Am having straight lectures from 2 till 7 pm today, hence tis updating.. sebab akak dah sangat mengantuk ni due to the mounds of food that i ve just eaten during lunch ( jamuan , courtesy from a few colleagues). of lates, there are too many tasks queueing up, semuanya nak kena buat at one shot.. tak ke haru tu..
anyway tis is the life i chose.. kang takder kije sangat kan complain jugak.. goyang kaki lama sangat pun bo-sssssan jugak.. manusia ni memang tak pernah bersyukur.. (tetiba..)
anyway, akak nak mula mengatur langkah ke lecture hall yg dekat basement tu hahaha.. nak lalu pun ala2 going thru tunnel dulu...
owh well.. just a short update to overcome my so-called 'narcolepsy'...hopefully the students wont catch the same syndrome.. "dream on" lol
till then...
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Of expenses and not being selfish..
weekend is back to normal. Akak with usual routine. Bangun pagi, bfast ala kadar, sapu rumah ( kalau rajin), mop rumah ( kalau kotor sangat) and bukak sliding door luas2 whlle swinging myself to sleep ( usually i wont la, sebab akak kan mana suka tido siang, kunun.. ). Pas tu kalau lapar, I will make myself simplest lunch using watever ingredients that i d already have at home.
However, while thinking of the last week's chaotic event, akak terasa la akak ni sangat SELFISH because I was like, feeling so relieved to conduct a normal life again tis weekend.
So adakah akak ni memang mementingkan diri sendiri? due to the [normal' life that i ve been leading for 40 years? Seriously, once u r so used of living alone, any abrupt interval will be such a nuisance to me.. ( tapi mengapakah akak rasa akak sangat SELFISH?)
Seriously, I m not proud of myself. Ropernya bukan senang nak berlaku ikhlas in watever things we do. There'd always be a tiny voice in my mind who'd be questioning whether I have done it rite, or its just a waste of money and time for me to do any god deeeds. sangat paranoia ok.. Itu lah.. selalu jek ada bisikan syaitan bila kita nak berbuat amal kan?
Anyway on the other hand, its very easy to just spend your money over unnecessary things ( but on 2nd tot someone has to convince me that it is essential to me).. However I m still contemplating over it till it'd be too late and tengok2 i ve actually spent the money over 'things' boley
So, since nasik dah jadik bubur, I d try to make it fruitful of wat i ve spent.. and yeah.. probbaly I d get to see the effect after let see... the soonest in 3 months time..?
But for the time being, probably i need to cut down my food intake ( yeah rite.. ) and try not to shop too much.. (ok.. no more new blouses and new pants for the next 3 months lol)
However, while thinking of the last week's chaotic event, akak terasa la akak ni sangat SELFISH because I was like, feeling so relieved to conduct a normal life again tis weekend.
So adakah akak ni memang mementingkan diri sendiri? due to the [normal' life that i ve been leading for 40 years? Seriously, once u r so used of living alone, any abrupt interval will be such a nuisance to me.. ( tapi mengapakah akak rasa akak sangat SELFISH?)
Seriously, I m not proud of myself. Ropernya bukan senang nak berlaku ikhlas in watever things we do. There'd always be a tiny voice in my mind who'd be questioning whether I have done it rite, or its just a waste of money and time for me to do any god deeeds. sangat paranoia ok.. Itu lah.. selalu jek ada bisikan syaitan bila kita nak berbuat amal kan?
Anyway on the other hand, its very easy to just spend your money over unnecessary things ( but on 2nd tot someone has to convince me that it is essential to me).. However I m still contemplating over it till it'd be too late and tengok2 i ve actually spent the money over 'things' boley
So, since nasik dah jadik bubur, I d try to make it fruitful of wat i ve spent.. and yeah.. probbaly I d get to see the effect after let see... the soonest in 3 months time..?
But for the time being, probably i need to cut down my food intake ( yeah rite.. ) and try not to shop too much.. (ok.. no more new blouses and new pants for the next 3 months lol)
Monday, February 15, 2010
Kalau sapu lantai rumah sampai 10 kali sehari adakah maksudnya akak mengalami simtom2 OCD?
