hoping to meet the people whom I met in the conference in Tunisia.
Apart from that... I had a quiet Eid this year.. all the siblings came back... and my big bro has come back for good from Bahrain. My niece and her friend were at my house for 3 months for their practical at MINT.
owh another tragic incident during ramadhan.. MH17.. I wept  a lot during that time and still weeping whenever i read about the passengers's stories in newspaper these days..
Life is too short... we would never know when is our times.. those are the reminders for us then..
okayy.. one more paper to review..

till then

of Maid and...the second chance

Wesak day today... another public holiday for us in Malaysia.. yippeee... I can wake up late then.. not like other working days..
oh well.. I woke up as usual.. at this fossil age :) I dun think i would be able to wake up late. No mater how sleepy you are, after your face was touched by your ablution... you are now as fresh as before you went to sleep. tried to read a few surahs, yet I left my glass at work. without reading glass, I am half blind.. literally
anyway... remember when I said that I would get a maid in my last entry..?
owh well tragedy occured.
That nasty maid robbed me in the broad day light. last monday morning, less than 12 hours after I fetched her from Rawang, I found out that she has a husband here, and then I realized that her main intention was to be with her husband when she came to Malaysia. It's not that she wanted to work as a maid. She refused to take care of kids as they will remind of her kids.. pbhhttt.
on that same night, a few hours after I brought her back, I called the agent demanding for a replacement. and the agent promised me that she will 'collect' the maid the next day.
Little did I know, she has planned to flee of in the morning. I was so careless, I asked her to sweep my bedroom when I was in the kitchen. and when I went to the room, her passport has gone ( it was in my handbag which I put beside the bed). I asked her whether she has taken it, and she admitted. I asked her to return it and she refused. I searched in her bag, but it was not there. I ran back to my room to find out that my hp was also gone!!
then she followed me to my room and threatened me with a knife that she took from the kitchen. She also tried to tie me, and I was so terrified that I yelled at her.. get outta here with your passport. She asked me to take her down and she promised me that she would return my hp when she's out of here. I told her, with my trembling voice that i would unlock the front door and she can go down by herself. but she insisted that I should take her with me to the front gate.. which is like 100 m away from the apartment. I havent taken my shower yet at that time bcos it was like 6ish in the morning. I just put on the abaya and asked her to leave the knife or I wont take her down. It was happened very early in the morning. I still tried to talk some sense into her. I said i wont get my money back if she just fled off and she dare to tell me.. dont worry you ll get refund.. pbhtt.
Even tried to ask where she would go after this and she mentioned something about her friend at Taman Seri Muda. I tried to dig out for the address and she said she cant remember but she knows the place ( well that sounds weird for someone who claimed that this is the first time she came to Malaysia.. hmm).
Anyway to cut the story short.. she returned my hp and made me promise not to call anyone.. she even apologized for all the things happened.. just when she was out of my sight I called the agent and my sis. I wnt out a few mins to look whether she's still at the main gate.. but she's no where to be seen.
I had a viva in the morning so I have to go to work later. Then I found out that she has taken all the cash in my purse. Made a police report in the afternoon.. and I found out that she also took the luggage bag and replaced with her wornout one. I was so dementedly panick that I didnt even realize that she was taking my bag along with her that day.. never mind.. at least I have my all parts of the body in tact lol..
Thank Allah for all these mishap. This only a very minor and unfortunate incident in my life... there are so many things that I am still grateful with because she did not even hurt me ... there are numerous things that might occur...but Allah save me for not implanting any bad idea to her mind at that time..
With tat, I suddenly realized.. HE has given me so many chances but why am I still hesitating to repent.. I have to admit I have been doing so many sins in the past.. so many mistakes.. and each morning to be wake up alive... its all HIS doings.  I feel so small.. and to think that there are so many people who tried to catch up with all good things in life.. I knew that I am so so far behind. i regret, why I did not realize it earlier.. Stop doing things that wont potray you as a Moslem. You can say that You still have time to repent and would do your solat taubah before you reach 40.. for example. I personally think that I am not yet a good muslimah. I am trying... not to talk so many nonensical things anymore. I left the alumni WA group because I think they talked too much about non-benefecial things. I tried not to talk bad about hatred. I just distanced myself with them. I tried to listen to some fruitful discussion before I went to be every nite. I tried to reduce my time WA-ing.... whoot:). I tried to read a lot of some inspirational stories.. about Robert Davila for instance. About Sheikh Yuseff Estes.. etc. I tried to read few surahs everyday.. and "qadhak" my incomplete solats last time. I tried to be a better servant in Allah's eyes. I tried to reduce the dictation by the Angel on my left and increase the one on my right. I know.. it is too late.. but then.. better late than never.
This is a self reminder.. and to everyone who is reading this.. ( ehemm.. :))..
"Allahumma yassir wala tu'assir. Rabbi tammim bilkhoir. Birokhmatikaya Arhamarrohimin." ...
O my Lord make things easier for me, do not make things difficult for me. O my Lord, increase my knowledge and grantme understanding. 
Aamin.

