Ok so i feel like updating today...despite my hectic life nowadays..
Of lates, I ve been piled up with lotsa students theses, yang cas last-last minute baru suruh kita baca.. typical for them..
and I m in the sorta disturbed mood... due to an incident which make me sangat la berjauh hati with my good frends..
yes, I m nut supposed to pour this feelin out as I ve actually promised myself.. that no venting out either yr frustration or yr anger in blogs, our wallowing in self pity..(tapi i ve to break my own rules on this one isolated case..)
am not going to narrate it openly tho...
Let me just narrate things that indirectly related with the things that really bothering me now.. basically people may just add 2 into another 2.tho..
Haishh.. how to start arr?
On another note.. tak payah la cerita.. let me keep it inside myself.. till i m humbly back to normal.. Just put my nose inside all those stacks of paperworks on my messy table..
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
Kisah dalam cerita
Kisah 1: Semalam akak punya birthday. Tetiba jek rasa terharu sebab pelbagai umat manusia kat facebook akak post birthday wishes. waaahh... selama ni takder sapa tau birthday akak, ni dah join fb semua org sama-sama celebrate ( la sangat) dengan akak. Iya la kata-kata dan doa tu pun dah cukup menggumbirakan hati akak yang tengah lara ni (cehwahh). My good friend belanja akak makan, lepas tu terus la buat aktiviti sampingan serba sedikit kat JJ equine park. Ada seorang manusia tu lupa birthday akak, tak pe la, lagipun konfrontasi masih lagi diteruskan.
Kisah 2: Hari ini akak meroyan sensorang cari pw dalam bilik untuk isi e-filing. rasanya dah letak ditempat yang selamat, tapi dah terlampau selamat sampai cari balik pun tak jumpa-jumpa. End up, akak terpaksa la call balik dia punya talian hotline. Nak kena simpan dan tampal kat dahi agaknya pas ni. Anyway, akak dah selamat mengisi e-filing dan internet adalah sangat laju sebab tak ramai yang mengisi nya lagi. Tunggu lagi dah dekat2 deadline, alamatnya traffic jam la website lhdn tu.
Kisah 3: takder hehehe.
Kisah 2: Hari ini akak meroyan sensorang cari pw dalam bilik untuk isi e-filing. rasanya dah letak ditempat yang selamat, tapi dah terlampau selamat sampai cari balik pun tak jumpa-jumpa. End up, akak terpaksa la call balik dia punya talian hotline. Nak kena simpan dan tampal kat dahi agaknya pas ni. Anyway, akak dah selamat mengisi e-filing dan internet adalah sangat laju sebab tak ramai yang mengisi nya lagi. Tunggu lagi dah dekat2 deadline, alamatnya traffic jam la website lhdn tu.
Kisah 3: takder hehehe.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Disebabkan pulut santan binasa...
Pagi tadi mood akak masih elok sehinggalah, ada manusia durjana yang tengah elok2 minum teh tepi akak menegur akak dengan cara yang sangat kurang sedap ditelinga akak. Akak yang tengah membaca ruangan hiburan kat harian metro masa tu, sebenarnya tengah duk baca mengenai budak2 yang layak ke AF8 tahun ni. I mean,salah ke akak membaca nya, bukannya masa tu akak ada menggossip atau mengumpat pasal dia orang. Akak hanya membaca dengan senyap dari paragraf awal hinnga ke akhir., sambil2 tengok jam, sempat ke lagi akak masuk kerja pukul 8.
Tiba-tiba ada lah seorang manusia tu yang terus jek menyeru lantang depan akak " You baca ruangan hiburan tu, takder faedah langsung, those are all bull shits" sambil bersuara dengan sombongnya.
Tahu tak apa perasaan akak ketika dan saat itu. Sangat SENTAP ok....S.E.N.T.A.P!
Akka cuba nak menyambung semula pembacaan akak tapi 'mood' akak dah hilang. Terngiang-ngiang ditelinga akak, kata-kata manusia tersebut yang berbaur sombong semacam. I mean, kalau ye pun nak tegor, boleh tak cakap elok-elok, contohnya.. " dah-dah le baca pasal AF tu'.. takpayah le sambung dengan "tak berfaedah langsung u baca tu"!
Akak baca fakta ok.. bukan ruangan gossip, bukannya akak tengok pun konsert AF tu, tapi apa salahnya akak baca sapa budaak2 yang terpilih tu, mana asal doa, apa pendidikan dia, apa hobi dia.. salah ke? SALAH ke?
Terus akak tutup paper tu sedikit kasar tapi takder la sampai hentak meja as he claimed. Kalau betul2 akak hentak meja, dah lama meja tu terpelanting. Akak bukannya ada kudrat sangat nak hentak2 benda- benda nih.
So terus la akak membisu seribu bahsa sampai ke fakulti. tisu yang akak pegang kat tangan dah akak robek2, carik-carik sampai hancur. Ikutkan nafsu amarah dah akak campak je kat muka dia.
Selalunya kalau hati akak tengah kacau macam tu, ada jek bahu yang akak boleh pinjam, tapi hari ni, sangat sibuk nak marking paper la, students datang jumpa la, macam-macam la sampai akak takder masa nak meluahkan perasaan amarah akak tu.
Banyak benda yang akak rasa boleh tempelak kat 'penegur' tu tapi akak simpan jek dalam hati. Cuma mata jek la berair sepanjang perjalanan tu.
Manusia tu kata akak takboleh terima nasihat orang, tak boleh terima teguran org lain. Itu pun akak tak menjawab. Sebab akak tau kalau akak jawab, akan lain pula jadinya nanti.
Cuma akak pikir, kalau baca ruangan hiburan yang seminngu sekali pun susah tu tak berfaedah.. jadi.. hisap rokok yang dah tentu menghitamkan peparu tu, sampai 4-5 kali sehari tu. berfaedah ke?
Akak boleh teriuma teguran orang tapi kalau nak tegur tu, cermin dulu diri sendiri.. jangan suka hati sahaja sebut "tak berfaedah; kalau diri sendiri pun tak mampu nak quit buat keja yang tak berfaedah...
kan?
sampai la saat ni.. akak masih sentap, dan jangan harap akak nakmintak maaf sebab akak tak rasa akak bersalah. Akak tak hentak pun meja.. dan bukan akak yang cari gaduh. Akak juga tak makan pulut dan akak tak rasa santan yang ditanak dengan pulut tu santan yang masih elok. Santan basi kot...
Sekian.
Tiba-tiba ada lah seorang manusia tu yang terus jek menyeru lantang depan akak " You baca ruangan hiburan tu, takder faedah langsung, those are all bull shits" sambil bersuara dengan sombongnya.
Tahu tak apa perasaan akak ketika dan saat itu. Sangat SENTAP ok....S.E.N.T.A.P!
Akka cuba nak menyambung semula pembacaan akak tapi 'mood' akak dah hilang. Terngiang-ngiang ditelinga akak, kata-kata manusia tersebut yang berbaur sombong semacam. I mean, kalau ye pun nak tegor, boleh tak cakap elok-elok, contohnya.. " dah-dah le baca pasal AF tu'.. takpayah le sambung dengan "tak berfaedah langsung u baca tu"!
Akak baca fakta ok.. bukan ruangan gossip, bukannya akak tengok pun konsert AF tu, tapi apa salahnya akak baca sapa budaak2 yang terpilih tu, mana asal doa, apa pendidikan dia, apa hobi dia.. salah ke? SALAH ke?
Terus akak tutup paper tu sedikit kasar tapi takder la sampai hentak meja as he claimed. Kalau betul2 akak hentak meja, dah lama meja tu terpelanting. Akak bukannya ada kudrat sangat nak hentak2 benda- benda nih.
So terus la akak membisu seribu bahsa sampai ke fakulti. tisu yang akak pegang kat tangan dah akak robek2, carik-carik sampai hancur. Ikutkan nafsu amarah dah akak campak je kat muka dia.
Selalunya kalau hati akak tengah kacau macam tu, ada jek bahu yang akak boleh pinjam, tapi hari ni, sangat sibuk nak marking paper la, students datang jumpa la, macam-macam la sampai akak takder masa nak meluahkan perasaan amarah akak tu.
Banyak benda yang akak rasa boleh tempelak kat 'penegur' tu tapi akak simpan jek dalam hati. Cuma mata jek la berair sepanjang perjalanan tu.
Manusia tu kata akak takboleh terima nasihat orang, tak boleh terima teguran org lain. Itu pun akak tak menjawab. Sebab akak tau kalau akak jawab, akan lain pula jadinya nanti.
Cuma akak pikir, kalau baca ruangan hiburan yang seminngu sekali pun susah tu tak berfaedah.. jadi.. hisap rokok yang dah tentu menghitamkan peparu tu, sampai 4-5 kali sehari tu. berfaedah ke?
Akak boleh teriuma teguran orang tapi kalau nak tegur tu, cermin dulu diri sendiri.. jangan suka hati sahaja sebut "tak berfaedah; kalau diri sendiri pun tak mampu nak quit buat keja yang tak berfaedah...
kan?
sampai la saat ni.. akak masih sentap, dan jangan harap akak nakmintak maaf sebab akak tak rasa akak bersalah. Akak tak hentak pun meja.. dan bukan akak yang cari gaduh. Akak juga tak makan pulut dan akak tak rasa santan yang ditanak dengan pulut tu santan yang masih elok. Santan basi kot...
Sekian.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Haruan Goreng Berlada
Hari ini akak adalah kempunan. Tak dapat jamah sup haruan dan haruan goreng berlada, lepas syarahan inaugural one of the professor kat dept akak, Akak terpaksa rush ke MATTA fair ( la kunun) untuk mencari tiket ke suatu tempat. hasilnya.. nan adoo. Takder matta fare, normal fare jek ada, baik akak beli online jek cam tu. So inilah yang dinamakan.. yang dikejar tak dapat.. yang dikendong berciciran.. Udah le kat PWTC tu punya la ramai, byk travel agencies yang mengamalkan diskriminasi.. akak dukla tercangak kat kaunter punya la lama, takdernya nak dilayan... ikut hati nak jek buat aduan kat tourism malaysia kat situ gakk..
Akhirnya akak pun balik dengan penuh rasa keciwa.. sebab last matta fair, akak sempat la beli tiket ke kyoto yang hanya separuh harga daripada tiket yang dibeli online. Nampaknya plan akak kurang menjadik tahun ini.
Esok ada simposium lagi kat fakulti untuk 2 hari. The father n the sister are in town. Tak tahu la sempat nak jumpa atau tak sebelum dia org berlepas balik KB semula.