Seriously, akak menjadi sangat rajin mengupadate 2-3 hari ni memandangkan aktiviti akak yang biasa di hari cuti iaitu tido terbongkang di atas sofa sambil tengok tv tidak dapat dilaksanakan berikutan kehadiran tetamu2 kecil kat rumah akak ni. Arakiannya terpaksa la akak mencari hobiain untuk mengisi masa cuti selama 4 hari ini dengan mencari pepenjuru dinding dan membuka laptop sambil mem-bloghopping, walaupun sumpah, aktiviti begini adalah paling tidak digemari tatkala cuti panjang. Akak rela melepak disofa kecik yang hanya boleh memuatkan 2 orang kanak2 sahaja sambil menonton back to back episode siri CSI. Tapi minggu ini akak terpaksa mengorbankan sofa kecik kesayangan akak itu utk orang yang lebih memerlukan huhuhu. (tapi akak rasa cam cuak jek sebab budak2 cam manjang tengok tv jek, ye lah,, anak orang, nak akak tego2 kan.. majuk nak balik rumah anak2 yatim lak kan)... ishhh sesungguhnya akak adalah amatur di dalam bab2 cam ni tau..
Hari Sabtu, akak berjaya goreng mee hoon untuk lunch, dan rasanya menjadi kegemaran ramai kot sebab akak bagi dorang makan sampai malam hahaha ( tak senonoh tul). Lpeas tu pagi semalam akak goreng segala frozen food yang ada dalam fridge, pas tu bfast makan roti dan butter jek.. tengahari akak pegi tesco carikan baju barang 1-2 helai untuk budak2. Seriously, akak nengok dorang ni pakai baju cam tangkap muat jek. Baju kurung yang boleh isi seoranmg budak lagi..Yang herannya tak nampak pun dorang letak panties dalam bakul baju kotor tu...Akak sangat musykil jugak tu.. adakah diaoramg pakai panties yang sama berhari2? ( eeuuww tak sanggup akak nak tanya).. so kesudahanya, akak belikan panties, baju tidur, baju jalan dan sandals untuk diaorang. pagi tadi kitaorang turun bawah bfast kat kedai mamak, dah bergaya sakan la dorang dengan baju yg dibeli semalam tapi yg tak berapa sedap mata memandangnya, dorang still pakai tudung yang dah al-ala telekung sembahyang gayanya. Nak tego, karang takut kecik hati pulak... ( bukannya akak ni nak cakap akak ni orang bandar, pandai bergaya, tapi zaman akak muda remaja dulu, kalau akak tak berapa pandai berpesyen, nak mix n match ni.. ada jek la yang tolong tego kan cakap pakai cam ni tak seswai. ) Ala mak akak dulu memang cukup trendy per.. dia la yang menjadi penasihat fesyen utk akak cewahhhh hahaha.
Itu lah.. susah juga nak menego anak orang ni ghoopernyaaa yob..
Entah la.. adik akak dah tepon katernya nak ngambik akak dan anak2 pi rumah dia. Kita org nak bbq tengah hari ni.. biasa la sambut tahun baru cina hehehe.
By the way, 2-3 hari ni akak feeling2 cam mak2 org , iya lah.. selalunya akak basuh baju seminggu sekali jek, nih hari2 duk mesin baju.. sapu lantai pun 10 kali sehari.. ala budak2.. sikit2 suka beno nak makan kuaci pastu buat sampah kat lantai.. akak nak tego karang.. takut kecik hati ( eeee manjang akak ni nak kena pikir cam ni).. so selang 1/2 jam la akak duk mop lantai dapur, sapu lantai kat hall.. cam dah OCD plak rasanya.. hahahah (kalau tak mak akak ni.. nesti dia bangga, anak dia dah jadi pembersih cam dia hahahah)
Akak taktau la perassan depa ni camna.. iya lah.. entah2 sekali ni jek diaorang nak datang sini.. serik dah pas ni hahahaa.. tapi yang akak sukerrr sangat ngan budak2 ni.. masuk waktu jek terus solat tak payah nak menjerit2 nak suruh dorang solat.. Alhamduliilah bab2 ni tak perlu nak ajar.. dorang dah ajar yg elok2 kat rumah anak2 yatim tu..( anak buah akak kalau bab2 solat ni memang selalu buat tak ingat.. nak rotan pun.. mak bapak dia sendiri pun tak wat cam tu..)
