Miss Loo said..

do i look taller? huh.. cam org pregnant ada le.. the dres a bit bigger.. at least leh org kata im getting smaller. posa baru 2 hari. dah put off weight.. cett

here's my messy table.. and the famous file rack.. ahaaaa.. lupa.. lagi satu.. my infamous book shelf.. len kali kita tunjuk heheh...khor gave me the powerpuff stickers when i first got the pc..

so they know me as the dr with the powerpuf sticker on her pc.. gave lotsa diff with other ppl's pcs..

opsss lupa... me 2 weeks ago.. with the infamous bookshelf..

While u were working..

I am still here, doing nothing (except browsing thru ntah apa2 websites, mostly other ppl's blogs, considering mine is not as good as theirs,, eeee dengki dengki..).. so in between reading ppl's blogs, i ve been forced to view a ghostly website ( some hse in Thailand, which u have to click everywhere to hear the sound effects, nak buat org takut la tu... i did give some comments tho.. for the worst n unsucceeded attempts to scare ppl off.. wooo hooo) and now Norul s been sending me IM to dl a pic, some delivery in the water, nak share experinece ni dgn DR.. haaa ye la tu... as if i have all the time in the world to dloading pics, not to mention the pornos, i d straightly vomiited for the 2nd time karang kang.,.. ha.. )
btw, afer an enormous meal of kari ikan, i gave khor an itinerarydetail of wat i ll be having for lunch ( cet.. dah le takposa,, siap tapau lagik tu), so she decided to measure the ikan goreng, ( after an hr waiting for her to bring back the tapau) , I dun have the right measurement for yr ikan, Dr, but there's an ikan that is headless, and not long enugh to fill the room in the polystyrene)... anthr insinuation, i must say...
Abang wud surely know wat i d be having everyday for lunch. as everytime he called me and asked wat i had for lunch, he's alreday know the anser,,makan nasik, ngan ikan, ngan sayur,, kuah skit skit... ikan either the ikan darats ie talapia, keli, bla bla.. and it has to be fried.. sayur? hmm.. ulam will do.. or any pucuk.. pucuk turi, betik, cekur manis,.. kudos to Ida.. hehehe
Its a bit quiet today.. dunno y.. maybe i vent been here since monday.. everyone is either having classes, tido, printing some recipes (Fz did tat earlier, and we have read the recipe aloud...)
Im not in the mood to mark the pharmaco paper, one missed the test, which i havent realised till today.. ok.. she'll take the test tomorrow..
Im dead beat...lambat lagi ke nak kul 5 ni... ?
Btw Loo said i looked tall today, due to wat i wear today perhaps.. abis dah takder baju kat bandar utama, rembat jek la apa yg ada, luckily i m not wearing tshirt n jeans to work today.. didnt leave any baju kurung over there... hmmm anthr 3 hrs to go.. hipefully fz is in the mood to go back early today... i need to find the better mood.. hopefully.. tomorrow's the day... uwaaaa malasnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

Back to reality

i woke up with an unease feeling, like the day when i went to the clinic, maybe its the symptom of hypoglycaemia, i dun no ( shud enquire mom abt this). so konon2nya nak sahur cos I think I d be able to fast today ( awat le kalau time bulan posa, tak menyempat-nyempat nak cepat2 posa, jangan bagi period lama sangat), still feeling unwell, especially in the stomach. Vomitted once before going to KJ , need to buy the ticket first, aaahh cant stand the long wait while standing for the bus to come.
Anyway, Abg was supposed to send me back to ipoh rite after buka posa. Nak buat camna, kereta mati rite infront the hse, nasib belum masuk highway lagi.. I was so mad at him last nite... cakap pun dah menegking-nengking.. heh.. nasty me... but sometimes i think he tried so hard to please me that at times he forgot that things are not happened as we planned. so instead of snapping at him, maybe i shud blame the car LOL. i decided to take a bus the next day.. which is y i m now.. huhuhuhu.. i m back to work after a week leave... malasssnnnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... makkk
so thing will be going as usual... luckily i ve finished all the syllabus for the classes. so tadak la kacau sgt... i really dun feel like barking at the students during ramadhan ni.. so tadak kelas i dunhv to face them except the time they want to meet me...