Akak merasakan sungguh bizi sampai tak sempat nak mop lantai rumah minggu ini.
Okeh la. akak nak pi beli tiket online jek la sat gi.
Taaaa...
Akhirnya akak pun balik dengan penuh rasa keciwa.. sebab last matta fair, akak sempat la beli tiket ke kyoto yang hanya separuh harga daripada tiket yang dibeli online. Nampaknya plan akak kurang menjadik tahun ini.
Esok ada simposium lagi kat fakulti untuk 2 hari. The father n the sister are in town. Tak tahu la sempat nak jumpa atau tak sebelum dia org berlepas balik KB semula.
Akak merasakan sungguh bizi sampai tak sempat nak mop lantai rumah minggu ini.
Okeh la. akak nak pi beli tiket online jek la sat gi.
Taaaa...
Saturday, March 06, 2010
What I did last week..
Watched 2 movies in a row.. (walaupun duk complain kije berlambak2.. sampai kena took a break masa tgh2 buat kije.. dengan menge-call sapa2 yang jadi masa untuk me-release kan tension ( eeee.. bahasa akak ni makin terukk)...
tapi tetapp sempat tengok wayang.. berdesup kuar time lunch pas tu sambung balik kije pas abis.. balik kije tetap kul 5... ( well i really have an excellent focus..)
the outcome.. Niyang rapik... story plot lompat sana sini... disebabkan nak masukkan elemen suspen tu.. the director was so eager to include watever scenes without thinking of its continuity.. the motives for each scene was not relevantly supported... well no offence to the director cum producer...
Valentine's day... much better compared to the former mentioned.. even tho it consists of many stories, we can still the connection between each of em. it even has the moral of the story.. It was smoothly narrated..
and this weekend, i am still struggling with the final exam questions.. Next weekend gonna be a hectic one.. marking lagik.. bla bla bla..
owh well.. life is like that I guess..
tapi tetapp sempat tengok wayang.. berdesup kuar time lunch pas tu sambung balik kije pas abis.. balik kije tetap kul 5... ( well i really have an excellent focus..)
the outcome.. Niyang rapik... story plot lompat sana sini... disebabkan nak masukkan elemen suspen tu.. the director was so eager to include watever scenes without thinking of its continuity.. the motives for each scene was not relevantly supported... well no offence to the director cum producer...
Valentine's day... much better compared to the former mentioned.. even tho it consists of many stories, we can still the connection between each of em. it even has the moral of the story.. It was smoothly narrated..
and this weekend, i am still struggling with the final exam questions.. Next weekend gonna be a hectic one.. marking lagik.. bla bla bla..
owh well.. life is like that I guess..
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
shoohhhh go away..
Am having straight lectures from 2 till 7 pm today, hence tis updating.. sebab akak dah sangat mengantuk ni due to the mounds of food that i ve just eaten during lunch ( jamuan , courtesy from a few colleagues). of lates, there are too many tasks queueing up, semuanya nak kena buat at one shot.. tak ke haru tu..
anyway tis is the life i chose.. kang takder kije sangat kan complain jugak.. goyang kaki lama sangat pun bo-sssssan jugak.. manusia ni memang tak pernah bersyukur.. (tetiba..)
anyway, akak nak mula mengatur langkah ke lecture hall yg dekat basement tu hahaha.. nak lalu pun ala2 going thru tunnel dulu...
owh well.. just a short update to overcome my so-called 'narcolepsy'...hopefully the students wont catch the same syndrome.. "dream on" lol
till then...
anyway tis is the life i chose.. kang takder kije sangat kan complain jugak.. goyang kaki lama sangat pun bo-sssssan jugak.. manusia ni memang tak pernah bersyukur.. (tetiba..)
anyway, akak nak mula mengatur langkah ke lecture hall yg dekat basement tu hahaha.. nak lalu pun ala2 going thru tunnel dulu...
owh well.. just a short update to overcome my so-called 'narcolepsy'...hopefully the students wont catch the same syndrome.. "dream on" lol
till then...
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Of expenses and not being selfish..
weekend is back to normal. Akak with usual routine. Bangun pagi, bfast ala kadar, sapu rumah ( kalau rajin), mop rumah ( kalau kotor sangat) and bukak sliding door luas2 whlle swinging myself to sleep ( usually i wont la, sebab akak kan mana suka tido siang, kunun.. ). Pas tu kalau lapar, I will make myself simplest lunch using watever ingredients that i d already have at home.
However, while thinking of the last week's chaotic event, akak terasa la akak ni sangat SELFISH because I was like, feeling so relieved to conduct a normal life again tis weekend.
So adakah akak ni memang mementingkan diri sendiri? due to the [normal' life that i ve been leading for 40 years? Seriously, once u r so used of living alone, any abrupt interval will be such a nuisance to me.. ( tapi mengapakah akak rasa akak sangat SELFISH?)
Seriously, I m not proud of myself. Ropernya bukan senang nak berlaku ikhlas in watever things we do. There'd always be a tiny voice in my mind who'd be questioning whether I have done it rite, or its just a waste of money and time for me to do any god deeeds. sangat paranoia ok.. Itu lah.. selalu jek ada bisikan syaitan bila kita nak berbuat amal kan?
Anyway on the other hand, its very easy to just spend your money over unnecessary things ( but on 2nd tot someone has to convince me that it is essential to me).. However I m still contemplating over it till it'd be too late and tengok2 i ve actually spent the money over 'things' boley
So, since nasik dah jadik bubur, I d try to make it fruitful of wat i ve spent.. and yeah.. probbaly I d get to see the effect after let see... the soonest in 3 months time..?
But for the time being, probably i need to cut down my food intake ( yeah rite.. ) and try not to shop too much.. (ok.. no more new blouses and new pants for the next 3 months lol)
However, while thinking of the last week's chaotic event, akak terasa la akak ni sangat SELFISH because I was like, feeling so relieved to conduct a normal life again tis weekend.
So adakah akak ni memang mementingkan diri sendiri? due to the [normal' life that i ve been leading for 40 years? Seriously, once u r so used of living alone, any abrupt interval will be such a nuisance to me.. ( tapi mengapakah akak rasa akak sangat SELFISH?)
Seriously, I m not proud of myself. Ropernya bukan senang nak berlaku ikhlas in watever things we do. There'd always be a tiny voice in my mind who'd be questioning whether I have done it rite, or its just a waste of money and time for me to do any god deeeds. sangat paranoia ok.. Itu lah.. selalu jek ada bisikan syaitan bila kita nak berbuat amal kan?
Anyway on the other hand, its very easy to just spend your money over unnecessary things ( but on 2nd tot someone has to convince me that it is essential to me).. However I m still contemplating over it till it'd be too late and tengok2 i ve actually spent the money over 'things' boley
So, since nasik dah jadik bubur, I d try to make it fruitful of wat i ve spent.. and yeah.. probbaly I d get to see the effect after let see... the soonest in 3 months time..?
But for the time being, probably i need to cut down my food intake ( yeah rite.. ) and try not to shop too much.. (ok.. no more new blouses and new pants for the next 3 months lol)
Monday, February 15, 2010
Kalau sapu lantai rumah sampai 10 kali sehari adakah maksudnya akak mengalami simtom2 OCD?
Seriously, akak menjadi sangat rajin mengupadate 2-3 hari ni memandangkan aktiviti akak yang biasa di hari cuti iaitu tido terbongkang di atas sofa sambil tengok tv tidak dapat dilaksanakan berikutan kehadiran tetamu2 kecil kat rumah akak ni. Arakiannya terpaksa la akak mencari hobiain untuk mengisi masa cuti selama 4 hari ini dengan mencari pepenjuru dinding dan membuka laptop sambil mem-bloghopping, walaupun sumpah, aktiviti begini adalah paling tidak digemari tatkala cuti panjang. Akak rela melepak disofa kecik yang hanya boleh memuatkan 2 orang kanak2 sahaja sambil menonton back to back episode siri CSI. Tapi minggu ini akak terpaksa mengorbankan sofa kecik kesayangan akak itu utk orang yang lebih memerlukan huhuhu. (tapi akak rasa cam cuak jek sebab budak2 cam manjang tengok tv jek, ye lah,, anak orang, nak akak tego2 kan.. majuk nak balik rumah anak2 yatim lak kan)... ishhh sesungguhnya akak adalah amatur di dalam bab2 cam ni tau..
Hari Sabtu, akak berjaya goreng mee hoon untuk lunch, dan rasanya menjadi kegemaran ramai kot sebab akak bagi dorang makan sampai malam hahaha ( tak senonoh tul). Lpeas tu pagi semalam akak goreng segala frozen food yang ada dalam fridge, pas tu bfast makan roti dan butter jek.. tengahari akak pegi tesco carikan baju barang 1-2 helai untuk budak2. Seriously, akak nengok dorang ni pakai baju cam tangkap muat jek. Baju kurung yang boleh isi seoranmg budak lagi..Yang herannya tak nampak pun dorang letak panties dalam bakul baju kotor tu...Akak sangat musykil jugak tu.. adakah diaoramg pakai panties yang sama berhari2? ( eeuuww tak sanggup akak nak tanya).. so kesudahanya, akak belikan panties, baju tidur, baju jalan dan sandals untuk diaorang. pagi tadi kitaorang turun bawah bfast kat kedai mamak, dah bergaya sakan la dorang dengan baju yg dibeli semalam tapi yg tak berapa sedap mata memandangnya, dorang still pakai tudung yang dah al-ala telekung sembahyang gayanya. Nak tego, karang takut kecik hati pulak... ( bukannya akak ni nak cakap akak ni orang bandar, pandai bergaya, tapi zaman akak muda remaja dulu, kalau akak tak berapa pandai berpesyen, nak mix n match ni.. ada jek la yang tolong tego kan cakap pakai cam ni tak seswai. ) Ala mak akak dulu memang cukup trendy per.. dia la yang menjadi penasihat fesyen utk akak cewahhhh hahaha.
Itu lah.. susah juga nak menego anak orang ni ghoopernyaaa yob..
Entah la.. adik akak dah tepon katernya nak ngambik akak dan anak2 pi rumah dia. Kita org nak bbq tengah hari ni.. biasa la sambut tahun baru cina hehehe.