Kadang0kadang terdetik jugak di hati akak yang selfish ni... rasa macam " ishh dah 40 tahun hiduo sorang, ada budak2 ni cam menyusahkan la.. " heeee trak senonoh tau hati jhat akak nih.. Tapi itu la.. akak kan dah berazam, tahun ni, resolusi akak adalah memperbanyakkan amaln dan mengurangkan pembaziran. ( iyalah.. selalu akak shopping bagak utk diri sendiri pas tu akak rasa menyesal sebab membazir..) tapi akak belanja utk dorang semalam, alhamdulliah akak tak rasa cam tu...Tengok keaddan rumah dorang yang terpaksa berhimpit2 untuk tidur, dengan kemudahan yang ala kadar tu.. akak rasa insaf. Akak cakap kat anak buah.. camna ye.. kalau kita masa kecik2 dulu terpaksa duk cam ni.. mesti asyik memberontak jek.. semua kena kongsi.. Iya lah.. akak ni pun ramai adik beradik, akak kan anak ke 5 dari 7 org adik beradik, maaa kecik2 dulu pun kena kongsi jugak.. tapi takle sampai kena share sampai 30 orang sekali. Dengan ruang yang sempit lagik.. Ada 3 orang adik beradik ni, semua lelaki ( yang paling kecik 4 tahun)dihanyar ke RAAY sg Manggis tu daripada Jabatan Kebajikan. Bapak diorang asyik duk bagi anak2 kat orang pas tu mintak duit Eventually jadi kes polis, dan budak2 tu pun.. dah serik , Dorang takut nak jumpa orang, takut orang akan ambik dia cam dulu2..Bila ramai orang datang melawat , terus masuk rumah sembunyi.. Kesiankan.. baru 4 tahun tapi dah trauma cam tu...
Akak nak kena pegi dulu.. Esok budak2 dah nak balik... lepas ni rumah akak sunyi balik.. Siri akak bercakap dengan dinding akan disambung balik hahaha...
Hari Sabtu, akak berjaya goreng mee hoon untuk lunch, dan rasanya menjadi kegemaran ramai kot sebab akak bagi dorang makan sampai malam hahaha ( tak senonoh tul). Lpeas tu pagi semalam akak goreng segala frozen food yang ada dalam fridge, pas tu bfast makan roti dan butter jek.. tengahari akak pegi tesco carikan baju barang 1-2 helai untuk budak2. Seriously, akak nengok dorang ni pakai baju cam tangkap muat jek. Baju kurung yang boleh isi seoranmg budak lagi..Yang herannya tak nampak pun dorang letak panties dalam bakul baju kotor tu...Akak sangat musykil jugak tu.. adakah diaoramg pakai panties yang sama berhari2? ( eeuuww tak sanggup akak nak tanya).. so kesudahanya, akak belikan panties, baju tidur, baju jalan dan sandals untuk diaorang. pagi tadi kitaorang turun bawah bfast kat kedai mamak, dah bergaya sakan la dorang dengan baju yg dibeli semalam tapi yg tak berapa sedap mata memandangnya, dorang still pakai tudung yang dah al-ala telekung sembahyang gayanya. Nak tego, karang takut kecik hati pulak... ( bukannya akak ni nak cakap akak ni orang bandar, pandai bergaya, tapi zaman akak muda remaja dulu, kalau akak tak berapa pandai berpesyen, nak mix n match ni.. ada jek la yang tolong tego kan cakap pakai cam ni tak seswai. ) Ala mak akak dulu memang cukup trendy per.. dia la yang menjadi penasihat fesyen utk akak cewahhhh hahaha.
Itu lah.. susah juga nak menego anak orang ni ghoopernyaaa yob..
Entah la.. adik akak dah tepon katernya nak ngambik akak dan anak2 pi rumah dia. Kita org nak bbq tengah hari ni.. biasa la sambut tahun baru cina hehehe.