a very tiring week

First of all, i m angry at myself for not updating tis blog, tho i ve lotsa things to tell ( yeah rite), so maybe i cud compile all the events that happened since last saturday and put it all in today's event. Cam tak aci la plak.. we dun want to hear the past stories,, but then, I guess we dun have any rules and regulations tat stated, anda hanya boleh tulis apa yg beralku pada masa tu jugak in todays event.. tak kesah le.. janji rock bebehhhh
so.. rite after i arrived from ipoh ( went back with a friend's car, tak jadi balik ngan train .. huhuhu.. here goes my 1st train ride),..
the next morning, there's a kenduri kawin ( an impromptu one actually, cos its all set up in one nite) at the neighbour's hse. Its a wedding of their friend's son. the bride is from UK, comei gila.. a HK chinese and english mixed. It was quite a surprised as we went to the hse in the morning and found that there's a pelamin and everything's ready. yang kelakarnya, they havent invited any guests for the ceremony yet, ye la.. gila pe.. kerja kawin been done in one nite.. shud appoint kak (the neighbour) as a wedding planner next time. We did tease her abt it... kak ana the wedding planner, a whole wedding package, with guests, complete bridal ceremony ( include pelamin, santapan pengantin etc) for any pengantin yg tak sempat nak arrange the whole thing.. hehhee best gak..
so when the pengantin arrived, 1/2 hr later, they put on the bridal suit, took photos zap zap zup everywhere, changed to antnr suit, makan pengantin... more guests coming, luckily i were able to sneak out in the middle of the chaos, changed to a baju kurung (cos i was in tshirt and jeans all morning) nasib le.. kalau pakai comei awal2 lagi ada harapan jadi pengapit pengantin.. hampehh..shud bring the camera too.. boleh tangkap gambar and put the pics in ere.. rugi tul.. i was joking with abg sani ( kak ana's hubby) that we shud ask TV3 to capture these memorable moments.. hahaa
so.. on sunday , i and abg went househunting. and we wasted a few hrs by following wrong routes according to the signboards. so there were curses etc, condemnin g the way they built highways and confusing ppl with their stupid signboards. we finally reached the right destination rite aftyer maghric, nothing much to see cos its already dark. had dinner at IOI mall, and missed anthr exit, so we went to the same route that we ve been to for the 4th times..
on monday, had lunch at midvalley with amal and kak ina. Abg li was there with his business associates, I didnt feel like eating anymore chicken till thge next decade ( after the wedding, i dun think i can see anymore 'ayam") but between beef and lamb, i d rather opt for "chicken' hahaha..
Syazana asked me to accompany her breaking her fast in the evening. after getting an hr nap, went to The curve and we have difficulty in choosing the place to eat. She wanted to have pasta, after a few pros n cons we chose cafe 1920's. not so bad,, while comparing which place had better pizzas, we decided vivo makes better ones . went joyriding to bangsar afterthat, and its indeed a joyride cos syazana bumped into someone's car..luckily, not much damage on the other car, but. syazana's car ( actually abg sani's ) quite bad. the bmw nya lambang ilang ntah kemana, and the front car, a bit messy. it was quite a bump, but we 'langsaied" it by giving RM50 to the car owner. ( its less than that, cos nothing happeend to her car. except dekat bawah ( dekat ngan plet kereta) je yg tercabut)
syazana asked me not to tell her mom, so terpaksa la berlakon, as syazana told kak ana that someone has hit the car when its parked at the curve's parking lot. asked him to tell kak the truth, but she said she wont be able to drive again once the truth is revealed, aiyakk.. i tat case i ve to play along la..
tuesday is the clinic day, i wasnt unwell since the morning, met abg at the hospital lobby as he has promised to accompany me, not much he cud do but his presence meant a lot tho.
A nice goodlooking doc tis time. felt at ease while telling my probs to him. there s a lump under my armpit besides the current RA of mine, so after undergoing embrassing physical examination ( wat to say, its his job wat, ) i ve been asked to make an appt wirth a surgery clinic, suspen gak.., cos a lump cam mean 'something" uwaaaaa.. hopefully its not the one that i m afraid of.. berserah ajelah..
tot of having a look at the hse in serdang, but the agent gave stupid reasons at the last minute, so instead of hsehunting.. we went carhunting LOL. abg wanted to buy a many many hands car 9( tat wont cost much la), we cant afford buying a brand new or a 2nd hand car.. dua2 semekin.. hehehe.
so at the end of the day, we didnt find anything.. today.. abg will go and see the car owner, if its still in good condition, i think we ll just go for it.. so abg will sent me back to ipoh tonite.. if thing goes as we planned.. yeahhhhhhhhhhhh