By the way, 2-3 hari ni akak feeling2 cam mak2 org , iya lah.. selalunya akak basuh baju seminggu sekali jek, nih hari2 duk mesin baju.. sapu lantai pun 10 kali sehari.. ala budak2.. sikit2 suka beno nak makan kuaci pastu buat sampah kat lantai.. akak nak tego karang.. takut kecik hati ( eeee manjang akak ni nak kena pikir cam ni).. so selang 1/2 jam la akak duk mop lantai dapur, sapu lantai kat hall.. cam dah OCD plak rasanya.. hahahah (kalau tak mak akak ni.. nesti dia bangga, anak dia dah jadi pembersih cam dia hahahah)
Akak taktau la perassan depa ni camna.. iya lah.. entah2 sekali ni jek diaorang nak datang sini.. serik dah pas ni hahahaa.. tapi yang akak sukerrr sangat ngan budak2 ni.. masuk waktu jek terus solat tak payah nak menjerit2 nak suruh dorang solat.. Alhamduliilah bab2 ni tak perlu nak ajar.. dorang dah ajar yg elok2 kat rumah anak2 yatim tu..( anak buah akak kalau bab2 solat ni memang selalu buat tak ingat.. nak rotan pun.. mak bapak dia sendiri pun tak wat cam tu..)
Kadang0kadang terdetik jugak di hati akak yang selfish ni... rasa macam " ishh dah 40 tahun hiduo sorang, ada budak2 ni cam menyusahkan la.. " heeee trak senonoh tau hati jhat akak nih.. Tapi itu la.. akak kan dah berazam, tahun ni, resolusi akak adalah memperbanyakkan amaln dan mengurangkan pembaziran. ( iyalah.. selalu akak shopping bagak utk diri sendiri pas tu akak rasa menyesal sebab membazir..) tapi akak belanja utk dorang semalam, alhamdulliah akak tak rasa cam tu...Tengok keaddan rumah dorang yang terpaksa berhimpit2 untuk tidur, dengan kemudahan yang ala kadar tu.. akak rasa insaf. Akak cakap kat anak buah.. camna ye.. kalau kita masa kecik2 dulu terpaksa duk cam ni.. mesti asyik memberontak jek.. semua kena kongsi.. Iya lah.. akak ni pun ramai adik beradik, akak kan anak ke 5 dari 7 org adik beradik, maaa kecik2 dulu pun kena kongsi jugak.. tapi takle sampai kena share sampai 30 orang sekali. Dengan ruang yang sempit lagik.. Ada 3 orang adik beradik ni, semua lelaki ( yang paling kecik 4 tahun)dihanyar ke RAAY sg Manggis tu daripada Jabatan Kebajikan. Bapak diorang asyik duk bagi anak2 kat orang pas tu mintak duit Eventually jadi kes polis, dan budak2 tu pun.. dah serik , Dorang takut nak jumpa orang, takut orang akan ambik dia cam dulu2..Bila ramai orang datang melawat , terus masuk rumah sembunyi.. Kesiankan.. baru 4 tahun tapi dah trauma cam tu...
Akak nak kena pegi dulu.. Esok budak2 dah nak balik... lepas ni rumah akak sunyi balik.. Siri akak bercakap dengan dinding akan disambung balik hahaha...
Hari Sabtu, akak berjaya goreng mee hoon untuk lunch, dan rasanya menjadi kegemaran ramai kot sebab akak bagi dorang makan sampai malam hahaha ( tak senonoh tul). Lpeas tu pagi semalam akak goreng segala frozen food yang ada dalam fridge, pas tu bfast makan roti dan butter jek.. tengahari akak pegi tesco carikan baju barang 1-2 helai untuk budak2. Seriously, akak nengok dorang ni pakai baju cam tangkap muat jek. Baju kurung yang boleh isi seoranmg budak lagi..Yang herannya tak nampak pun dorang letak panties dalam bakul baju kotor tu...Akak sangat musykil jugak tu.. adakah diaoramg pakai panties yang sama berhari2? ( eeuuww tak sanggup akak nak tanya).. so kesudahanya, akak belikan panties, baju tidur, baju jalan dan sandals untuk diaorang. pagi tadi kitaorang turun bawah bfast kat kedai mamak, dah bergaya sakan la dorang dengan baju yg dibeli semalam tapi yg tak berapa sedap mata memandangnya, dorang still pakai tudung yang dah al-ala telekung sembahyang gayanya. Nak tego, karang takut kecik hati pulak... ( bukannya akak ni nak cakap akak ni orang bandar, pandai bergaya, tapi zaman akak muda remaja dulu, kalau akak tak berapa pandai berpesyen, nak mix n match ni.. ada jek la yang tolong tego kan cakap pakai cam ni tak seswai. ) Ala mak akak dulu memang cukup trendy per.. dia la yang menjadi penasihat fesyen utk akak cewahhhh hahaha.
Itu lah.. susah juga nak menego anak orang ni ghoopernyaaa yob..
Entah la.. adik akak dah tepon katernya nak ngambik akak dan anak2 pi rumah dia. Kita org nak bbq tengah hari ni.. biasa la sambut tahun baru cina hehehe.
By the way, 2-3 hari ni akak feeling2 cam mak2 org , iya lah.. selalunya akak basuh baju seminggu sekali jek, nih hari2 duk mesin baju.. sapu lantai pun 10 kali sehari.. ala budak2.. sikit2 suka beno nak makan kuaci pastu buat sampah kat lantai.. akak nak tego karang.. takut kecik hati ( eeee manjang akak ni nak kena pikir cam ni).. so selang 1/2 jam la akak duk mop lantai dapur, sapu lantai kat hall.. cam dah OCD plak rasanya.. hahahah (kalau tak mak akak ni.. nesti dia bangga, anak dia dah jadi pembersih cam dia hahahah)
Akak taktau la perassan depa ni camna.. iya lah.. entah2 sekali ni jek diaorang nak datang sini.. serik dah pas ni hahahaa.. tapi yang akak sukerrr sangat ngan budak2 ni.. masuk waktu jek terus solat tak payah nak menjerit2 nak suruh dorang solat.. Alhamduliilah bab2 ni tak perlu nak ajar.. dorang dah ajar yg elok2 kat rumah anak2 yatim tu..( anak buah akak kalau bab2 solat ni memang selalu buat tak ingat.. nak rotan pun.. mak bapak dia sendiri pun tak wat cam tu..)
Kadang0kadang terdetik jugak di hati akak yang selfish ni... rasa macam " ishh dah 40 tahun hiduo sorang, ada budak2 ni cam menyusahkan la.. " heeee trak senonoh tau hati jhat akak nih.. Tapi itu la.. akak kan dah berazam, tahun ni, resolusi akak adalah memperbanyakkan amaln dan mengurangkan pembaziran. ( iyalah.. selalu akak shopping bagak utk diri sendiri pas tu akak rasa menyesal sebab membazir..) tapi akak belanja utk dorang semalam, alhamdulliah akak tak rasa cam tu...Tengok keaddan rumah dorang yang terpaksa berhimpit2 untuk tidur, dengan kemudahan yang ala kadar tu.. akak rasa insaf. Akak cakap kat anak buah.. camna ye.. kalau kita masa kecik2 dulu terpaksa duk cam ni.. mesti asyik memberontak jek.. semua kena kongsi.. Iya lah.. akak ni pun ramai adik beradik, akak kan anak ke 5 dari 7 org adik beradik, maaa kecik2 dulu pun kena kongsi jugak.. tapi takle sampai kena share sampai 30 orang sekali. Dengan ruang yang sempit lagik.. Ada 3 orang adik beradik ni, semua lelaki ( yang paling kecik 4 tahun)dihanyar ke RAAY sg Manggis tu daripada Jabatan Kebajikan. Bapak diorang asyik duk bagi anak2 kat orang pas tu mintak duit Eventually jadi kes polis, dan budak2 tu pun.. dah serik , Dorang takut nak jumpa orang, takut orang akan ambik dia cam dulu2..Bila ramai orang datang melawat , terus masuk rumah sembunyi.. Kesiankan.. baru 4 tahun tapi dah trauma cam tu...
Akak nak kena pegi dulu.. Esok budak2 dah nak balik... lepas ni rumah akak sunyi balik.. Siri akak bercakap dengan dinding akan disambung balik hahaha...
Saturday, February 13, 2010
2 orphans and a niece
Yes, I am not home alone today, there are 3 guests today, 3 girls yang kesemuanya masih duk terbongkang tak bangun2 lagi whilst me, the efficient lady ( ewahh!) has been awake since 7 am, took a bath, washing all my clothes while watching sonata labu labi 3 in astro... hahaha
I m feeling so uneasy tho, as I ve been so alone all the time.. i do wat i want to do, and today , i have 2 guests who only muttered a few words to me since last nite and a niece (tats an exception as she has known me since she was a baby)
I am not sure whether wat I did yesterday was rite, I mean.. its not easy to develop some kind of motherly love after an hour's conversation rite.. and I m not that ... u know... very motherly in person.. ( exception again to all the dozens of nieces n nephews of mine)..
I cant even suggest them to call me ibu.. ( hahah tat's wat i have in mind).. I mean do i have a right to ask them to call me that, and ishhh. im having problem to befriend 2 kids with the age range of 9-15. I mean.... i m not going to ask them to stay wth me forever kan.. and its even difficult to invite the youngest sister to come and stay with me for 4 days... well she was ok for the first few minutes and later on she started shaking her head.. do i look like a terrible person whom can scare the kid... ( where the hell is the psychoanalyst when i most need em la?)..
and why the hell i feel so unsecured in a sudden? I do not have to make any effort to make them like me rite,, I shud be as wat I am before.. dont have to impress anyone rite.. (wahhhh i m a very confused lady today hahahah)
I mean hello akakkkk.. they r only kids... why do u have to be so worried... (but yeah I am dementedly worried.. as I have no experience with any kids before.. I dun have a kid on my own.. neither motherly instinct...).
What if they dont like me and start comparing wth the guardian from the orphanage... and why suddenyly i feel some responsibiliies has been thrown onto my shoulder where as all these while i live for myself.. never thot of anybody else.. is that a good thing or wat?....huwaaaaaaa..
this is very new to me la.. and for God sake akakkkkk.. this is only a temporary.. u r not gonna see then next week.. and probably u d get to me them in another few months... ( wahh I m feeling so cruel la pulak)...Sapa suruh ko gatai nak berangkat- angkat kan? huhuhuhu
Gila kentang punya orang hahahaha.. ( akak la tu...)
ok la.. I m trying my best to adapt to this situation.. will do my best... )even tho i m suck in cooking).. so dorang akan makan kat luar jek la hahahah..
wokeh.... poi sidai kain dulu... will update later about them..
now am gonna be a good 'mom' and wake them up.. ( uishh kalau anak akak sendiri.. dah lama dah membebel ni..)..
see.. there're hindrances that prevent me from acting like a real mom.. cos I m not sure whether they like it or not if i act like one...
waaaahhh payahhhh nyaaaa...
pergi makan nasik lemak dulu la.. kot2 dapat idea... hahahha
I m feeling so uneasy tho, as I ve been so alone all the time.. i do wat i want to do, and today , i have 2 guests who only muttered a few words to me since last nite and a niece (tats an exception as she has known me since she was a baby)
I am not sure whether wat I did yesterday was rite, I mean.. its not easy to develop some kind of motherly love after an hour's conversation rite.. and I m not that ... u know... very motherly in person.. ( exception again to all the dozens of nieces n nephews of mine)..