By the way, 2-3 hari ni akak feeling2 cam mak2 org , iya lah.. selalunya akak basuh baju seminggu sekali jek, nih hari2 duk mesin baju.. sapu lantai pun 10 kali sehari.. ala budak2.. sikit2 suka beno nak makan kuaci pastu buat sampah kat lantai.. akak nak tego karang.. takut kecik hati ( eeee manjang akak ni nak kena pikir cam ni).. so selang 1/2 jam la akak duk mop lantai dapur, sapu lantai kat hall.. cam dah OCD plak rasanya.. hahahah (kalau tak mak akak ni.. nesti dia bangga, anak dia dah jadi pembersih cam dia hahahah)
Akak taktau la perassan depa ni camna.. iya lah.. entah2 sekali ni jek diaorang nak datang sini.. serik dah pas ni hahahaa.. tapi yang akak sukerrr sangat ngan budak2 ni.. masuk waktu jek terus solat tak payah nak menjerit2 nak suruh dorang solat.. Alhamduliilah bab2 ni tak perlu nak ajar.. dorang dah ajar yg elok2 kat rumah anak2 yatim tu..( anak buah akak kalau bab2 solat ni memang selalu buat tak ingat.. nak rotan pun.. mak bapak dia sendiri pun tak wat cam tu..)
Kadang0kadang terdetik jugak di hati akak yang selfish ni... rasa macam " ishh dah 40 tahun hiduo sorang, ada budak2 ni cam menyusahkan la.. " heeee trak senonoh tau hati jhat akak nih.. Tapi itu la.. akak kan dah berazam, tahun ni, resolusi akak adalah memperbanyakkan amaln dan mengurangkan pembaziran. ( iyalah.. selalu akak shopping bagak utk diri sendiri pas tu akak rasa menyesal sebab membazir..) tapi akak belanja utk dorang semalam, alhamdulliah akak tak rasa cam tu...Tengok keaddan rumah dorang yang terpaksa berhimpit2 untuk tidur, dengan kemudahan yang ala kadar tu.. akak rasa insaf. Akak cakap kat anak buah.. camna ye.. kalau kita masa kecik2 dulu terpaksa duk cam ni.. mesti asyik memberontak jek.. semua kena kongsi.. Iya lah.. akak ni pun ramai adik beradik, akak kan anak ke 5 dari 7 org adik beradik, maaa kecik2 dulu pun kena kongsi jugak.. tapi takle sampai kena share sampai 30 orang sekali. Dengan ruang yang sempit lagik.. Ada 3 orang adik beradik ni, semua lelaki ( yang paling kecik 4 tahun)dihanyar ke RAAY sg Manggis tu daripada Jabatan Kebajikan. Bapak diorang asyik duk bagi anak2 kat orang pas tu mintak duit Eventually jadi kes polis, dan budak2 tu pun.. dah serik , Dorang takut nak jumpa orang, takut orang akan ambik dia cam dulu2..Bila ramai orang datang melawat , terus masuk rumah sembunyi.. Kesiankan.. baru 4 tahun tapi dah trauma cam tu...
Akak nak kena pegi dulu.. Esok budak2 dah nak balik... lepas ni rumah akak sunyi balik.. Siri akak bercakap dengan dinding akan disambung balik hahaha...
Saturday, February 13, 2010
2 orphans and a niece
Yes, I am not home alone today, there are 3 guests today, 3 girls yang kesemuanya masih duk terbongkang tak bangun2 lagi whilst me, the efficient lady ( ewahh!) has been awake since 7 am, took a bath, washing all my clothes while watching sonata labu labi 3 in astro... hahaha
I m feeling so uneasy tho, as I ve been so alone all the time.. i do wat i want to do, and today , i have 2 guests who only muttered a few words to me since last nite and a niece (tats an exception as she has known me since she was a baby)
I am not sure whether wat I did yesterday was rite, I mean.. its not easy to develop some kind of motherly love after an hour's conversation rite.. and I m not that ... u know... very motherly in person.. ( exception again to all the dozens of nieces n nephews of mine)..
I cant even suggest them to call me ibu.. ( hahah tat's wat i have in mind).. I mean do i have a right to ask them to call me that, and ishhh. im having problem to befriend 2 kids with the age range of 9-15. I mean.... i m not going to ask them to stay wth me forever kan.. and its even difficult to invite the youngest sister to come and stay with me for 4 days... well she was ok for the first few minutes and later on she started shaking her head.. do i look like a terrible person whom can scare the kid... ( where the hell is the psychoanalyst when i most need em la?)..
and why the hell i feel so unsecured in a sudden? I do not have to make any effort to make them like me rite,, I shud be as wat I am before.. dont have to impress anyone rite.. (wahhhh i m a very confused lady today hahahah)
I mean hello akakkkk.. they r only kids... why do u have to be so worried... (but yeah I am dementedly worried.. as I have no experience with any kids before.. I dun have a kid on my own.. neither motherly instinct...).