Of flares.. and colic

Hi..
I have been on and off with several kinds of symptoms..2 weeks ago. I experienced ubiquitous colicky pain on my left abdomen. It reminded me of my kidney stone pain several years ago. But the good thing was, in between pain I managed to do the laundry, cooked, ate, watched tv.. and finished a few surahs in the Quran. was not able to sleep the whole nite thou. The pain became worst during the nite. Owh, took 2 voltarens during the pain episodes. It got better at dawn. Had my fajr solat and went back to sleep, and it recurred when i woke up around 11. My sis came in the afternoon and i handed over all the souvenirs for her kids, had lunch @ Grills. I can only eat salads.
The rheumy appt was on Tuesday,and I woke up in the morning feeling another uncomfortable pain at the left side. Managed to be called upn very early ( well, that was quite a shock.. i mean shockingly glad:). described the pain to the rheumy,and he wrote a reference letter to a urologist. might be the infection on the urinary bladder due to the kidney stone, that' what he said. owh well what else is new..
my knee joint flared up last friday. and on that same day,  mom called regarding the maid.. again. she ( the maid) did not want to work anymore and urged us to send her back home. WA ed the agent, and looked like she has already been informed of the maid's prob. Looks like we are not able to retain her anymore, so the next day, we sent her back.
I am now desperately seeking for another helper for mom. been aggressively calling the numbers in ad, enquiring for a legal helper. I am doing this for beloved mom whom is looking for my sis's kids, most of the time, whilst.. the sister is not doing anything (for now) and expect her other siblings to look for another helper( which is supposed to her task, rite).. well am not complaining... but i pity mom whom is at the golden age.. is still looking for her grandkids.. whilst in fact.. she 's not supposed to take care of anyone or doing anything, at her age.. hmmm
what could I say.. some people are born with different perceptions...
In shaa Allah, I ll get some good news tomorrow regarding the helper.

taa..

Her web, not Charlotte's

Hi..
I ve been abandoning my blog for 6 months.. phew.. and what did i miss here? My 2014 so called resolution? The missing MH370?.. my sabbatical leave which started on the 1st January? me being busy with all kinda things? me flared up? me making some new friends? etc etc..
I could write a book with so many things happened to me for the past 6 months.... NOT
Anyway, let's start with what I ve been doing since early January. ...
1.The univ approved my sabbatical leave for 9 months. So I ll be teaching free until 30th September. 
2. Remember the task force? I managed to submit the draft before my long leave to hometown. and then i continued with the task until Mid February, after never ending emails from other team members and the leader.
3. I attended a conference in Tunisia, and gave a presentation in Algeria. been there for 12 days altogether.. and missed the malaysian food more than ever. No more croissant after the trip
4. The joints flared up after coming back.Down with flu and tonsilitis. horrible coughs till my lungs exploded.. literally.
5. Back to hometown for a few days in Early April. am back now.. feeling much better. pheww.. Thank Allah..
6. I hve summarized everything in not more than 300 words..wow.. so kewll..
7. Ok.. be back in October 2014.. by that time I ll have more ideas to rant about the students.. lol
8. Owh by the way, will be going for another short trip to Albania with father in May.
9. I just realized that I forgot to upload any of the conference pics. they are still in my hp.. hundreds of them.. but ... am too lazy..
10. i m tired. taaa