I cant even suggest them to call me ibu.. ( hahah tat's wat i have in mind).. I mean do i have a right to ask them to call me that, and ishhh. im having problem to befriend 2 kids with the age range of 9-15. I mean.... i m not going to ask them to stay wth me forever kan.. and its even difficult to invite the youngest sister to come and stay with me for 4 days... well she was ok for the first few minutes and later on she started shaking her head.. do i look like a terrible person whom can scare the kid... ( where the hell is the psychoanalyst when i most need em la?)..
and why the hell i feel so unsecured in a sudden? I do not have to make any effort to make them like me rite,, I shud be as wat I am before.. dont have to impress anyone rite.. (wahhhh i m a very confused lady today hahahah)
I mean hello akakkkk.. they r only kids... why do u have to be so worried... (but yeah I am dementedly worried.. as I have no experience with any kids before.. I dun have a kid on my own.. neither motherly instinct...).
What if they dont like me and start comparing wth the guardian from the orphanage... and why suddenyly i feel some responsibiliies has been thrown onto my shoulder where as all these while i live for myself.. never thot of anybody else.. is that a good thing or wat?....huwaaaaaaa..
this is very new to me la.. and for God sake akakkkkk.. this is only a temporary.. u r not gonna see then next week.. and probably u d get to me them in another few months... ( wahh I m feeling so cruel la pulak)...Sapa suruh ko gatai nak berangkat- angkat kan? huhuhuhu
Gila kentang punya orang hahahaha.. ( akak la tu...)
ok la.. I m trying my best to adapt to this situation.. will do my best... )even tho i m suck in cooking).. so dorang akan makan kat luar jek la hahahah..
wokeh.... poi sidai kain dulu... will update later about them..
now am gonna be a good 'mom' and wake them up.. ( uishh kalau anak akak sendiri.. dah lama dah membebel ni..)..
see.. there're hindrances that prevent me from acting like a real mom.. cos I m not sure whether they like it or not if i act like one...
waaaahhh payahhhh nyaaaa...
pergi makan nasik lemak dulu la.. kot2 dapat idea... hahahha
Friday, February 12, 2010
Belok berlengkar...
I have a 'ttm' who will always criticize of whatever term that i use in my daily conversation, especialy when i communicate with him. For eg: me: jam giilerr hari ni., kenapa ek? Him: can you please try not to use 'giler' in your conversation.. me: tampo kang bersepai karang ( dalam hati jekkkk)..
seriously, as I can be easily influence with all the terms that they include in their blogwritings, for instance, i'd somehow, will not purposely include em in my conversation.. as if im trying to expand my vocab ( la konon)..
some other words ie tak boleh blahh . ( which i do not specifically understand wat i means )or something sounds like sungguh hampehh..
I have no problem with people using those 'in' terms.. however i have him who will try to grammatically correct my so called language.. ( sangat geram di situ.. )
There was one situation, he even criticized this one radio ad. regarding faizal tahir's statement..cannot totally remmebr waht he said.. but this fella did mention something like this "Walaupun saya menyanyikan lagu rock dan berjiwa rock, tapi saya masih suka lagu tangkap lelehhh.." which brought some kind of anger to him when he listened to the dialogue.. and there he went with " apa tangkap leleh.. ada ke maksud tangkap leleh tu dalam kamus DBP bla bla bla"
Ihave to admit, I m not good in writing a proper malay.. i tend to combine watever terms that i read in a blog.. ( i have to say there's not many blog who practise proper malay writing... most of them wrote the cacamarba words in it ( like me)..
On other note, I had a tiff with him again this morning, when i gave him a direction to go to UPm while passing by the PKNS Complex.. " sampai depan sana traffic light, u belok kanan".. yes, I said belok, which is a common word for me, and i m 110% sure you can find it in any Malay-english dictionary..
But he say it was weird to hear someone said 'belok",while adding that the last time he heard the word, it was like more than 10 years ago, when he had a conversation with a Singaporean malay.
and I said belok is totally a malay word no matter what region we r from..
and then he asked, why don't u say pusing instead.. so I ansered, no pusing is only when u ask a person to pusing like a 180 degree nya action of moving.. but belok is like u do an action by turning 90 degree.. boley?
see.. i ve related it wth some mathematical or more like geographical lattitude or longitude...
still he was not satified.. he kept asking why.. andthere i was throwing him an acrid remarks.. 'that is because you dont have that many friends that u can converse with" U do not give direction to others instead u drive sendiri ikut kepala u which eventually resulted of u sesat bagak... " luckily he forgot to fuss about my bagak term heheh
i wish i can initiate another fury.. by saying gila kentang la u ni... serve him rite kan... lol
anyway.. happy holiday... and yes, I d be hibernating at home for 4 days... am fetching a niece at banting in an hour and probably take a short visit to an orphanage at sungai manggis later on..
GONG XI Fa Cai....
seriously, as I can be easily influence with all the terms that they include in their blogwritings, for instance, i'd somehow, will not purposely include em in my conversation.. as if im trying to expand my vocab ( la konon)..
some other words ie tak boleh blahh . ( which i do not specifically understand wat i means )or something sounds like sungguh hampehh..
I have no problem with people using those 'in' terms.. however i have him who will try to grammatically correct my so called language.. ( sangat geram di situ.. )
There was one situation, he even criticized this one radio ad. regarding faizal tahir's statement..cannot totally remmebr waht he said.. but this fella did mention something like this "Walaupun saya menyanyikan lagu rock dan berjiwa rock, tapi saya masih suka lagu tangkap lelehhh.." which brought some kind of anger to him when he listened to the dialogue.. and there he went with " apa tangkap leleh.. ada ke maksud tangkap leleh tu dalam kamus DBP bla bla bla"
Ihave to admit, I m not good in writing a proper malay.. i tend to combine watever terms that i read in a blog.. ( i have to say there's not many blog who practise proper malay writing... most of them wrote the cacamarba words in it ( like me)..
On other note, I had a tiff with him again this morning, when i gave him a direction to go to UPm while passing by the PKNS Complex.. " sampai depan sana traffic light, u belok kanan".. yes, I said belok, which is a common word for me, and i m 110% sure you can find it in any Malay-english dictionary..
But he say it was weird to hear someone said 'belok",while adding that the last time he heard the word, it was like more than 10 years ago, when he had a conversation with a Singaporean malay.
and I said belok is totally a malay word no matter what region we r from..
and then he asked, why don't u say pusing instead.. so I ansered, no pusing is only when u ask a person to pusing like a 180 degree nya action of moving.. but belok is like u do an action by turning 90 degree.. boley?
see.. i ve related it wth some mathematical or more like geographical lattitude or longitude...
still he was not satified.. he kept asking why.. andthere i was throwing him an acrid remarks.. 'that is because you dont have that many friends that u can converse with" U do not give direction to others instead u drive sendiri ikut kepala u which eventually resulted of u sesat bagak... " luckily he forgot to fuss about my bagak term heheh
i wish i can initiate another fury.. by saying gila kentang la u ni... serve him rite kan... lol
anyway.. happy holiday... and yes, I d be hibernating at home for 4 days... am fetching a niece at banting in an hour and probably take a short visit to an orphanage at sungai manggis later on..
GONG XI Fa Cai....
Saturday, February 06, 2010
Tak perlu tajuk.. buat semak je
Hari ini hari Sabtu bersamaan 6 hb Februari 2010. Dan akak rasa cam nak ber-entry la plak hari ni, besides all the laziness and the tots of how much time u spent writing an entry. More than an hour ok.. walaupun untuk entry yang ciput.. serious.. tat's why akak pikir 2-3 kali kalau nak post entry kat opis.. as I feel like I can do other better things ie tulis report ke.. marking paper ke kalau kat opis..
Taaaapiii.. kalau kat rumah tu lain la kan... as i have thousands and thousand of minutes of free time kat rumah... and then I ll have another notion.. of spending my free time at home by sleeping ke.. tengok tv ke.. rather than on my laptop and updating my blog.. (cess ada jek ngko alasan yekk).. tapi serious.. i cant imagine how all these blooger tegar can write like 3-4 entries/day... and can spend like hours to upload piccas etc.. sebab akak tak bolehhh okkkkkk ( walaupun zaman muda temaja dulu.. akak adalah chatter tegar whom can spend whole day to chat wth strangers..) tapi sekarang tidak lagi... sebab akak kan dah tua.. chatting2 bagai tu sudah tidak sesuai lagi okehhh..
Another thing, blogger tegar juga suka confide watever feelings inside them into writings and blogs are such a good medium.. tapi itu la walaup blog akak ni takder pun org baca tapi akak rasa cam tak sampai hati nak curahkan segala perasaan akak kat sini.. well there are time that i feel like venting out ( cam pagi tadik.. akak rasa sangat disappointed sgt becaouse pusat KOKO didnt invite me to be come as one of the facis for the next FS.. despite of my aplication form yang akak hantar awal.. tapi dorang tak panggil akak ( and i suspect this is due to the not so good evaluation from the previous students in my group, walaupun akak yakin dorang bagi evaluation bagus, tapi sebab numbering yang cam mengkonpiuskan dorang yg eventually evlauation facis tu dorang isi number yang lain la..) im very sure of dat.. tapi itu la... (macam kes nak sedapkan hati je).. of course we cannot depend on the students' evaluation kan.. tapi betul la i m not a good faci kot.. prev sem mine was above 4.5 pre...there goes my budget for jogja trip.... huwaaaaa..
See.. i managed to let my hair down a bit gak kat sini kan....
Im bringing back works from the office... gigih nak buat kije kat rumah untuk merawat hati yang lara...