What if they dont like me and start comparing wth the guardian from the orphanage... and why suddenyly i feel some responsibiliies has been thrown onto my shoulder where as all these while i live for myself.. never thot of anybody else.. is that a good thing or wat?....huwaaaaaaa..
this is very new to me la.. and for God sake akakkkkk.. this is only a temporary.. u r not gonna see then next week.. and probably u d get to me them in another few months... ( wahh I m feeling so cruel la pulak)...Sapa suruh ko gatai nak berangkat- angkat kan? huhuhuhu
Gila kentang punya orang hahahaha.. ( akak la tu...)
ok la.. I m trying my best to adapt to this situation.. will do my best... )even tho i m suck in cooking).. so dorang akan makan kat luar jek la hahahah..
wokeh.... poi sidai kain dulu... will update later about them..
now am gonna be a good 'mom' and wake them up.. ( uishh kalau anak akak sendiri.. dah lama dah membebel ni..)..
see.. there're hindrances that prevent me from acting like a real mom.. cos I m not sure whether they like it or not if i act like one...
waaaahhh payahhhh nyaaaa...
pergi makan nasik lemak dulu la.. kot2 dapat idea... hahahha
I m feeling so uneasy tho, as I ve been so alone all the time.. i do wat i want to do, and today , i have 2 guests who only muttered a few words to me since last nite and a niece (tats an exception as she has known me since she was a baby)
I am not sure whether wat I did yesterday was rite, I mean.. its not easy to develop some kind of motherly love after an hour's conversation rite.. and I m not that ... u know... very motherly in person.. ( exception again to all the dozens of nieces n nephews of mine)..
I cant even suggest them to call me ibu.. ( hahah tat's wat i have in mind).. I mean do i have a right to ask them to call me that, and ishhh. im having problem to befriend 2 kids with the age range of 9-15. I mean.... i m not going to ask them to stay wth me forever kan.. and its even difficult to invite the youngest sister to come and stay with me for 4 days... well she was ok for the first few minutes and later on she started shaking her head.. do i look like a terrible person whom can scare the kid... ( where the hell is the psychoanalyst when i most need em la?)..
and why the hell i feel so unsecured in a sudden? I do not have to make any effort to make them like me rite,, I shud be as wat I am before.. dont have to impress anyone rite.. (wahhhh i m a very confused lady today hahahah)
I mean hello akakkkk.. they r only kids... why do u have to be so worried... (but yeah I am dementedly worried.. as I have no experience with any kids before.. I dun have a kid on my own.. neither motherly instinct...).
What if they dont like me and start comparing wth the guardian from the orphanage... and why suddenyly i feel some responsibiliies has been thrown onto my shoulder where as all these while i live for myself.. never thot of anybody else.. is that a good thing or wat?....huwaaaaaaa..
this is very new to me la.. and for God sake akakkkkk.. this is only a temporary.. u r not gonna see then next week.. and probably u d get to me them in another few months... ( wahh I m feeling so cruel la pulak)...Sapa suruh ko gatai nak berangkat- angkat kan? huhuhuhu
Gila kentang punya orang hahahaha.. ( akak la tu...)
ok la.. I m trying my best to adapt to this situation.. will do my best... )even tho i m suck in cooking).. so dorang akan makan kat luar jek la hahahah..
wokeh.... poi sidai kain dulu... will update later about them..
now am gonna be a good 'mom' and wake them up.. ( uishh kalau anak akak sendiri.. dah lama dah membebel ni..)..
see.. there're hindrances that prevent me from acting like a real mom.. cos I m not sure whether they like it or not if i act like one...
waaaahhh payahhhh nyaaaa...
pergi makan nasik lemak dulu la.. kot2 dapat idea... hahahha
Friday, February 12, 2010
Belok berlengkar...