The Train Ride..

Its a very cold, lazy friday to me. santi has followed Norul to KL tis morning, even spent the nite at Norul's hse. If i were her, i may act like her too. knowing that yr car been wrecked by some adjusters who think they knew everything about insurance claiming, u d gonna be dementedly worried!
Abg has promised to come to ipoh after work today and we ll take a train to Kl together at the wee hr. Still hasnt succedded on contacting the ipoh train station, but i think there will be available seats for us. hahaha.. if thing goes as we planned, this will gonna be my first train ride yee haaaaaaa! with my beloved beside me.. yeahh.. it will gonna be a train ride to remember..dum deee dummm
We ll be reaching KL at 6.30.. perhaps take some brekfast first with abg before heading to Bandar Utama. Abg Li wont be in Kl till sunday evening. Might plan to go somewhere with Syazana tomorrow. Abg wants to spend whole sunday with me, and we r planning to hse hunt. There r lotsa things to do now with abg around.. hahaha.. cant wait to occupy the hse with him and the twin.. Hope the dream will become true early next year.. apa2 pun.. kumpul duit dulu....
The Rheumatoid clinic is on Tuesday. Abg has promised to go with me. hehehe bestt... having someone who is very concern and loving.. a visit to the clinic is always the most boring and dull event to me.. hmm.. do i need to bring along the paperback or not... now i have a talking companion going with me next tuesday...

Emotional imbalancing

Blame it to my PMS. or perhaps i woke up at the wrong side of the bed today. sooooo lazy today.. trying to mark soem students answerimg script.. but i managed to finsih one page of many pages only.. Huarghhhhhhhh... feel like lazing on bed... daydreaming.. Watching the pittering appetring of the rain drops at the window panes... waiting for the colrful rainbows to come out.. feeling the breezy wind on my face... i wish i were now somewhere in the middle of the field, in a hammock, sipping some fruit juice, with abang pampering me all over.. owwwwwwwwwww...
guess.. i got to land back on reality land now... i need a break.. i really do!!!

Katrina and now, Rita

Years ago, when i was not at tis age ( which i consider i m a very matured person at tis age, tho at times, i wondered abt it), i read an article about why hurricanes and typhoons are named as women's name. There are Betty, Lulu, Lola etc and lately i heard about katrina and there will be a Rita coming to Texas as well. they r women bcos thats how they interpret the women's mood. Chaotic, haywired like a hurricane. Unpredictable, unexpectable, worst out come bla bla..
Then how abt the men? I guess they wont name any hurricanes on a man's name. There wont be a John typhoon.. or an Albert Hurricane.. LOL
I monder how they get those names .. who give the names? Some men fella? in dat case, i salute him for giving such cute n gorgeous nicks to hurricanes.. hahaha
Anyway.. i m still waiting for an Edward typhoon.. I hope there will be one in the future..