I know i lead a mundane life nowadays.. pegi balik kije during weekdays.. and no excitement during weekend due to my hibernating life style.. am too lazy to visit siblings as my bro yg sorang tu asyik la pi outstation.. the nephews r too bz ( bz main PS) to attend their lone auntie... so i d rather stay at home instead.. at least duk rumah leh gak la shed off a few calories dengan membasuh pinggan mangkuk, perati the picabot vacuuming for me by controlling the remote, sidai kain angkat kain...etc.. ( yes its stil mundane jows for a few)
I dun even go back for CNY.. cos i tot there'd be unsurprised event occur at that time,, tapiiii na n ado.. which actually add more salt to my wound..seroiously I think i m such a fialure for a lotof things.. ( but im not revealing myself la.. katerr blog is not the media for confiding.. hahhaaha)
and also I have a few procrastinating task... due to my... ermm.. lacking skill of driving... nak gi mana2 on weeeknd harus laaaaaa pikir 10 kali (or more) whether i have the gut to ask other favours from my weekday driver... tambah2 plak kat area sg chua ni agak segan untuk menapak ke depan naik cab.. and of course i know they r gonna charge me likeeee.. waaayy more than the normal fare...
Im making myself bz-ier.. tapi tu la.. dah nature manusis.. dah bz complain la plak... pas tu dah byk sangat free.. complainnn jugakkkkkk...
so akak think.. im gonna sit down silently, watching AFC kat astro, drooling over the food ( tapi nak masak malas) while typing my report... I need an extra budget for the jogja trip ni.. i need watever works that wud give me some extra income.. ( except for stripping2 and whoring)..
ok la.. dah more than 30 mins already... ciao..
Taaaapiii.. kalau kat rumah tu lain la kan... as i have thousands and thousand of minutes of free time kat rumah... and then I ll have another notion.. of spending my free time at home by sleeping ke.. tengok tv ke.. rather than on my laptop and updating my blog.. (cess ada jek ngko alasan yekk).. tapi serious.. i cant imagine how all these blooger tegar can write like 3-4 entries/day... and can spend like hours to upload piccas etc.. sebab akak tak bolehhh okkkkkk ( walaupun zaman muda temaja dulu.. akak adalah chatter tegar whom can spend whole day to chat wth strangers..) tapi sekarang tidak lagi... sebab akak kan dah tua.. chatting2 bagai tu sudah tidak sesuai lagi okehhh..
Another thing, blogger tegar juga suka confide watever feelings inside them into writings and blogs are such a good medium.. tapi itu la walaup blog akak ni takder pun org baca tapi akak rasa cam tak sampai hati nak curahkan segala perasaan akak kat sini.. well there are time that i feel like venting out ( cam pagi tadik.. akak rasa sangat disappointed sgt becaouse pusat KOKO didnt invite me to be come as one of the facis for the next FS.. despite of my aplication form yang akak hantar awal.. tapi dorang tak panggil akak ( and i suspect this is due to the not so good evaluation from the previous students in my group, walaupun akak yakin dorang bagi evaluation bagus, tapi sebab numbering yang cam mengkonpiuskan dorang yg eventually evlauation facis tu dorang isi number yang lain la..) im very sure of dat.. tapi itu la... (macam kes nak sedapkan hati je).. of course we cannot depend on the students' evaluation kan.. tapi betul la i m not a good faci kot.. prev sem mine was above 4.5 pre...there goes my budget for jogja trip.... huwaaaaa..
See.. i managed to let my hair down a bit gak kat sini kan....
Im bringing back works from the office... gigih nak buat kije kat rumah untuk merawat hati yang lara...
I know i lead a mundane life nowadays.. pegi balik kije during weekdays.. and no excitement during weekend due to my hibernating life style.. am too lazy to visit siblings as my bro yg sorang tu asyik la pi outstation.. the nephews r too bz ( bz main PS) to attend their lone auntie... so i d rather stay at home instead.. at least duk rumah leh gak la shed off a few calories dengan membasuh pinggan mangkuk, perati the picabot vacuuming for me by controlling the remote, sidai kain angkat kain...etc.. ( yes its stil mundane jows for a few)
I dun even go back for CNY.. cos i tot there'd be unsurprised event occur at that time,, tapiiii na n ado.. which actually add more salt to my wound..seroiously I think i m such a fialure for a lotof things.. ( but im not revealing myself la.. katerr blog is not the media for confiding.. hahhaaha)
and also I have a few procrastinating task... due to my... ermm.. lacking skill of driving... nak gi mana2 on weeeknd harus laaaaaa pikir 10 kali (or more) whether i have the gut to ask other favours from my weekday driver... tambah2 plak kat area sg chua ni agak segan untuk menapak ke depan naik cab.. and of course i know they r gonna charge me likeeee.. waaayy more than the normal fare...
Im making myself bz-ier.. tapi tu la.. dah nature manusis.. dah bz complain la plak... pas tu dah byk sangat free.. complainnn jugakkkkkk...
so akak think.. im gonna sit down silently, watching AFC kat astro, drooling over the food ( tapi nak masak malas) while typing my report... I need an extra budget for the jogja trip ni.. i need watever works that wud give me some extra income.. ( except for stripping2 and whoring)..
ok la.. dah more than 30 mins already... ciao..
Friday, January 08, 2010
Knock.. knock
Hmm.. Its Friday.. the 2nd weekend of the year..
am spending too much money for houseehold items.. which .. on 2nd tot, I think its a need to buy em.. ( due to my lazybones syndrome).. but on anthr tot.. why am i spending like i am the Bung Mukhtar's 2nd wife (oopsss) daughter? ( motif masuk nama Bung Mukhtar kat sini? hahaha)
but then ok la.. now i have time to 'swing' while watching tv ala2 menyanyi lagu ikan kaloi.. while listening to the vacuum.. doing its work without any supervisory of the house owner... well.. its gonna be very soothing to the ears from now on without me having to sweat sampai ke ketiak.. heheh
owh well...
rather be a reader than a writer..
yes i would.. if i only could... i'd surely would..
am spending too much money for houseehold items.. which .. on 2nd tot, I think its a need to buy em.. ( due to my lazybones syndrome).. but on anthr tot.. why am i spending like i am the Bung Mukhtar's 2nd wife (oopsss) daughter? ( motif masuk nama Bung Mukhtar kat sini? hahaha)
but then ok la.. now i have time to 'swing' while watching tv ala2 menyanyi lagu ikan kaloi.. while listening to the vacuum.. doing its work without any supervisory of the house owner... well.. its gonna be very soothing to the ears from now on without me having to sweat sampai ke ketiak.. heheh
owh well...
rather be a reader than a writer..
yes i would.. if i only could... i'd surely would..
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Hi 2010, adios 2009..
hmm.. so in less than 24 hours, we re going to step in the year of 2010. At tis time of the year, ie a year ago, i was still recuperating from post-cystectomy. and within less than 3 weeks, i was back on the road, as it was not a perfect time to extend my medical leave. The new semester started a week after i underwent my surgery.
So this year, while i reminescence over the events which occured exactly a year ago,( not many tragic events tho, Thank God), I m also looking forward to seeing some positive changes in my life.. well, call it as resolutions or wateva..
and at tis hour, next year, i d probably look back over the things that happened to me throughout this year.. heh
Compared to year 2008, my health condition is improvising, except for the earlier months, which i was forced to undergo the rituximab therapy (yeah, darn u Dr S.. hahaha ( motif tetiba mencarut!) It didnt even make me better instead. The only good thing that i gained from it is, i managed to put off a few extra kgs and up till now, the weight is still in good control ( still thinking of reducing a few kg perhaps, and no, it wont be under my new year resolution list tho)
anyway, on lighter note, with the year 2010 coming, I m wishing for the good healths of me , my parents and the rest of thefamily, another trip to any overseas country + perform an umrah as well, adopting one of the child in Rumah anak yatim (in the process of doing it now)..and last but not least, dimurahkan rezeki so dat i can share my earning with the ones who r less fortunate. Amin...
I dun ask much.. do i... hehehe
Welcome 2010..
So this year, while i reminescence over the events which occured exactly a year ago,( not many tragic events tho, Thank God), I m also looking forward to seeing some positive changes in my life.. well, call it as resolutions or wateva..
and at tis hour, next year, i d probably look back over the things that happened to me throughout this year.. heh
Compared to year 2008, my health condition is improvising, except for the earlier months, which i was forced to undergo the rituximab therapy (yeah, darn u Dr S.. hahaha ( motif tetiba mencarut!) It didnt even make me better instead. The only good thing that i gained from it is, i managed to put off a few extra kgs and up till now, the weight is still in good control ( still thinking of reducing a few kg perhaps, and no, it wont be under my new year resolution list tho)
anyway, on lighter note, with the year 2010 coming, I m wishing for the good healths of me , my parents and the rest of thefamily, another trip to any overseas country + perform an umrah as well, adopting one of the child in Rumah anak yatim (in the process of doing it now)..and last but not least, dimurahkan rezeki so dat i can share my earning with the ones who r less fortunate. Amin...
I dun ask much.. do i... hehehe
Welcome 2010..
Friday, November 27, 2009
HariRaya Korban
Eid-ul-adha. today.
Selamat berkorban...
Selamat pegang ekor lembu..
Make sure not to stay too close with it when it is about to be sacrificed..
Dah sah sah lembu tu jadi tunggangan kita ke syurga kan...(kalau dapat masuk syurga la), tapi mine cuma baru separuh ekor jek baru.. nak kena tunggu lagi 2-3 kali raya aji la kot hehehe..
anyway.. happy feasting.. makan secara moderate je.. *akak cuit2 jek nanti pasal keadaan kesihatan tak mengizinkan untuk membedal *.... wahhh ayat...
am leaving to KB in a few minutes... will arrive around 8 ish.. insyaalah....
will be back on tuesday morning... bye
Selamat berkorban...
Selamat pegang ekor lembu..
Make sure not to stay too close with it when it is about to be sacrificed..
Dah sah sah lembu tu jadi tunggangan kita ke syurga kan...(kalau dapat masuk syurga la), tapi mine cuma baru separuh ekor jek baru.. nak kena tunggu lagi 2-3 kali raya aji la kot hehehe..
anyway.. happy feasting.. makan secara moderate je.. *akak cuit2 jek nanti pasal keadaan kesihatan tak mengizinkan untuk membedal *.... wahhh ayat...
am leaving to KB in a few minutes... will arrive around 8 ish.. insyaalah....
will be back on tuesday morning... bye
Thursday, November 26, 2009
The true meaning of eid-ul-adha
Guess wat? I m still in Kajang, tho raya haji adalah bermula esok Went to work yesterday, * ya akak adalah sangat rajin, sampai pakcik driver tego, why dun u take a leave, apasal rajin sangat?* membuatkan akak rasa cam nak ketuk jek kepala beliau, tapi as I m already in festive mood, akak biar kan saja la.