I have a 'ttm' who will always criticize of whatever term that i use in my daily conversation, especialy when i communicate with him. For eg: me: jam giilerr hari ni., kenapa ek? Him: can you please try not to use 'giler' in your conversation.. me: tampo kang bersepai karang ( dalam hati jekkkk)..
seriously, as I can be easily influence with all the terms that they include in their blogwritings, for instance, i'd somehow, will not purposely include em in my conversation.. as if im trying to expand my vocab ( la konon)..
some other words ie tak boleh blahh . ( which i do not specifically understand wat i means )or something sounds like sungguh hampehh..
I have no problem with people using those 'in' terms.. however i have him who will try to grammatically correct my so called language.. ( sangat geram di situ.. )
There was one situation, he even criticized this one radio ad. regarding faizal tahir's statement..cannot totally remmebr waht he said.. but this fella did mention something like this "Walaupun saya menyanyikan lagu rock dan berjiwa rock, tapi saya masih suka lagu tangkap lelehhh.." which brought some kind of anger to him when he listened to the dialogue.. and there he went with " apa tangkap leleh.. ada ke maksud tangkap leleh tu dalam kamus DBP bla bla bla"
Ihave to admit, I m not good in writing a proper malay.. i tend to combine watever terms that i read in a blog.. ( i have to say there's not many blog who practise proper malay writing... most of them wrote the cacamarba words in it ( like me)..
On other note, I had a tiff with him again this morning, when i gave him a direction to go to UPm while passing by the PKNS Complex.. " sampai depan sana traffic light, u belok kanan".. yes, I said belok, which is a common word for me, and i m 110% sure you can find it in any Malay-english dictionary..
But he say it was weird to hear someone said 'belok",while adding that the last time he heard the word, it was like more than 10 years ago, when he had a conversation with a Singaporean malay.
and I said belok is totally a malay word no matter what region we r from..
and then he asked, why don't u say pusing instead.. so I ansered, no pusing is only when u ask a person to pusing like a 180 degree nya action of moving.. but belok is like u do an action by turning 90 degree.. boley?
see.. i ve related it wth some mathematical or more like geographical lattitude or longitude...
still he was not satified.. he kept asking why.. andthere i was throwing him an acrid remarks.. 'that is because you dont have that many friends that u can converse with" U do not give direction to others instead u drive sendiri ikut kepala u which eventually resulted of u sesat bagak... " luckily he forgot to fuss about my bagak term heheh
i wish i can initiate another fury.. by saying gila kentang la u ni... serve him rite kan... lol
anyway.. happy holiday... and yes, I d be hibernating at home for 4 days... am fetching a niece at banting in an hour and probably take a short visit to an orphanage at sungai manggis later on..
GONG XI Fa Cai....
seriously, as I can be easily influence with all the terms that they include in their blogwritings, for instance, i'd somehow, will not purposely include em in my conversation.. as if im trying to expand my vocab ( la konon)..
some other words ie tak boleh blahh . ( which i do not specifically understand wat i means )or something sounds like sungguh hampehh..
I have no problem with people using those 'in' terms.. however i have him who will try to grammatically correct my so called language.. ( sangat geram di situ.. )
There was one situation, he even criticized this one radio ad. regarding faizal tahir's statement..cannot totally remmebr waht he said.. but this fella did mention something like this "Walaupun saya menyanyikan lagu rock dan berjiwa rock, tapi saya masih suka lagu tangkap lelehhh.." which brought some kind of anger to him when he listened to the dialogue.. and there he went with " apa tangkap leleh.. ada ke maksud tangkap leleh tu dalam kamus DBP bla bla bla"
Ihave to admit, I m not good in writing a proper malay.. i tend to combine watever terms that i read in a blog.. ( i have to say there's not many blog who practise proper malay writing... most of them wrote the cacamarba words in it ( like me)..
On other note, I had a tiff with him again this morning, when i gave him a direction to go to UPm while passing by the PKNS Complex.. " sampai depan sana traffic light, u belok kanan".. yes, I said belok, which is a common word for me, and i m 110% sure you can find it in any Malay-english dictionary..