I left my heart in Perlis

left for perlis at 10.30. Abg arrived abt 10, went to medan gopeng, picked him up.. and Perlis here we come..
Reached Perlis at 3 pm. sampai sampai jek terus makan nasik. feel a bit uncomfy.. have to sit on the chair whilst they served the food on the floor.. seemed tat they ve been informed abt my condition.. so i tried to b at ease. Food was superb.. all kampung dishes.. healthy as well..
opssss fz dah nak balik.. sambung esok.. bbye bloggie

Dalam hati hanya ada Abang

I think tis has gone too fast..I ve only known him for less than a week.. but now we ve been making plans and all.. For the first time I think I ve found my suitor.. He's a GOD send and the only one that I can think i can spend my whole life with.. His honesty and sincerity.. has melted me and it seemed like.. all my previous love affairs were erased from my memory
Now I understand y ppl can be so mellow and romantic.. and obsessed with love.. he's my soulmate.. i nvr doubt abt it anymore..
The feelings is undescribable.. the tot of him.. he fills every space of my mind.. i dun have the exact words to say.. but the only thing that I know..
I want to spend the rest of my life with u... abang.. Je'taime beau coup...

After a year

God.. its been too long.. since i started working in ipoh, i ve forgotten to write my blog anymore.. tho it keeps on sending me reminder to fill it.. so wat happened after a year?
hahahaha.. my wish has become true... i ve been too bz with my works, students and all..
and the most important thing is... I ve found him... YES.. him.. only a few days ago.. and he is the most honest and sincere man that i ve ever 'met" I know i ll be safe with himm..
lotsa things that i wanna tell abt him.. tapi lidahku kelu... he's he GOdsend.. he's all i wanted in a man..
finally i ve completely over pakcik.. tho he's working in teh same college as me now.. feel nothing towards him now..
abang has filled every inch of my mind now..
.......

New job new life..

Tot i ve lost this blog cos last fe weeks i ve bene trying to log in but it seemd that my blog has disappeared! so it surprised me when tonite i 'found' back my missed blog! Actually there r lotsa things happened this month.. First.. I got bz with my convo.. and then I finally landed for a job! Finally.. i m suppose dto report duty last week.. been procrastintaing it.. as i ve clinic appts and tried to change the incoming appt to tis week. moreover.. i ve to find a suitable/ comfy hse in ipoh.. so we ve been to ipoh every weekend fpr the past 2 weeks to hse hunt..finally we found it.. tho its not to 'cosy", after all its only a low cost flat.. but.. its very convenience.. i dprobably move to a better hse once i m safely settled.. it d be very lonely living alone withput anyone to talk to..
so.. today is my last nite in KL.. tomoorow i m going to ipoh.. settling down for a few days b4 starting my new job next wednesda
I ll be celebrating my merdeka day in ipoh in fact.. alone
....
HappyMerdeka day.. and a happy new life to me...
Perhaps i d be able to write again when i m in ipoh.. I m sure there d be a netweork in the college..
yet.. i wont be able to chat anymore.. esp at nite..
Ode to IRC

Rindu bertandang lagi

Saja buat topic havoc, tho i ve nobody to be missed of.. senyap dan sunyi je rasa alam maya ini.. yet it is definteky serene to me.. its been 3 weeks since i last posted anything.. eventually, i ve been too lazy.. tho there r lotsa things that i really want em to be captured in ere.. and my convocation is only a few days away.. biasa jek rasanya.. tho i guess.. ma n bak are actually abit excited abt tis.. esp when they ve been to the same convo in the same university thrice..tis one gonna be a bit difefrent then... diff Unive i must say.. will give  adiff environment to em.. I m still jobless with so much free time to spend.. Tho i did attend an interview 2 weeks ago.. and my confidence level to get the job.. is actually 99%.. i m still wondering.. wat if they dun want me bcos of wat I am? hmm.. tat will be one tough decision they d gonna make.. hmmmm but for now.. i m praying for the ipoh job.. hopefully i wll get it... Amin

Hemorrhoids and all

Huwarghh... i ve been back in KL for more than a week already.. been suffering with hemorrhoids for the past few days.. very painful indeed... and i read in an article.. stress n pressure influenced it.. ( in my case, i know.. it does) apart from.. err bad eating habit? or my lacking of drinking water.. definitely.. too lazy to go downstairs for a glass of water everytime i m up here..have to blame tis artificial knee cap again.. lol
so now both of my sistas are pregnant..do i feel like i m the only one left alone in tis world now? a bit perhaps..
realy happy for them tho i had enuff of em complaining abt their nausea and hormonal changes.. lol
i havent sent my application form yet.. been procrastinating it for days already.. firts abt the difficulties to certify the certs.. i had zuni's chop for a few days till she came and took ikt back...
i dunno.. i had enuff free times already.. been doing the same routine for almost a year.. ( and it only changed if i m sick or sth.. not that i m happy to have ailments.. ) but i need a goal.. something that i look fewd too...
TUHAN.. tolonglah aku.. redakan keresahankuuu...
aminn

so many family events..