I managed to finish a few pending works, such as, submitted the buku profil frgs to sofia , and also submitted abdah's proposal (4 copies of em) to RMC thru sofia, and last but not least, completed my basic entrepeneurship ISO file in econ fac, ahaaa sempat jugak completed the MASTIC's R&D online survey.
Akak sungguh happy, dalam tempoh masa yang singkat, akak sempat menghabiskan begitu byk kije yang 'pending' walaupun keadaan fakulti yang amat sunyi, hanya dipenuhi oleh akak2 indon dan abg2 bangla cleaners saja. Owh, by the way, harapan akak untuk ambik GL for the next gynae's clinic appt adalah hampa sebab semua pegawai tadbir telah bercuti, jadi tiada siapa yg boleh sign GL akak. *memang dorang semua meriah jek bercuti sehari sebelum raya haji' tanpa memikirkan keperluan staf akademik cam akak ni yang memerlukan bantuan mereka di saat2 akhir *wahh.. am i complaining*
anyway, akak cabut around 1 lepas hantar ISO forms kat FEP and later gigih ke Alamanda untuk pegi tukar baju * eksen beli baju yg one size smaller than empunya body, hasilnya terpaksa tukar and pilih baju lain*
So esok, early in the morning , I m going back to my hometown. Hopefully sempat la pi menunggu kat kandang lembu esok. *hm,, i wonder wat's the menu for tomorrow's feast la, adakah.. roti jala dan kuzi ayam, as way my sis has hinted?*
On another story, .. my mom has a group of makcik friend which live in the rural area of Kelantan. When i said rural, I mean it'sa place where I ve never been before and i think it is miles and miles from the main road. Alkisahnya, this group of makcik, * i called them mom's best friend ' cos they ll come to my house like a few times in a year. I think they have been coming for several years already as the group of 5-6 person has eventually reduced to 2 now, as the rest of them have passed away. *I think they have started coming while i was still doing my masters, if im not mistaken and tat was like 12 yaears ago*
so this 2 makciks, they came from exteremly poor families, which u can realte with a proverb of *kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang* kekdahnya. The only time they are able to eat meat us during raya haji , can u imagine. Its just like, while we re stuffing our gut with big Mac la, beef steak bagai , any food with meat product based everytime, meat is stil considered as luxurious dish for them.
So every raya haji,they will come as early as they cud, which involves of they walked all the way from bus station to my house ( its quite far, for me, cos kalau naik kereta pun it's like a 10 min drive* and from their houses tu nak ke main road adalah juga kena berjalan kaki, and sometimes they took *kereta sewa* to go to KB.
Usually daging korba tun, bila dah sampai rumah, we just gave everything to them, cuma ambik sedikit jek untuk buat makan kat rumah, the rib, tail, meat and all the internal organ semua kita org bagi kat makcik2 tu..
last year, we had 2 portions of daging kurban and we gave it all to them as one portion of my sis's tu dia dah niat sebagai nazar. They had a feast at their kampung with our portions of daging korban, and to know that our small gift such as daging korban will bring such joy to them.. its priceless.
Yet, we always hear people complaining about the food that some restaurants served are not palatable at all, but do we realize that many of us cant even have 3 meals/ day. tu pun dah cukup baik kalau boleh makan nasik 2 kali sehari bertemankan lauk ikan bilis, telor dan kicap jek......*sebak plak tetiba*
Itu la, by knowing thse makciks, sekurang2nya boleh membuat maknusia cam akak ni insap sat * sat jek ke*. Dorang selalu gak ajak my mom pegi tengok kampung dorang yang considered daif tu.. makcik tu dah tua.. and cucu2 dia pun duk ngan dia as the father pun sekadar buat kije2 kampung jek.
akak ni kan.. kalau ada rezeki lebih , insyaalah, nak korban jek sekor lembu kat kg tu and sedekahkan semuanya.MY mom kata, kalau kita dah ada niat cam tu, insyaalah Allah permudahkan la rezeki kita tu.
owh, last ramadhan, makcik2 tu pun datang, and usually a few days after raya pun dorang datang. Masa ramadhan tu dorang selalu datang mintak zakat, dan kita org mula kenal pun sebab tu lah. masa tu my mom ada lebihan masak lemak sayur kat rumah, so she offered to the makciks tu la. Suka sangat dia org while praising my mom, sambil duk cakap.. makan lauk sedap la kita buka posa nanti.. when i listened to my mom narrating the story, i wept in silence. Imagine, lauk2 lebihan tu pun bagi mereka, adalah amat sedap dah... kalau kita tak abis.. ke tong sampah je kan...?
lately my mom, gave everything that we dont want in the house to them. Pinggan mangkuk la, periuk belanga la, my dad's used shirts.. err last time, my mom gave my brassieres ( its not used ok,akak tak pakai bcos i m not comfortable wearing em and surprisingly makcik2 tu nak ambik. * heran gak, size dorang sama ke ngan my size? hahahaah* Makcik tu agaknya main redah jek kot. well if u r in their shoes, u wont be fussy la kan. Sama macam kat drama tu, makan jek leftovers kat restoran...
As for me, knowing all these unfortunate people in this world, make me realized that, why dun we share, at least a tiny portion of wat we have with them. I mean, if we can afford buying those expensive cat's food to your pet ( for instance la), why cant u just donate at least one small packet of rice or 1 kg of sugar to those poors... kan?
and of course la, in this hustle and bustle of KL city, its very rare to find such people, but kalau Tv3 boleh jumpa all these kinda ppl and aired them in bersama mu.. apasal lak we cannot make effort to find them. at least we can start with a baby step of sadaqah our daging korban to them first...
well.. can we?
I managed to finish a few pending works, such as, submitted the buku profil frgs to sofia , and also submitted abdah's proposal (4 copies of em) to RMC thru sofia, and last but not least, completed my basic entrepeneurship ISO file in econ fac, ahaaa sempat jugak completed the MASTIC's R&D online survey.
Akak sungguh happy, dalam tempoh masa yang singkat, akak sempat menghabiskan begitu byk kije yang 'pending' walaupun keadaan fakulti yang amat sunyi, hanya dipenuhi oleh akak2 indon dan abg2 bangla cleaners saja. Owh, by the way, harapan akak untuk ambik GL for the next gynae's clinic appt adalah hampa sebab semua pegawai tadbir telah bercuti, jadi tiada siapa yg boleh sign GL akak. *memang dorang semua meriah jek bercuti sehari sebelum raya haji' tanpa memikirkan keperluan staf akademik cam akak ni yang memerlukan bantuan mereka di saat2 akhir *wahh.. am i complaining*
anyway, akak cabut around 1 lepas hantar ISO forms kat FEP and later gigih ke Alamanda untuk pegi tukar baju * eksen beli baju yg one size smaller than empunya body, hasilnya terpaksa tukar and pilih baju lain*
So esok, early in the morning , I m going back to my hometown. Hopefully sempat la pi menunggu kat kandang lembu esok. *hm,, i wonder wat's the menu for tomorrow's feast la, adakah.. roti jala dan kuzi ayam, as way my sis has hinted?*
On another story, .. my mom has a group of makcik friend which live in the rural area of Kelantan. When i said rural, I mean it'sa place where I ve never been before and i think it is miles and miles from the main road. Alkisahnya, this group of makcik, * i called them mom's best friend ' cos they ll come to my house like a few times in a year. I think they have been coming for several years already as the group of 5-6 person has eventually reduced to 2 now, as the rest of them have passed away. *I think they have started coming while i was still doing my masters, if im not mistaken and tat was like 12 yaears ago*
so this 2 makciks, they came from exteremly poor families, which u can realte with a proverb of *kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang* kekdahnya. The only time they are able to eat meat us during raya haji , can u imagine. Its just like, while we re stuffing our gut with big Mac la, beef steak bagai , any food with meat product based everytime, meat is stil considered as luxurious dish for them.
So every raya haji,they will come as early as they cud, which involves of they walked all the way from bus station to my house ( its quite far, for me, cos kalau naik kereta pun it's like a 10 min drive* and from their houses tu nak ke main road adalah juga kena berjalan kaki, and sometimes they took *kereta sewa* to go to KB.
Usually daging korba tun, bila dah sampai rumah, we just gave everything to them, cuma ambik sedikit jek untuk buat makan kat rumah, the rib, tail, meat and all the internal organ semua kita org bagi kat makcik2 tu..
last year, we had 2 portions of daging kurban and we gave it all to them as one portion of my sis's tu dia dah niat sebagai nazar. They had a feast at their kampung with our portions of daging korban, and to know that our small gift such as daging korban will bring such joy to them.. its priceless.
Yet, we always hear people complaining about the food that some restaurants served are not palatable at all, but do we realize that many of us cant even have 3 meals/ day. tu pun dah cukup baik kalau boleh makan nasik 2 kali sehari bertemankan lauk ikan bilis, telor dan kicap jek......*sebak plak tetiba*
Itu la, by knowing thse makciks, sekurang2nya boleh membuat maknusia cam akak ni insap sat * sat jek ke*. Dorang selalu gak ajak my mom pegi tengok kampung dorang yang considered daif tu.. makcik tu dah tua.. and cucu2 dia pun duk ngan dia as the father pun sekadar buat kije2 kampung jek.
akak ni kan.. kalau ada rezeki lebih , insyaalah, nak korban jek sekor lembu kat kg tu and sedekahkan semuanya.MY mom kata, kalau kita dah ada niat cam tu, insyaalah Allah permudahkan la rezeki kita tu.
owh, last ramadhan, makcik2 tu pun datang, and usually a few days after raya pun dorang datang. Masa ramadhan tu dorang selalu datang mintak zakat, dan kita org mula kenal pun sebab tu lah. masa tu my mom ada lebihan masak lemak sayur kat rumah, so she offered to the makciks tu la. Suka sangat dia org while praising my mom, sambil duk cakap.. makan lauk sedap la kita buka posa nanti.. when i listened to my mom narrating the story, i wept in silence. Imagine, lauk2 lebihan tu pun bagi mereka, adalah amat sedap dah... kalau kita tak abis.. ke tong sampah je kan...?
lately my mom, gave everything that we dont want in the house to them. Pinggan mangkuk la, periuk belanga la, my dad's used shirts.. err last time, my mom gave my brassieres ( its not used ok,akak tak pakai bcos i m not comfortable wearing em and surprisingly makcik2 tu nak ambik. * heran gak, size dorang sama ke ngan my size? hahahaah* Makcik tu agaknya main redah jek kot. well if u r in their shoes, u wont be fussy la kan. Sama macam kat drama tu, makan jek leftovers kat restoran...