But he say it was weird to hear someone said 'belok",while adding that the last time he heard the word, it was like more than 10 years ago, when he had a conversation with a Singaporean malay.
and I said belok is totally a malay word no matter what region we r from..
and then he asked, why don't u say pusing instead.. so I ansered, no pusing is only when u ask a person to pusing like a 180 degree nya action of moving.. but belok is like u do an action by turning 90 degree.. boley?
see.. i ve related it wth some mathematical or more like geographical lattitude or longitude...
still he was not satified.. he kept asking why.. andthere i was throwing him an acrid remarks.. 'that is because you dont have that many friends that u can converse with" U do not give direction to others instead u drive sendiri ikut kepala u which eventually resulted of u sesat bagak... " luckily he forgot to fuss about my bagak term heheh
i wish i can initiate another fury.. by saying gila kentang la u ni... serve him rite kan... lol
anyway.. happy holiday... and yes, I d be hibernating at home for 4 days... am fetching a niece at banting in an hour and probably take a short visit to an orphanage at sungai manggis later on..
GONG XI Fa Cai....
Saturday, February 06, 2010
Tak perlu tajuk.. buat semak je
Hari ini hari Sabtu bersamaan 6 hb Februari 2010. Dan akak rasa cam nak ber-entry la plak hari ni, besides all the laziness and the tots of how much time u spent writing an entry. More than an hour ok.. walaupun untuk entry yang ciput.. serious.. tat's why akak pikir 2-3 kali kalau nak post entry kat opis.. as I feel like I can do other better things ie tulis report ke.. marking paper ke kalau kat opis..
Taaaapiii.. kalau kat rumah tu lain la kan... as i have thousands and thousand of minutes of free time kat rumah... and then I ll have another notion.. of spending my free time at home by sleeping ke.. tengok tv ke.. rather than on my laptop and updating my blog.. (cess ada jek ngko alasan yekk).. tapi serious.. i cant imagine how all these blooger tegar can write like 3-4 entries/day... and can spend like hours to upload piccas etc.. sebab akak tak bolehhh okkkkkk ( walaupun zaman muda temaja dulu.. akak adalah chatter tegar whom can spend whole day to chat wth strangers..) tapi sekarang tidak lagi... sebab akak kan dah tua.. chatting2 bagai tu sudah tidak sesuai lagi okehhh..
Another thing, blogger tegar juga suka confide watever feelings inside them into writings and blogs are such a good medium.. tapi itu la walaup blog akak ni takder pun org baca tapi akak rasa cam tak sampai hati nak curahkan segala perasaan akak kat sini.. well there are time that i feel like venting out ( cam pagi tadik.. akak rasa sangat disappointed sgt becaouse pusat KOKO didnt invite me to be come as one of the facis for the next FS.. despite of my aplication form yang akak hantar awal.. tapi dorang tak panggil akak ( and i suspect this is due to the not so good evaluation from the previous students in my group, walaupun akak yakin dorang bagi evaluation bagus, tapi sebab numbering yang cam mengkonpiuskan dorang yg eventually evlauation facis tu dorang isi number yang lain la..) im very sure of dat.. tapi itu la... (macam kes nak sedapkan hati je).. of course we cannot depend on the students' evaluation kan.. tapi betul la i m not a good faci kot.. prev sem mine was above 4.5 pre...there goes my budget for jogja trip.... huwaaaaa..
See.. i managed to let my hair down a bit gak kat sini kan....
Im bringing back works from the office... gigih nak buat kije kat rumah untuk merawat hati yang lara...
I know i lead a mundane life nowadays.. pegi balik kije during weekdays.. and no excitement during weekend due to my hibernating life style.. am too lazy to visit siblings as my bro yg sorang tu asyik la pi outstation.. the nephews r too bz ( bz main PS) to attend their lone auntie... so i d rather stay at home instead.. at least duk rumah leh gak la shed off a few calories dengan membasuh pinggan mangkuk, perati the picabot vacuuming for me by controlling the remote, sidai kain angkat kain...etc.. ( yes its stil mundane jows for a few)
I dun even go back for CNY.. cos i tot there'd be unsurprised event occur at that time,, tapiiii na n ado.. which actually add more salt to my wound..seroiously I think i m such a fialure for a lotof things.. ( but im not revealing myself la.. katerr blog is not the media for confiding.. hahhaaha)
and also I have a few procrastinating task... due to my... ermm.. lacking skill of driving... nak gi mana2 on weeeknd harus laaaaaa pikir 10 kali (or more) whether i have the gut to ask other favours from my weekday driver... tambah2 plak kat area sg chua ni agak segan untuk menapak ke depan naik cab.. and of course i know they r gonna charge me likeeee.. waaayy more than the normal fare...