Its been 2 weeks since i last posted. within the period.. i ve been thru so many events, family events. it all started with the formal khenduri kawin of zura.. it was held last week.. on the 10th and 2 days later, the menghantar event and just after tat, the 'ramai2 back to KL".
and i ve decided that i wanted to stay anthr week in Kb before going back to dull, boring rushing town called KL.
then life was not so bored a few days afterwards as zuni decided not to go back with her hubby, she left 2 days later.
and here I am.. stuck in Kb till next tuesday...
till then.. trying to figure out how to paste som pics in ere.. last time.. i cud do it..

its been too long

lama betul rasanya tak menjenguk blog ni.. as there's nothing much to write.. still got too much free time and while abg li's n co are now happily travelling all over NZ, i m happily browsing n chattiing all day n nite. Lotsa novels had been read. Lotsa time have been wasted actually. and I am still JOBLESS! Huwarghhh.. while visiting Dr KIm this morning, getting a job sounded so easy it seemed.. U have got the highest qualification.. why shudnt they want u? and i was grinning like a fool? yes.. and if there is ever anthr highest degree that i havent obtained, this is gonna be the perfect time to say that I ll continue pursuing..Duhh
well there r lotsa pvt or IPTAs tumbuh bagai cendawan.. tapi sukarnya nak mendapat kerja.. mungkin kah aku tidak bersungguh2 mencari? Pasti!
watever it is by hook or by crook.. i ll have to get a job b4 my convo.. and the reason is?..
I need to fill this blog with lotsa exciting things.. works for eg.. shud be one excitement of my life..
i m just so sick with my life lately,..
being unproductive.. is actually not the main goal...

mencari Sinar

bosan sungguh rasanya.. memikirtkan diri yg tak punya pekerjaan.. sampai bila la nak melepak cam ni? terasa tertekan sungguh, walaupun ku akui usaha nak mencari pekerjaan itu tdak lah bersungguh -sungguh.. byk rilek drpd beusaha nak cari kije.. tapi memikirkan kudrat yg tak sebyk mana ( im being pathetic again.. duhh)
mulai esok, berseorangan la aku bersama bibik selama 10 hari.. ok gak tu.. leh bebas.. yeehaaaaaaaaaa ( cet.. perasan)
benci benci benci... bosan ngan idup ni.. bila la aku nak kije nii weiii
. teringat pakcik.. camna agaknya org tua tu.. 2 hari lepas ada sms dia.. tanya pasal meeting dia ngan MB johor..
agaknya betul lah.. i m no longer exist.. tapi tak salah aku tanya pasal urusan patronet.. after all i m part of it
Tktahu la sampai bila idup aku cam ni.. ada qualification.. tapi lepak cam org tak pas SPM.. sedih gak ati aku ni...

back in KL

so.. I m back in KL.. supposed to come back nxt week.. tapi ingat nak jimat budget ( not my budget, bak's budget actually) tumpang zura balik Kl je.. with rasma.
Balik je.. dah 2 bijik buku baca,, dua2 Norhayati berahim's. Best gak.. setulus cinta and hati yang luka. kadang2 bila baca novel cam ni.. terasa yg ia pernah berlaku dalam kehidupan kita. hati yang luka mengisahkan seoarng lelaki yg ego, yang terlalu sukar nak mengucapkan kata sayang pada isterinya. Tak pernah menghargai sang isteri.
baca buku tu tiba2 jek teringat pakcik. he never said that he loved me..
aku je yg selalu duk cakap kat dia :(
Sukarnya nak mendengar satu kalimah tu daripada dia. Sebab tu la.. aku tak terkilan sekarang..
betul gak kata penulis.. hati perempuan kalau dah terluka.. sukar nak diubati
Sampai mati aku takkana percaya dah kata2 dia..
memang malas nak di ingat.. makin diingat makin menyampah kat dia..
Alhamduliilah.. rasa tenang tanpa dia sekarang..
Misi kedua.. cari kije lak..
Urghhhhh...