As for me, knowing all these unfortunate people in this world, make me realized that, why dun we share, at least a tiny portion of wat we have with them. I mean, if we can afford buying those expensive cat's food to your pet ( for instance la), why cant u just donate at least one small packet of rice or 1 kg of sugar to those poors... kan?
and of course la, in this hustle and bustle of KL city, its very rare to find such people, but kalau Tv3 boleh jumpa all these kinda ppl and aired them in bersama mu.. apasal lak we cannot make effort to find them. at least we can start with a baby step of sadaqah our daging korban to them first...
well.. can we?
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Kyoto Trip
more pics from Kyoto trip. ada lebih 300 keping from my camera.. yg dorang punya camera.. beratus2 lagi... they have put in their facebook.. akak ada lah malas utk mengeluarkan camera.. ni pun ambik sebab tourist guide tu yg offer snap kan..advantages of going with friends.. byk la gambo.. kalau sensorang.. confirm mmg takder pic..
depan palace apa ntah.. but this is the location that they shot last samurai.. alaaa yg ada tom cruise tu kan... tak masuk pun,, due to limited of time..main snap snap pas tu blah..abis.. book tourist guide with the mpv pun 2 jam jek..mana nak makan tempura lagi kann
belakang lorong haji taib.. opss... belakang rumah org.. tapi sgt bersih maaaa..
ni dalam misi mengejar geisha @ geiko .. kat kampung geisha.. its very rare to see them in the middle of the afternoon.. as they are very timid.. ada la sorang yg kita nampak.. tapi bila dorang nampak kita.. mencicit dorang lari.. tak sempat nak ambik gamba
sempat lagi posing dalam subway.. as our hotel is the last stop in the route, so chances we have seats kat dalam subway ada lah sangat cemerlang. It took 20 mins from our place to Kyoto. so amatla bosan sbb bukan stay kat city.. bilik pun kat underground, nampak concrete jek kat luar tingkap.. malam2 bunyi crickets amatlah kuat
depan hotel.. its a 4 star hotel tapi lobby is not as grand as wat we have in Malaysia.. its the quality that matters for them,,tengok.. nama hotel crested kat dinding pun tak berapa nak nampak..
depan palace apa ntah.. but this is the location that they shot last samurai.. alaaa yg ada tom cruise tu kan... tak masuk pun,, due to limited of time..main snap snap pas tu blah..abis.. book tourist guide with the mpv pun 2 jam jek..mana nak makan tempura lagi kann
belakang lorong haji taib.. opss... belakang rumah org.. tapi sgt bersih maaaa..
ni dalam misi mengejar geisha @ geiko .. kat kampung geisha.. its very rare to see them in the middle of the afternoon.. as they are very timid.. ada la sorang yg kita nampak.. tapi bila dorang nampak kita.. mencicit dorang lari.. tak sempat nak ambik gamba
sempat lagi posing dalam subway.. as our hotel is the last stop in the route, so chances we have seats kat dalam subway ada lah sangat cemerlang. It took 20 mins from our place to Kyoto. so amatla bosan sbb bukan stay kat city.. bilik pun kat underground, nampak concrete jek kat luar tingkap.. malam2 bunyi crickets amatlah kuat
depan hotel.. its a 4 star hotel tapi lobby is not as grand as wat we have in Malaysia.. its the quality that matters for them,,tengok.. nama hotel crested kat dinding pun tak berapa nak nampak..
Sudah terlalu lama...
*sapu sawang jap*
It's been too long... pejam celik pejam celik.. semester dah berakhir minggu lepas..
markah dah bagi... kursus dah pergi.. sekarang.. menimbun-nimbun kerja yang masih lagi 'pending' , tergendala dek kursus PTK seminggu...
masa tu la nak audit bagai.. masa tu la segala mak nenek grant bukak.. masa tu la nak isi KM portal... yang bertembung lak ngan raya haji.. * which is .. kalau tak balik raya.. kiranya akak ni cam dah kena buang negeri la*
So ambik la jugak cuti barang sehari.. *nasib raya jatuh hari jumaat*, tu pun balik di pagi raya *yang tak der la shahdu cam pagi raya aidilfitri* orang2 kat airport tu cam rilek saja pun time raya aji..
Makanya.. cam pelik laplak tetiba update blog pagi minggu... *nampak cam takder kije la sgt.. actually gas masak baru abis.. so chances nak masak utk makan tghari dah jadi 0, malas nak menapak kat kedai depan suh hantar gas'..
Assisgnments PTK yang tiga tu masih ada dalam beg.. dari jumaat lepas berhurray sebab finally abis gak kursus yang menensenkan tu *walaupun PTK dah kurikulum baru, exam dah takder.. cuma ada komponen fungsional which they have translated it as assignments *tapi tetap soalan cam exam gak* and komponen generik which include 1 kertas refleksi, public speaking ngan individual presentation.. abis jek public speaking rasa cam abis segala masalah.. ibaratnya..
So tunggu-tunggu jek la.. maybe isnin baru nak tengok balik assignment mana yang nak ditulis.. deadline submission is on 7/12. sempat la juga nak pegang ekor lembu kat kampung .. and if there is a chance.. pi Pengkalan Kubor survey high end imitation designer handbag there? hehehehe...nak beli yang original yang ribu riban cam sayang la plak nak perabiskan.. baik gunakan utk menda yang perlu ... at least high endnya imitation wont go more than 1k..
I ve been making plans for the next year's agenda.. well part of em la.. Looks like for the next sem's courses.. it's gonna be a whole lot... *bila la boleh ambik cuti sabatikal ni*
last but not least.. i m attaching a few pics taken from the previous trip to Kyoto.. the city is tremendously clean.. parit kat belakang rumah punya la jernih air dia.. cam boleh jek wat minum air dia.. the smokers over there even keep their cig ash in their own tiny container before throwing em into the dustbin when they found one.. and the elders.. whom r 60-70 yrs of age even walk faster than me.. which is amazing.. tgk dorang takder pun mengah2 naik bukit.. rileks jek...
/>posing kat atas tangga kat temple mana tah.. the only temple that we managed to go.. tak koser nak pi semua temples which scattered all over Kyoto
/>me n my master student kat depan temple.. the japanese duk tibai cakap japan ngan dia.. thinking that she's one of them
it was raining when we first arrived in Kyoto.. te next day pun ujan renyai2. so ala2 posing ngan payung while exploring the nearby area di pagi hari..
the room..quite big cos we have separate dressing room and toilet and wardrobe.. up to european standard size la jugak..
/>
Kyoto sky.. taken in JR Haruka Express on the way to KYoto.. it took 2 hrs to reach Kyoto from the airport.. somebody left his wallet kat dalam train and we only realized it masa nak turun train.. but kita org tengok jek la.. cos kyoto is the last station and the management will surely keep it bfore the person report the loss.. kat sana tak der org yg sebuk ambik kesempatan nak curi ke apa if we accidentally left our wallet in the train..
It's been too long... pejam celik pejam celik.. semester dah berakhir minggu lepas..
markah dah bagi... kursus dah pergi.. sekarang.. menimbun-nimbun kerja yang masih lagi 'pending' , tergendala dek kursus PTK seminggu...
masa tu la nak audit bagai.. masa tu la segala mak nenek grant bukak.. masa tu la nak isi KM portal... yang bertembung lak ngan raya haji.. * which is .. kalau tak balik raya.. kiranya akak ni cam dah kena buang negeri la*
So ambik la jugak cuti barang sehari.. *nasib raya jatuh hari jumaat*, tu pun balik di pagi raya *yang tak der la shahdu cam pagi raya aidilfitri* orang2 kat airport tu cam rilek saja pun time raya aji..
Makanya.. cam pelik laplak tetiba update blog pagi minggu... *nampak cam takder kije la sgt.. actually gas masak baru abis.. so chances nak masak utk makan tghari dah jadi 0, malas nak menapak kat kedai depan suh hantar gas'..
Assisgnments PTK yang tiga tu masih ada dalam beg.. dari jumaat lepas berhurray sebab finally abis gak kursus yang menensenkan tu *walaupun PTK dah kurikulum baru, exam dah takder.. cuma ada komponen fungsional which they have translated it as assignments *tapi tetap soalan cam exam gak* and komponen generik which include 1 kertas refleksi, public speaking ngan individual presentation.. abis jek public speaking rasa cam abis segala masalah.. ibaratnya..
So tunggu-tunggu jek la.. maybe isnin baru nak tengok balik assignment mana yang nak ditulis.. deadline submission is on 7/12. sempat la juga nak pegang ekor lembu kat kampung .. and if there is a chance.. pi Pengkalan Kubor survey high end imitation designer handbag there? hehehehe...nak beli yang original yang ribu riban cam sayang la plak nak perabiskan.. baik gunakan utk menda yang perlu ... at least high endnya imitation wont go more than 1k..
I ve been making plans for the next year's agenda.. well part of em la.. Looks like for the next sem's courses.. it's gonna be a whole lot... *bila la boleh ambik cuti sabatikal ni*
last but not least.. i m attaching a few pics taken from the previous trip to Kyoto.. the city is tremendously clean.. parit kat belakang rumah punya la jernih air dia.. cam boleh jek wat minum air dia.. the smokers over there even keep their cig ash in their own tiny container before throwing em into the dustbin when they found one.. and the elders.. whom r 60-70 yrs of age even walk faster than me.. which is amazing.. tgk dorang takder pun mengah2 naik bukit.. rileks jek...
/>posing kat atas tangga kat temple mana tah.. the only temple that we managed to go.. tak koser nak pi semua temples which scattered all over Kyoto
/>me n my master student kat depan temple.. the japanese duk tibai cakap japan ngan dia.. thinking that she's one of them
it was raining when we first arrived in Kyoto.. te next day pun ujan renyai2. so ala2 posing ngan payung while exploring the nearby area di pagi hari..
the room..quite big cos we have separate dressing room and toilet and wardrobe.. up to european standard size la jugak..
/>Kyoto sky.. taken in JR Haruka Express on the way to KYoto.. it took 2 hrs to reach Kyoto from the airport.. somebody left his wallet kat dalam train and we only realized it masa nak turun train.. but kita org tengok jek la.. cos kyoto is the last station and the management will surely keep it bfore the person report the loss.. kat sana tak der org yg sebuk ambik kesempatan nak curi ke apa if we accidentally left our wallet in the train..