Im making myself bz-ier.. tapi tu la.. dah nature manusis.. dah bz complain la plak... pas tu dah byk sangat free.. complainnn jugakkkkkk...
so akak think.. im gonna sit down silently, watching AFC kat astro, drooling over the food ( tapi nak masak malas) while typing my report... I need an extra budget for the jogja trip ni.. i need watever works that wud give me some extra income.. ( except for stripping2 and whoring)..
ok la.. dah more than 30 mins already... ciao..
Taaaapiii.. kalau kat rumah tu lain la kan... as i have thousands and thousand of minutes of free time kat rumah... and then I ll have another notion.. of spending my free time at home by sleeping ke.. tengok tv ke.. rather than on my laptop and updating my blog.. (cess ada jek ngko alasan yekk).. tapi serious.. i cant imagine how all these blooger tegar can write like 3-4 entries/day... and can spend like hours to upload piccas etc.. sebab akak tak bolehhh okkkkkk ( walaupun zaman muda temaja dulu.. akak adalah chatter tegar whom can spend whole day to chat wth strangers..) tapi sekarang tidak lagi... sebab akak kan dah tua.. chatting2 bagai tu sudah tidak sesuai lagi okehhh..
Another thing, blogger tegar juga suka confide watever feelings inside them into writings and blogs are such a good medium.. tapi itu la walaup blog akak ni takder pun org baca tapi akak rasa cam tak sampai hati nak curahkan segala perasaan akak kat sini.. well there are time that i feel like venting out ( cam pagi tadik.. akak rasa sangat disappointed sgt becaouse pusat KOKO didnt invite me to be come as one of the facis for the next FS.. despite of my aplication form yang akak hantar awal.. tapi dorang tak panggil akak ( and i suspect this is due to the not so good evaluation from the previous students in my group, walaupun akak yakin dorang bagi evaluation bagus, tapi sebab numbering yang cam mengkonpiuskan dorang yg eventually evlauation facis tu dorang isi number yang lain la..) im very sure of dat.. tapi itu la... (macam kes nak sedapkan hati je).. of course we cannot depend on the students' evaluation kan.. tapi betul la i m not a good faci kot.. prev sem mine was above 4.5 pre...there goes my budget for jogja trip.... huwaaaaa..
See.. i managed to let my hair down a bit gak kat sini kan....
Im bringing back works from the office... gigih nak buat kije kat rumah untuk merawat hati yang lara...
I know i lead a mundane life nowadays.. pegi balik kije during weekdays.. and no excitement during weekend due to my hibernating life style.. am too lazy to visit siblings as my bro yg sorang tu asyik la pi outstation.. the nephews r too bz ( bz main PS) to attend their lone auntie... so i d rather stay at home instead.. at least duk rumah leh gak la shed off a few calories dengan membasuh pinggan mangkuk, perati the picabot vacuuming for me by controlling the remote, sidai kain angkat kain...etc.. ( yes its stil mundane jows for a few)
I dun even go back for CNY.. cos i tot there'd be unsurprised event occur at that time,, tapiiii na n ado.. which actually add more salt to my wound..seroiously I think i m such a fialure for a lotof things.. ( but im not revealing myself la.. katerr blog is not the media for confiding.. hahhaaha)
and also I have a few procrastinating task... due to my... ermm.. lacking skill of driving... nak gi mana2 on weeeknd harus laaaaaa pikir 10 kali (or more) whether i have the gut to ask other favours from my weekday driver... tambah2 plak kat area sg chua ni agak segan untuk menapak ke depan naik cab.. and of course i know they r gonna charge me likeeee.. waaayy more than the normal fare...
Im making myself bz-ier.. tapi tu la.. dah nature manusis.. dah bz complain la plak... pas tu dah byk sangat free.. complainnn jugakkkkkk...
so akak think.. im gonna sit down silently, watching AFC kat astro, drooling over the food ( tapi nak masak malas) while typing my report... I need an extra budget for the jogja trip ni.. i need watever works that wud give me some extra income.. ( except for stripping2 and whoring)..
ok la.. dah more than 30 mins already... ciao..
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