Days after Zura's aqad

Funny, i havent been ere for a few days and when i logged in again.. everything has chnaged.. new looks of blogger. Its amazing one can go thru so many changes afetr a few days. this is one solid proof that ppl can go thru so many thing even after a few days. I m stuck ere at home, yet feeling more serene than ever. How time flies. Its been a week already. And i think i can forget Mr nasty. he's been sending me emails lately still give me fibs of his stories abt his no been barred but he still use the no. I sent a blank sms to the no and if the no is still available, i d surely got its delivery report. I did and half an hr later he replied with his usual "pssttt"
I nvr replied..
I was thinking of how foolish i was last time, and i cudnt think of anything good abt him now. he lied to me. Fullstop.
Guess it wud be better if i remain alone for the rest of my life
"kecintaan itu satu obsesi" sebenarnya...
Cinta pada Yang Satu juga yg kekal selamanya..
The thing is i have learnt to keep my anger inside and nvr let it out to anyone
But one thing for sure, its hard for me to accept and believe ppl (esp men) anymore...

itchy meeny mini mo

too bad.. i m all itchy for scalp to toe.. tot it was measles.. after all, amal has just caught it a few weeks b4. and kak ina tot it was from the bamboo mat that she put as a cover on the mattress.. so it ends up that i got an allergy.. and i didnt remember taking anything that can suppress the allergy on me..
finally the doctor pointed out that i might be allergic of theantibiotic i took.. but i tot i ve taken the same antibiotic so many times before..
perhaps i was wrong.. perhaps i ve been taking diff antibitics before.. i m pretty sure that i m so allergic to penicillin and its all mentioned out everytime the doc asked me.. anyway.. perhaps the same class of antibiotic has given a lesser effect to me..hmmm
well who am i kidding with? if I were to be admitted to a pharmacy fac.. i shud know how to differentiate drugs and antibiotics.. aint i?huh.. i m no pharmacist la.. huhuhuhu
going back to KB in the afternoon tomorrow to attend zura's ijabkabul and afterwards perhaps i ll stay there for a few weeks till my interview's result come out.
Dr Shah is a history now.. Funny, afetr aweek, i finally realkised that i m so allover him already.. In fact.. he is one of the 'thing' that i dreally wanna diminish from my mind..
been scratching all over.. except for the face.. it feels so good to scratch the skin when it is so darn itchy.. arghhh

a very dull holiday

cuti panjang tapi ntahle..bosan la plak rasanya. nak keluar pun bukannya sihat sgt.. sekejap ok sekejap idak... rasanya dah sembab sgt muka pasal makan ubat byk sgt.. dan satu lagi penyakit yg baru timbul.. rasa gatal2 kat jari kat kaki.. guess this is one of the side effects.. after all.. dah lama tak ambik ubat with maximal dose
tat lunatic woman harassed me again a few days ago.,.
tiba2 je antar sms pepagi buta.. siap tulis kot omputeh tapi aku pun takpaham apa yg dia nak sampaikan sebenonya..
lantak le.. tapi aku simpan jadikan barang bukti.. mana la tau..
other than that.. rutin idup aku 3-4 hari ni.. makan pas tu tido.. pas tu tgk tv..
nasib baik ada novel 2-3 bijik.. nak ngadap pc pun aku malas ni
tapi disebbakan dah takder aktiviti lain, nak kuar pun malas... mengingatkan aku janji ngan amir nak bwk pi Sunway pyramid tapi bila tgk dlm purse cuma ada 50 ketul, aku terpaksa batalkan niat suci aku tu..