Thursday, September 10, 2009
updating...
dah sekian lama tak post any new entry. Ever since i came back from Kyoto, i was way too bz, dgn classes nya, exams nya. clerical worksnya, auditsnya... co-curricular activities-nya ( which i actually earned a few extra thousands, wat belanja raya )-itu bz cari sendiri tu.
and my life is too routine.. especially bulan puasa ni.. balik 4.30, masak ala kadar, cant wait to watch wadi unung ( tteiba jadi addicted lak dgn citer tu), pas tu buka, pas tu kemas, pas tu solat, pas tu kul 10 tido, esok bangun sahor lak, mandi2 terus pi kije, pas tu tersengguk2 kat opis, kalau takder kelas pagi... and it has been going on for 20 days already di bulan puasa ni.
Keinginan nak buka posa kat luar pun semakin merudum, sbbnya .. ala makan sekadar utk mengisi perut jek kan.. but i really missed buka posa ramai2 ngan family. last weekend wnet to my bro's at KD, syok la sekejap sbb boleh buka posa ramai2 n terawih sama2.. balik Kajang semula.. pandang la dinding balik..
Btw, am going back on monday nite.. haaa gigih bercuti awal sebab dah tadak tiket flite and coming back on 29th.. i think I d be the one yg paling lama cuti raya kat kg tu hahaha..
My sis's maid larik pa ssahur a few days ago.. i pitied my mom yang dah berapa kali kena berdepan ngan maids yg buat dia sakit hati dan makan hati sampai dah jadik kurus sejak belum posa lagi..
I wish i cud ask them both datang jek kat sini.. duk goyang kaki, but being mom, mana betah duk rumah org.. with my sister's baby yg she has to take care of.. ( sbb ada org gaji dia tak harap), and being her, kalau badan penat, makan pun tak lalu.
Taktau la ak cakap apa.. tiba -tiba rasa sayu lak bila ingatkan dia.. ( wah makcik emosional tetiba...)
tah le....
and my life is too routine.. especially bulan puasa ni.. balik 4.30, masak ala kadar, cant wait to watch wadi unung ( tteiba jadi addicted lak dgn citer tu), pas tu buka, pas tu kemas, pas tu solat, pas tu kul 10 tido, esok bangun sahor lak, mandi2 terus pi kije, pas tu tersengguk2 kat opis, kalau takder kelas pagi... and it has been going on for 20 days already di bulan puasa ni.
Keinginan nak buka posa kat luar pun semakin merudum, sbbnya .. ala makan sekadar utk mengisi perut jek kan.. but i really missed buka posa ramai2 ngan family. last weekend wnet to my bro's at KD, syok la sekejap sbb boleh buka posa ramai2 n terawih sama2.. balik Kajang semula.. pandang la dinding balik..
Btw, am going back on monday nite.. haaa gigih bercuti awal sebab dah tadak tiket flite and coming back on 29th.. i think I d be the one yg paling lama cuti raya kat kg tu hahaha..
My sis's maid larik pa ssahur a few days ago.. i pitied my mom yang dah berapa kali kena berdepan ngan maids yg buat dia sakit hati dan makan hati sampai dah jadik kurus sejak belum posa lagi..
I wish i cud ask them both datang jek kat sini.. duk goyang kaki, but being mom, mana betah duk rumah org.. with my sister's baby yg she has to take care of.. ( sbb ada org gaji dia tak harap), and being her, kalau badan penat, makan pun tak lalu.
Taktau la ak cakap apa.. tiba -tiba rasa sayu lak bila ingatkan dia.. ( wah makcik emosional tetiba...)
tah le....
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Updating....
Yes, it was a month ago since i updated my blog. and it's been a month since the students came in , and akak masih terkial-kial dgn clas schedule yangtak tentu hala.. ( yes, this is the 3rd week dah) and ada satu kelas tu, i kept on changing dia nya class schedule because....the students cant make it on those slots, so akak terpaksa memerah otak so that they r able to attend for every class, bukannya attend ikut turn.. bley?
it was not my job to reschedule ke apa ke, tapi itu la.. since those meant students r from Medical faculty, in their 1st clinical year plak tu, so their supervisor suka ati jek la panggil dorang anytime even tho those slots are already scheduled for my class..
tapi ntah la.. malas nak ckp lagi... the course pun , it's not from the fac, in fact it's from other fac. ikut ati malas rasanya nak ajar, howeversince i was told to teach, so .. akak ajar la.. not my niche area pun....
other than that, akak ok sajork. I gotta teach and coordinate an elective course, supervise 5 undergrad students for their final year project, and having this huge problem of terminating an iranian post doc who hasnt performed at all. This makcik, has the gut to go to the top people in this university, trying to appeal as she 's the innocent party and i was the bad one who can simply terminate her. After all the chaos that she has created, including the soxhlet extractor that she claimed she accidentally broke it, I finally decided that it has to be ended. and terminating her, is the best solution ( even tho giving 3 montsh prior notice wont give any benefit to the univ), as she 'd simply get 3 montsh alary withour doing anything when she's known that she's been terminated.
Akak pun malas nak berkata apa lagi.. the onlything that I knew is she's one big liar... harap muka jek cun tapi pembohong besar... i shudnt have taken her in the 1st place..
on happier note... despite the hectic schedule and all, I managed to have a sorta break cum overseas conference trip again. Its the time of the year anyway.
last year I managed to go to Athens, andthe year before to Austria, and before that to Washington, this year, despite the H1N1 pandemic, i have set my mind to proceed for the Kyoto trip which i d be leaving this weekend. me and 4 other post grad students from my fac. so, the good thing i wont be alone this time
well moshi moshi Kyoto.....
P.S getting back to work..
it was not my job to reschedule ke apa ke, tapi itu la.. since those meant students r from Medical faculty, in their 1st clinical year plak tu, so their supervisor suka ati jek la panggil dorang anytime even tho those slots are already scheduled for my class..
tapi ntah la.. malas nak ckp lagi... the course pun , it's not from the fac, in fact it's from other fac. ikut ati malas rasanya nak ajar, howeversince i was told to teach, so .. akak ajar la.. not my niche area pun....
other than that, akak ok sajork. I gotta teach and coordinate an elective course, supervise 5 undergrad students for their final year project, and having this huge problem of terminating an iranian post doc who hasnt performed at all. This makcik, has the gut to go to the top people in this university, trying to appeal as she 's the innocent party and i was the bad one who can simply terminate her. After all the chaos that she has created, including the soxhlet extractor that she claimed she accidentally broke it, I finally decided that it has to be ended. and terminating her, is the best solution ( even tho giving 3 montsh prior notice wont give any benefit to the univ), as she 'd simply get 3 montsh alary withour doing anything when she's known that she's been terminated.
Akak pun malas nak berkata apa lagi.. the onlything that I knew is she's one big liar... harap muka jek cun tapi pembohong besar... i shudnt have taken her in the 1st place..
on happier note... despite the hectic schedule and all, I managed to have a sorta break cum overseas conference trip again. Its the time of the year anyway.
last year I managed to go to Athens, andthe year before to Austria, and before that to Washington, this year, despite the H1N1 pandemic, i have set my mind to proceed for the Kyoto trip which i d be leaving this weekend. me and 4 other post grad students from my fac. so, the good thing i wont be alone this time
well moshi moshi Kyoto.....
P.S getting back to work..
Friday, June 26, 2009
Time and tides wait for no man
How time flies. We are at the end of June already. feels like yesterday, I went back to hometown, gigih makan dan gigih tempah baju raya nanti.. and it was only a few weeks ago...
Ever since i came back.. akak was extremely occupied, ngan TOTs which were held at Cyberview lodge and Marriot Putrajaya, gigih lagi makan makan dan makan.. and tis afternoon i m heading to Seri Malaysia, Bagan Lalang for a 2 days retreat cum department workshop. ( makan lagi tu kan.... )
The new students are registering tis wkdn and the old ones will be coming back next week.. After tis, I wont have any more free time for myself...
Somehow, I was wondering, wat have i been doing for the past 2 months, seems like i never managed to 'produce' anything, or to complete anything. it was half way done.. ( as usual), and suddenly i feel so disappointed to myself.
Why cant i be productive like others. ( who can publish their articles more than 10, who can do other thi9ngs like putting their final touch to their research, or gaining anothr few grants for the research) . Why cant i just be like that?
Its not that i spend lotsa time 'vaining' on my FB ( yg cam seminggu skali pun malas der aku nak update) or complaining how i ve been doing in my blog and waiting for ppl to comment... I suppose i ddidnt spend too much time on internet btw, but where are all the hours gone..
Why cant i manage my time like others? Tim kai.. Pour quoi...?
On not so serious note...
I think i m doing just fine ( pulak)
except for the imaginary curtains that r supposd to be hanged on the windows at my abode.. and some tiny items that i keep on forgetting to purchase...
I think I d be fine...
not to forget, except for a bifollicle cysts which have decided to appaear again in my ovary...
I think I m gonna be just fine for the next 10 years...
Ever since i came back.. akak was extremely occupied, ngan TOTs which were held at Cyberview lodge and Marriot Putrajaya, gigih lagi makan makan dan makan.. and tis afternoon i m heading to Seri Malaysia, Bagan Lalang for a 2 days retreat cum department workshop. ( makan lagi tu kan.... )
The new students are registering tis wkdn and the old ones will be coming back next week.. After tis, I wont have any more free time for myself...
Somehow, I was wondering, wat have i been doing for the past 2 months, seems like i never managed to 'produce' anything, or to complete anything. it was half way done.. ( as usual), and suddenly i feel so disappointed to myself.
Why cant i be productive like others. ( who can publish their articles more than 10, who can do other thi9ngs like putting their final touch to their research, or gaining anothr few grants for the research) . Why cant i just be like that?
Its not that i spend lotsa time 'vaining' on my FB ( yg cam seminggu skali pun malas der aku nak update) or complaining how i ve been doing in my blog and waiting for ppl to comment... I suppose i ddidnt spend too much time on internet btw, but where are all the hours gone..
Why cant i manage my time like others? Tim kai.. Pour quoi...?
On not so serious note...
I think i m doing just fine ( pulak)
except for the imaginary curtains that r supposd to be hanged on the windows at my abode.. and some tiny items that i keep on forgetting to purchase...
I think I d be fine...
not to forget, except for a bifollicle cysts which have decided to appaear again in my ovary...
I think I m gonna be just fine for the next 10 years...
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